A strange past life?
Posted: Thu Jan 21, 2016 3:35 am
So, my thoughts on this topic may be extremely biased, and I'll explain why shortly, but to start things off, I've come to a strange conclusion about my most recent past life.
All evidence somehow points to me being Kurt Cobain in my last life.
I'll explain my bias on this, as well as my reasoning towards this conclusion as well. First, forgive me, because I'm typing this on half of a smashed computer screen, and my vision is quite obstructed.
I've thought this over for a very long time before deciding to post this here, so don't think this is some random thing.
Listening to over 200 songs on shuffle right now, and the past three have been Nirvana songs, just since writng this.
First and foremost, the reason why my ideas may be of a biased nature;
When I was in middle school, a child in my class introduced me to playing guitar. His favorite band was Nirvana, and by the end of our friendship, we'd learned almost every one of their songs together.
I'd read a few books on Kurt's life, and though my father also introduced me into the band, it wasn't until this time I really spent any time listening to them.
Even during this, I never payed any attention to the lyrics, or how the music made me feel, or what any of it really meant. Really, it was just pretty noise, to me.
At some point I read Heavier than Heaven (Kurt's biography), and learned a bit more about what his life entailed.
Now, I obviously have a lot of knowledge about him, and it's been there since before I started learning about the occult, and indulging in mystical practices. This is the primary reason why I feel like I might be biased. I could just be reflecting on past knowledge to better myself here. We'll see your opinion by the end of this.
(Another apology, because this is very poorly written, and I think there are a few typos in there. I seriously can't see on this screen.)
About ten or so months ago, I was listening to some music and singing to myself while no one was home. I was kind of using it as a form of meditation, unintentionally.
First off, I need to mention that whenever I sing music that I have very emotional connections to, I start to get light-headed, my hands lose feeling, and I tremble a lot. This is not a breath-work issue. I have the feeling that the songs are sapping my emotional energy to a painful degree, though this is only speculation.
Once I got to a Nirvana song, I started having the same emotional feeling, although I'd never felt it for this song before. The crazy thing, for me, is, I didn't get any type of light-headed. Instead, I became energized. My body was filled with strength, and I felt a lot of extremely raw emotion that most people wouldn't give Nirvana credit for.
Every song of theirs I sung, I found very strange parallels to my own life. Ways I've already gone wrong, and ways I could better my current path. It was as though I was listening to my own hidden messages (as I already consume the occult knowledge of everything, as well as the mundane knowledge).
I started understanding things about Kurt's life I never saw before. It's clear by his drawn art, as well as his music and biography that he was at least somewhat interested in the occult happening at the time.
I feel like he simply wasn't developed enough. He had something in the brain that corrupted him, and it led to his downfall.
I feel like he even predicted his own end with All Apologies.
Given what I know about suicide, and how my path has ended up, it's given me some strange thoughts I can't quite place. (this thread gets more poorly written as I go, please bear with me. I've got some weird tinglings.)
i was born the same year he died, in december.
For a suicide, it's not too hard to believe that I could be sent back here that quickly. From what I've read, reincarnation can take anywhere from a couple weeks to a few years.
I've also had a very, very, and, seriously, I can't stress this enough, VERY INTENSE HATRED of heavy narcotics. There was actually a time I wasn't even going to do acid, until I took the time to learn about it (and I don't even remember how I learned about most of these drugs. It's like, there knowledge is just there.)
The utmost peak of this list of hated drugs contains Heroin as it's number one contender.
The second below that is methamphetamine, but that's understandable, and most would have that at the top of their list.
(I'm also terrified of scopolamine. Look it the fuck up and protect yourself.)
Every time I listen to a Nirvana song, I find something new that applies to my life both at the immediate time and in the general long-run. It's astounding. I can't find any other explanation for it.
Now, I have this same thing with other music, where I learn things that fit to, and can be applied to my life, but they're never so direct as with this. I know this is all super fucking weird, but when I sing songs by other artists, I sing as though I'm being sung-at. Like, I take the persona of the artist and project it towards my body. It's a habit.
When I sing Nirvana songs, and completely naturally, it feels as though the music is coming only from me.
I also have a very tough time singing and playing guitar at once. It's been something I've always sought after, and it's always kept out of my grasp. As soon as I make progress, I simply.. Don't. I screw up somehow and simply can't do it anymore. It feels as though I've lost music from my life, but the music I prepared ahead of time (or my higher-self prepared) was kept in tact for me to begin my fundamental spiritual progressions.
Who's to say, about all of this, really. I just want some opinions on it more than anything.
(got a few songs from other bands, but I'm ending this post on On a Plain. "I love myself, better than you. I know that it's wrong, so what should I do?")
Again, I apologize for the poor write. It isn't like me, but I just need this shit out of my head. I also apologize for my swearing and typos. One day, when I have a non-broken screen, I may re-write it. Especially if no one wants to reply.
Anything you guys have to offer on this, though, is absolutely needed. I would be indebted for anything offered.
(Forgot to make this note before, and doing so to invoke or avoid argument. Yes, Courtney did kill Kurt. But she didn't put the gun to his head. She did it with emotional and physical abuse and neglect. He was obviously a very sad man, and I can assure you he felt terrible for how he did as a father. Just stuff to ponder.)
