Please Help
Posted: Wed May 17, 2017 5:08 pm
Hello ,
I think I might have suffered a very heavy curse and in result lost a portion of myself. I had a brief encounter with a girl who I think practiced witchcraft. I think that before we met she initially made a love spell because the whole think had that kind of feeling to it, but I'm not sure. We ended up in the same company of people and the feelings were bubbling up and tension was building. It turned out however that she had a brief affair with another guy from the same company. I felt that I should not interfere,although I think she wanted me to ask her out,but I kept my distance and watched as the situation unraveled as they were coming back to each other because of me being identified as a threat. I though it was alright at first but i felt that more tension was building as i felt that I was growing fond of her and beginning to get quite jealous. I even had a dream in the beginning before the got together how she sew up my spinal cord and I told her to go away, although the dream had a strange funny feeling to it. As time passed and we were all going to the same bar I felt an unconscious tension starting to build up and rise from my side although we've barely spoken to each other. At one time I felt a very strong psychic attack emanating from both of them at me and I felt terrible the next day. I thought that it would pass in time and continued going out with the same people but the tension was still there. Not too long after that one night I felt another massive psychic attack from them both at me and the next day I felt completely devastated. The next day I think I got an offer from my parents whether I want to go back to England and live with them to which i said yes. I had plans to do that in a couple of months, but I thought that it was a good opportunity and it's time for me to leave. The whole think felt kind of wrong but how am i supposed to know for certain. I did not even get the chance to say proper goodbye to the other people from the company,which i think left them offended, because i was "immediately required" to leave. The day at the airport felt really bad, like i was doing something that i was not supposed to. Afterwards in the plane during the middle of the flight I felt literally that my soul was being torn apart and that I will probably die during flight or the plane will crash.I even prayed during the flight. That did not happen, however my ID got confiscated at the border, as their system showed that it was compromised. I managed to get to my parent's house afterwards with a copy of my ID and a feeling like I'm doomed. I thought that it would be ok in the beginning but the next days it felt like hell as i was having constant arguments with my parents while feeling very week and basically non present in half.
The whole fact of me being there continued to have a very strange surreal feeling of uneasiness and tension. I though that it would be ok in time and ended up going out with my brother and his friends to a goth disco where i took some drugs. Next day i started to feel the aftereffects like i was totally drained, my body felt literally like jelly ,mind was extremely dulled and getting tired very easy. I also felt physically like i lost a great depth of myself. I've done the same drugs a couple of years ago but with no such effects and recovered in a day. The same negative effects are still present as of now, my body feels like its half empty inside and a bit like goo, my mind intellectually regressed and almost non present like there's something in my head that blocks it from being there. My emotional sense and sense of "context" are damaged as well. I basically feel almost like a subhuman. I think that the part of me that was supposed to make me heal is gone and I can't recover. I though that it was just in my mind, but two months after that i still feel the same way and I am starting to get scared and worried and trying not to panic. I though of a friend of mine who is a healer and when i checked my phone it turned out that he was visiting London the same week. We met and I told him of my experience. He advised that I should visit a certain sacred place back in my country, the same thought and place I had in mind a few days before we met. He left a week ago and now I am left to ponder whether it is possible or how to continue my life spiritually and mentally crippled as I'm finding myself of losing perspective and focus quite often. Hope i heal slowly in time, but I'm not sure whether I can reach a permanent recovery without getting back the part from me that i feel is "missing" or that was "ripped" in the plane. I have absolutely no idea how to do that or whether it is even possible, so please. All kinds of suggestions and opinions will be welcomed with great appreciation, gratefulness and gratitude as I dare not think of how bad the situation can actually be. Thank you.
I think I might have suffered a very heavy curse and in result lost a portion of myself. I had a brief encounter with a girl who I think practiced witchcraft. I think that before we met she initially made a love spell because the whole think had that kind of feeling to it, but I'm not sure. We ended up in the same company of people and the feelings were bubbling up and tension was building. It turned out however that she had a brief affair with another guy from the same company. I felt that I should not interfere,although I think she wanted me to ask her out,but I kept my distance and watched as the situation unraveled as they were coming back to each other because of me being identified as a threat. I though it was alright at first but i felt that more tension was building as i felt that I was growing fond of her and beginning to get quite jealous. I even had a dream in the beginning before the got together how she sew up my spinal cord and I told her to go away, although the dream had a strange funny feeling to it. As time passed and we were all going to the same bar I felt an unconscious tension starting to build up and rise from my side although we've barely spoken to each other. At one time I felt a very strong psychic attack emanating from both of them at me and I felt terrible the next day. I thought that it would pass in time and continued going out with the same people but the tension was still there. Not too long after that one night I felt another massive psychic attack from them both at me and the next day I felt completely devastated. The next day I think I got an offer from my parents whether I want to go back to England and live with them to which i said yes. I had plans to do that in a couple of months, but I thought that it was a good opportunity and it's time for me to leave. The whole think felt kind of wrong but how am i supposed to know for certain. I did not even get the chance to say proper goodbye to the other people from the company,which i think left them offended, because i was "immediately required" to leave. The day at the airport felt really bad, like i was doing something that i was not supposed to. Afterwards in the plane during the middle of the flight I felt literally that my soul was being torn apart and that I will probably die during flight or the plane will crash.I even prayed during the flight. That did not happen, however my ID got confiscated at the border, as their system showed that it was compromised. I managed to get to my parent's house afterwards with a copy of my ID and a feeling like I'm doomed. I thought that it would be ok in the beginning but the next days it felt like hell as i was having constant arguments with my parents while feeling very week and basically non present in half.
The whole fact of me being there continued to have a very strange surreal feeling of uneasiness and tension. I though that it would be ok in time and ended up going out with my brother and his friends to a goth disco where i took some drugs. Next day i started to feel the aftereffects like i was totally drained, my body felt literally like jelly ,mind was extremely dulled and getting tired very easy. I also felt physically like i lost a great depth of myself. I've done the same drugs a couple of years ago but with no such effects and recovered in a day. The same negative effects are still present as of now, my body feels like its half empty inside and a bit like goo, my mind intellectually regressed and almost non present like there's something in my head that blocks it from being there. My emotional sense and sense of "context" are damaged as well. I basically feel almost like a subhuman. I think that the part of me that was supposed to make me heal is gone and I can't recover. I though that it was just in my mind, but two months after that i still feel the same way and I am starting to get scared and worried and trying not to panic. I though of a friend of mine who is a healer and when i checked my phone it turned out that he was visiting London the same week. We met and I told him of my experience. He advised that I should visit a certain sacred place back in my country, the same thought and place I had in mind a few days before we met. He left a week ago and now I am left to ponder whether it is possible or how to continue my life spiritually and mentally crippled as I'm finding myself of losing perspective and focus quite often. Hope i heal slowly in time, but I'm not sure whether I can reach a permanent recovery without getting back the part from me that i feel is "missing" or that was "ripped" in the plane. I have absolutely no idea how to do that or whether it is even possible, so please. All kinds of suggestions and opinions will be welcomed with great appreciation, gratefulness and gratitude as I dare not think of how bad the situation can actually be. Thank you.