Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

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Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

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I have had a hard and painful life, suffered much trauma, things have been uphill till recently. About 18 years ago, due to a desire for "sin", I was, as the Bible says, "Given over to the devil" and dark, powerful, angry spirits were allowed to damage my spiritual "soul", that this body is an avatar for.

About 5 months ago I was given a series of early morning visions.

Around my broken body which darkness has enveloped, is a light. The light is Universe love energy that I was soaked in when I died in a hospital as a child, and had a NDE.

There is a creature at the edge of the light, her visage is one of a "Calm werewolf", her head is the head of a wolf, her body the body of a human, her legs, the long and curvy legs of a canine (Digitigrade). She is self-conscious and does not want to be fully seen by me, though she has revealed certain parts of herself to me.

In the second vision, my heart was connected to her heart. Our hearts beat in perfect unison. She is "My other half".

The third vision, I was able to communicate with her. I believe God/the universe had some preset questions for me to ask her, and possibly one question I asked her of my own will.

She hates God, she hates me, and she doesn't want to leave. She is in the first level of Hell. I was shown three layers, each darker than the last. There are fallen beings nine feet tall in the second layer. I could not see what was in the third, but possibly, "Leviathan" great swimming beasts that flow in the darkness, there.

So, I inquired into the universe (I was raised Christian, but I identify as spiritual, now.) as to why a half-wolf woman had the other half of my heart.

I was shown, her (Ms. Asrael. God told me he could not tell me her name because I would eventually speak it, and it would summon her- which may not be good for either of us.) and I were "Married", a couple, in higher realms (Perhaps Heaven?). Except, I was an idiot, selfish, angry, self centered, incapable of considering others. I only thought of myself.

I was not good to her- I loved her, deeply, but I was not a good husband. She protested to the Creator, so he placed her in a realm where he does not exist there, where she could be alone with her anger (Rather than pushing it down).

She joined a "rebellion" against the way things were in that realm- but for good reason. As Christians we are told the demons are bad, except I am coming to see that they actually have a very valid point. They were wronged, harmed, placed in difficult situations, in a place that should have been paradise.

Anyway, in my near death experience I saw beautiful lights you could hear and taste, it was amazing, then I was in darkness, in a place of rest (not hell), where God saturated me like dry bread in warm water, in His living waters of pure love (source). He didn't do this for me, he did it for them.

When I was given over to the devil, I was shown my wolf-wife made me her prey, and as such parts of me became absorbed into her body (And thus the trojan horse of love, as it once saturated me)

The light that is around me grows with each creature that steps into it. Any creature that has spent enough time in the dark realm but wishes for a different life at this point.

A christian scholar I spoke to asked me if "God is saving the demons" I said no, "God is giving them a choice". I was shown some demons are in terrible pain, bullied, sick, hungry, thirsty, in need of medical attention that isn't available to them.

I have spoken with a handful of these entities. Some are very charismatic. Intelligent. Cunning. Some times I realize I am capable of being deceived, and in some ways, i am at their mercy. But, i bare myself to them, and be vulnerable to them, and when I do, they surrender to me (Maybe because they know I will not hurt them?)

It has become aware to me that in being shown of her existence, Ms. Asrael has been made extremely vulnerable to all manner of torments and tortures I could do to her as a sort of exorcist, however, I choose not to harm her, though she has gotten her jollies out on my body in a gruesome way.

For some reason i really, really love her.

It has become aware to me that I am aware of the fact that I was incarnated as a tortured male human to learn meekness, humility, patience, love, and etc. To love canines. And by extension the uniqueness of my wife.

I've become aware of a man named Rudolph Steiner who was a spiritualist, and maybe all these incredible realms and creatures I suddenly have access to, maybe they can be made sense of?

That's why I am here. I want to know more about Ms. Asrael, this dynamic of a love-dance, why a crimson strand (A vein, actually) connects her heart to my heart, to the heart of God.

I was shown that God is just a nebula of energy. I asked God, why, then, manifest yourself as a short, bearded hippy stoner? God answered me 3 days later, he said, "Because energy is boring."

So, Ms. Asrael manifests as part-wolf.

I was shown that when God made her, he used a big barrel of living wolf-water, a big barrel of human water, and a heaping scoop of SENSUALITY (Among other things that make her unique). Her libido has tortured me all my life, I am becoming aware of.

God showed me I am made of a large barrel of human water, with a scoop of wolf- which is why she appeals to me in her current form.

As I do not resist these entities, and allow them to show me things, it seems like it is cascading in knowledge and understanding. These things are NOT in the Bible!

In fact God has told me to stop praying, and to figure this out myself. God desires me to be "Like him" in that I am either a creator, or will graduate to become one, soon. This may seem exciting, except it is an infinite, desperate Creator trying to stave of the horror of his existence as long as he can, as he lives through us. I am not immediately aware of what my purpose is. I can communicate with these creatures. I can summon them by thinking about them, where I must be vulnerable to them before they will communicate intimately with me and reveal themselves to me.

