Introductions..
Posted: Fri Jul 14, 2017 9:49 pm
Hello all! This is my first post so how about a little back story.. I was interested in the occult from a young age. It started with Wicca at age 15 and moved into kaballah during my later teens. I didn't understand much, just though magic was cool.
Around 18 I called bs and moved on with my life. I graduated college and moved in to sales and marketing. During my time spent there I developed a strong ego but I also began to learn basics of persuasion which grew into an understanding of psychology, symbolism, speech patterns and non verbal communication. I began to use this to my advantage and soon I didn't even have to think about it, things came in accordance with my will.
One night at the end of my second marriage I dreamed I was in my room gazing in my mirror. I saw a shadow as my reflection and became afraid. I used my will to banish the shadow but every time I did the dream would start over. About the seventh occurrence of the dream the shadow revealed itself as me. That was 3 years ago..
I began to take a long hard look at my life as I explored self and looked to transcend ego. I left my marketing career to become a teacher, returning to the baptist religion of my childhood. I moved from there into mathematics, physics and philosophy as I attempted to understand the basis of consciousness. I began to understand the more esoteric ideas of Tao, Buddhism and Hindusim. The Hermetic principles began to become clear to me (although I did not realize at the time there was a name for them).
Eventually I found the occult again and realized that I had been informally studying occult ideas this whole time. Now I am on a new journey.
I identify most with the middle way of the Buddha but do not seek to become a full Buddha. I am not interested in the trappings and ritual of the high magicks but identify more with the peace of nature and solitude. I have yet to make any other distinctions about my affiliation with the occult, choosing to study more in depth before selecting further paths.
Questions and comments welcome! I look forward to learning more.
Around 18 I called bs and moved on with my life. I graduated college and moved in to sales and marketing. During my time spent there I developed a strong ego but I also began to learn basics of persuasion which grew into an understanding of psychology, symbolism, speech patterns and non verbal communication. I began to use this to my advantage and soon I didn't even have to think about it, things came in accordance with my will.
One night at the end of my second marriage I dreamed I was in my room gazing in my mirror. I saw a shadow as my reflection and became afraid. I used my will to banish the shadow but every time I did the dream would start over. About the seventh occurrence of the dream the shadow revealed itself as me. That was 3 years ago..
I began to take a long hard look at my life as I explored self and looked to transcend ego. I left my marketing career to become a teacher, returning to the baptist religion of my childhood. I moved from there into mathematics, physics and philosophy as I attempted to understand the basis of consciousness. I began to understand the more esoteric ideas of Tao, Buddhism and Hindusim. The Hermetic principles began to become clear to me (although I did not realize at the time there was a name for them).
Eventually I found the occult again and realized that I had been informally studying occult ideas this whole time. Now I am on a new journey.
I identify most with the middle way of the Buddha but do not seek to become a full Buddha. I am not interested in the trappings and ritual of the high magicks but identify more with the peace of nature and solitude. I have yet to make any other distinctions about my affiliation with the occult, choosing to study more in depth before selecting further paths.
Questions and comments welcome! I look forward to learning more.