Some really good, and informative posts here, thank you. I will comment on them all when i have time.
RoseRed wrote:
Can someone familar with those rituals explain what they do in a nutshell?
Probably not extensively, as I have created them, and create them as I go along. The only constants are the names of GD, the Arch angels, and choirs. I do believe the spirit world allows the most leeway for the practitioner. which is the Kingdom of Assiah for each Sephira.
RoseRed wrote:
Can you list the experiences that have already been 'explained away'. Those are important, too.
Here is a list, I was going to omit some of these, but i may as well list them all -
I don't keep a journal so these are approximations:
1) Lost time
It has been nearly a weekly, or bi-weekly(although not lately)passtime for me to go into online metaphysics, and similar chat rooms and basically drink wine and chat all night. I have been doing this for years. I listen to music, and do my thing and go to bed. However, since I started practicing, and I should note that I have been quite passionate about metaphysics, and the Occult, to the extent of lighting ritual candles and doing quasi evocations/invocations while chatting and drinking. So anyways, sometimes i would wake up in bed, candle still burning, and not know how i got there. One time I woke up next to my GF, I got right out of bed and told here I wasnt done yet, and went back to it as I questioned her about the situation. So anyways, drinking has an exhilarating effect on me, not a depressive one, and this only started after my practice started.
2) Sleep paralysis
This happened on a couple occasions, during one it seemed that my body was shaking(vibrating?)vigorously as i started to wake up. In all cases the paralysis always lasts for under a minute.
3) OBE
This has happened twice(both entirely different) in my life. Once recently(3 months ago). I "thought" I woke up one morning and proceeded to get dressed, I could see something in front of me that looked odd. THEN I came to for real still in bed. This is weird to explain...but its like I was out of my body, but at the same time, laying on my right side in bed. I could see the glasses(cups) on my night stand. Lets just say that there were two perspectives that were mixed together. MY OBE perspective was normal, but was mixed with my perspective from laying in bed, and being half awake(eyes open apparently) and seeing the stuff on my nightstand. Seeing the items in front of me, from the OBE perspective, it looked like they were rotated 90 degrees counter clockwise.
4) Scents from nowhere
One day me and my GF were getting ready to leave, and out of no where I noticed this sweet mustardy smell. I asked her if she smelled it and she said no, then about 10 seconds later she said yes and described it as a sweet smell. I checked the windows to see if it was coming from outside, it wasnt, and almost as quick as it came it was gone.
5) Flickering light bulb
There was this one bulb that would flicker, dim, and go completely out for a few seconds to a couple minutes and then come back on. This happened just about every night and sometimes during the day. Once I change my ritual and moved on it stopped. This was about 2-3 months ago. The bulb is fine to this day.
That's probably most of it. I hope it's ok. I had to rush about halfway through because I have to take my GF to work.
Thanks for all the replies, I will respond to the others when I have more time. I will say though, that the comments thus far have shed some more light on all of this.