All evidence somehow points to me being Kurt Cobain in my last life.
I'll explain my bias on this, as well as my reasoning towards this conclusion as well. First, forgive me, because I'm typing this on half of a smashed computer screen, and my vision is quite obstructed.
I've thought this over for a very long time before deciding to post this here, so don't think this is some random thing.
Listening to over 200 songs on shuffle right now, and the past three have been Nirvana songs, just since writng this.
First and foremost, the reason why my ideas may be of a biased nature;
When I was in middle school, a child in my class introduced me to playing guitar. His favorite band was Nirvana, and by the end of our friendship, we'd learned almost every one of their songs together.
I'd read a few books on Kurt's life, and though my father also introduced me into the band, it wasn't until this time I really spent any time listening to them.
Even during this, I never payed any attention to the lyrics, or how the music made me feel, or what any of it really meant. Really, it was just pretty noise, to me.
At some point I read Heavier than Heaven (Kurt's biography), and learned a bit more about what his life entailed.
Now, I obviously have a lot of knowledge about him, and it's been there since before I started learning about the occult, and indulging in mystical practices. This is the primary reason why I feel like I might be biased. I could just be reflecting on past knowledge to better myself here. We'll see your opinion by the end of this.
(Another apology, because this is very poorly written, and I think there are a few typos in there. I seriously can't see on this screen.)
About ten or so months ago, I was listening to some music and singing to myself while no one was home. I was kind of using it as a form of meditation, unintentionally.
First off, I need to mention that whenever I sing music that I have very emotional connections to, I start to get light-headed, my hands lose feeling, and I tremble a lot. This is not a breath-work issue. I have the feeling that the songs are sapping my emotional energy to a painful degree, though this is only speculation.
Once I got to a Nirvana song, I started having the same emotional feeling, although I'd never felt it for this song before. The crazy thing, for me, is, I didn't get any type of light-headed. Instead, I became energized. My body was filled with strength, and I felt a lot of extremely raw emotion that most people wouldn't give Nirvana credit for.
Every song of theirs I sung, I found very strange parallels to my own life. Ways I've already gone wrong, and ways I could better my current path. It was as though I was listening to my own hidden messages (as I already consume the occult knowledge of everything, as well as the mundane knowledge).
I started understanding things about Kurt's life I never saw before. It's clear by his drawn art, as well as his music and biography that he was at least somewhat interested in the occult happening at the time.
I feel like he simply wasn't developed enough. He had something in the brain that corrupted him, and it led to his downfall.
I feel like he even predicted his own end with All Apologies.
Given what I know about suicide, and how my path has ended up, it's given me some strange thoughts I can't quite place. (this thread gets more poorly written as I go, please bear with me. I've got some weird tinglings.)
i was born the same year he died, in december.
For a suicide, it's not too hard to believe that I could be sent back here that quickly. From what I've read, reincarnation can take anywhere from a couple weeks to a few years.
I've also had a very, very, and, seriously, I can't stress this enough, VERY INTENSE HATRED of heavy narcotics. There was actually a time I wasn't even going to do acid, until I took the time to learn about it (and I don't even remember how I learned about most of these drugs. It's like, there knowledge is just there.)
The utmost peak of this list of hated drugs contains Heroin as it's number one contender.
The second below that is methamphetamine, but that's understandable, and most would have that at the top of their list.
(I'm also terrified of scopolamine. Look it the fuck up and protect yourself.)
Every time I listen to a Nirvana song, I find something new that applies to my life both at the immediate time and in the general long-run. It's astounding. I can't find any other explanation for it.
Now, I have this same thing with other music, where I learn things that fit to, and can be applied to my life, but they're never so direct as with this. I know this is all super fucking weird, but when I sing songs by other artists, I sing as though I'm being sung-at. Like, I take the persona of the artist and project it towards my body. It's a habit.
When I sing Nirvana songs, and completely naturally, it feels as though the music is coming only from me.
I also have a very tough time singing and playing guitar at once. It's been something I've always sought after, and it's always kept out of my grasp. As soon as I make progress, I simply.. Don't. I screw up somehow and simply can't do it anymore. It feels as though I've lost music from my life, but the music I prepared ahead of time (or my higher-self prepared) was kept in tact for me to begin my fundamental spiritual progressions.
Who's to say, about all of this, really. I just want some opinions on it more than anything.
(got a few songs from other bands, but I'm ending this post on On a Plain. "I love myself, better than you. I know that it's wrong, so what should I do?")
Again, I apologize for the poor write. It isn't like me, but I just need this shit out of my head. I also apologize for my swearing and typos. One day, when I have a non-broken screen, I may re-write it. Especially if no one wants to reply.
Anything you guys have to offer on this, though, is absolutely needed. I would be indebted for anything offered.
(Forgot to make this note before, and doing so to invoke or avoid argument. Yes, Courtney did kill Kurt. But she didn't put the gun to his head. She did it with emotional and physical abuse and neglect. He was obviously a very sad man, and I can assure you he felt terrible for how he did as a father. Just stuff to ponder.)