I would like to know the reason I was shown this woman who has my heart. I tried projecting love to her, and she snapped at me, which was very frightening, as she is very powerful. I was told she is so negative, my love "injures" her and causes her pain. God told me he is working on creating an aura of love around her by virtue of what is in her stomach. He is changing her, perhaps. The work is outside of my hands- it is my duty to fully release her- which is hard, but I am doing it.

I was shown a vision of the inky blackness of the dark realm, beginning to clear up to reveal a beautiful forest, trees, grass, and birds.

Ms. Asrael is out of my hands. The Creator must work with her as I release her outside of my own understanding. I am an ignorant human, my higher knowledge has been muted as I live as a human in this realm, I am ignorant and unschooled here. But, this is the place of learning, only these experiences are real, because in this realm you are mortal, you can die, so things are more real here than they are in other realms in some ways, if that makes sense.

This is the realm of learning, or enjoyment, or any entity that wants to experience this life. I was shown there are spirits that desperately want to experience this life, but cannot. And yet I viewed my first 40 years as ones of pain, suffering, and misery.

Anyway there is more but I will leave that here. I posted in another forum and it attracted a 60 year old man who has a spirit spouse as well, and I was able to communicate with her, I was able to help him somewhat, and he was able to go to a higher level with her. He is a very romantic man, but the dynamic between him and her is very, very strange, and transcends what we know and understand in this finite, limited realm.

I was so excited over the whole thing, I wanted to tell the whole world, but people tend to hear the story and "Unfriend" you. (I am careful who I tell any more) But, I can understand how strange it all sounds. Especially to Christians who are told to "Stay away" from the darkness. What am I supposed to do with the knowledge I have a spirit spouse? So, i am to release her into the hands of the universe. I have been stagnating the last few weeks as I went from excited, to overwhelmed, weary, then finally bored and confused, and "Over it" so to speak.

I was shown there are realms "Tuned" to forward and backward frequencies, in some realms it is 1,000 years from now, in others, I haven't even been born yet. In some realms, I see Ms. Asrael fully washed, clean, snow white fur, she is sitting indian-legged and smiling down on my from the heavens, cheering me on. In other visions we are together, reconciled, forgiving one another, and enjoying paradise together. In others, we have played out our love for one another, and choose different forms to explore our connection. In one realm, she is a flower, and I am a tree, for example. I absorb her energy there, and she, absorbs my own.

I was also shown Ms. Asrael is a very depressed feminine energy. She is weary, tired, and sad. Eons old sad.

There has to be another entity or many, many entities at work, here. Otherwise an ignorant, confused human has just been handed the keys to the universe, and has no idea what to do other than eat cannabis edibles, eat good food, drink good beer, and enjoy my life...

I am starting to see some "light", as I shut my business down and focused on myself, on finally relaxing from my traumatic child and adulthood. i am healing. I have had to go back to work, but things have changed. I am pursuing my highest calling, my purpose. Is it to introduce people to spirit spouses? Pursue being a medium for united people with understanding of their spouses? God told me to stop saying, "I don't know." Because, I do know. I knew before I was born in this world. So, I say, "The answer is not apparent, yet."



I am open to exploring more in perhaps a religious ayahuasca ceremony or seeking plant medicine to help open up my mind to understand these once taboo things that were once forbidden.

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I suggest you learn to control the frequency on which your awareness is operating at particular times.

Until you can choose/recognise/measure the plane and subplane on which you are operating, you will find it difficult to test your experiences - to tell the real from the unreal and remove the human filtering.

The core exercise is often called Rising on the Planes. The traditional kabbalistic form is not really suited to scientific practices. The use of images for navigation is too cultural and personal to allow easy peer review of perceptions and experience. A numerical form is much better but only toy versions are publicly taught.

Ask your inner sponsor to teach you

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Amor wrote: Fri Jun 18, 2021 1:01 am I suggest you learn to control the frequency on which your awareness is operating at particular times.

Until you can choose/recognise/measure the plane and subplane on which you are operating, you will find it difficult to test your experiences - to tell the real from the unreal and remove the human filtering.

The core exercise is often called Rising on the Planes. The traditional kabbalistic form is not really suited to scientific practices. The use of images for navigation is too cultural and personal to allow easy peer review of perceptions and experience. A numerical form is much better but only toy versions are publicly taught.

Ask your inner sponsor to teach you
Is my inner sponsor the entity of pure love who saturated my soul in his essence (pure love)?

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In my view, having been educated by Catholic priests, a Christian context provides theological constructs, such as "God", that obscure rather than clarify the nature of Reality.

Your sponsor is a being from outside this galaxy that is posted to this solar system to work with entities such as yourself.

As you become more effective in your meditation, your sponsor will find opportunities to guide you.

In one of my early posts on this forum I described the Flame in the Heart meditation. It is foundational.

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