Is it dangerous?
Posted: Thu Nov 02, 2017 12:49 pm
Hello,
I am totally newbie in the occult. Ive just started to read the Modern Magick book, done some basic rituals.
Few months before I started to learn about occult, sometimes, I had a weird, nice feeling in my body, similar to a shiver. It started when I was in deep depression, thinking of suicide. One evening I spoke to my ex girlfriend who converted herself to believe in god. After the conversation, when I was alone, I started to cry and this feeling appeared for the first time. The feeling came back almost every time I was thinking about god.
The feeling comes back also when I do the relaxation ritual, sometimes during the relaxation, but always when I finish during each exhale.
Does anyone feel it aswell? What and why is that? I am not ill.
Second question. I am often angry, because our world, humanity disappoints me. I use to be angry on specific people and it make me sad for days sometimes. Today in the morning after I woke up I imagined people made me angry and hurt them in physical and psychical ways. The anger has gone quick. Is it dangerous? Can I hurt anybody in the real world with this practice?
Some of you may think I am psychopat. Unfortunately you may be right. Anyway I dont want to hurt anybody. I just want to help myself and let the anger go away from me.
I am totally newbie in the occult. Ive just started to read the Modern Magick book, done some basic rituals.
Few months before I started to learn about occult, sometimes, I had a weird, nice feeling in my body, similar to a shiver. It started when I was in deep depression, thinking of suicide. One evening I spoke to my ex girlfriend who converted herself to believe in god. After the conversation, when I was alone, I started to cry and this feeling appeared for the first time. The feeling came back almost every time I was thinking about god.
The feeling comes back also when I do the relaxation ritual, sometimes during the relaxation, but always when I finish during each exhale.
Does anyone feel it aswell? What and why is that? I am not ill.
Second question. I am often angry, because our world, humanity disappoints me. I use to be angry on specific people and it make me sad for days sometimes. Today in the morning after I woke up I imagined people made me angry and hurt them in physical and psychical ways. The anger has gone quick. Is it dangerous? Can I hurt anybody in the real world with this practice?
Some of you may think I am psychopat. Unfortunately you may be right. Anyway I dont want to hurt anybody. I just want to help myself and let the anger go away from me.