Some texts from my journal.

[thestudyingalchemist]

This is the begining of my journal that I share with you, it's not really good but... BTW I want to share it. I'm writing some text about alchemy and satanism too that I'll share in a few days maybe.

Journal

26/10/2013
Here's my life.
Just walking, but throu what?
All the values start to disapeer all the ideas... Why?
Is it the begining or the end of all I'v been looking for?

I wanna live, I wanna love, but It's a long hard road out of hell.
-Marilyn Manson - The long hard road out of hell

The girl I loved is the girl that didn't exist and the god I loved is the god that hate me.

I did not hate god or christ, but the god and the christ of the people I hated.
-Aleister Crowley

I'm looking for love, fantasm something; but everything is unreachable,
just like 2 weeks ago I was thinking a lot about the world,
since I'm small and especially these last 6 month.
I'v been throu a very difficult period in my mind.
And now it seems that it's better than having like now nothing at all.
For the very first time I want to be back to my other house.

This isn't a show this is my fucking life.
-Marilyn Manson - vodevil

End for today

27/10/2013

And all our yestardays have lighted fools the way to dusty death.
-William Shakespear - the tempest

My mind goes nowhere, I guess that my heart too...
Fucking waking up, eating, shower, market.
Still bored anyway what am I supposed to say?
No ambitions at all, worst than before.
Nobody understand me, whats gonna kill me?
I feel so idiot knowing how intelligent I am.
Love's gonna bring us to death, death's gonna bring us to love.
I hate myself.

I hate what i have become to escape what i hated being.
-Marilyn Manson - Organ Grinder

I'v just cut myself to my old life.
Hopping it will 'maybe' help me.

I'm starting a new life now.
This journal will follow me to my destiny.

28/10/2013

Peace of mind is less than never.
-Avenged Sevenfold - Nightmare

Today nothing special, just like everytime get freaks out by this world dominated by cretins.