MoonMarbas wrote:It stands to reason that there are old secrets hiding within "the space between spaces".
Perhaps, as the OP said, the answer can't be simply found within the pages of a book, or on a website made by people regurgitating the same old theories and ideas that we've been exposed to for far too long.
I believe it's been a long time coming for another to rise to the challenge of exposing themselves to the most dark and forgotten aspects of the occult, the "void" of the astral plane, channeling beings beyond our comprehension of all things to bring a new word to the seething masses of weak minded individuals who restrict themselves with petty bickering and false ideologies of moral compass.
Though one must truly think deeply upon what it means to do something like this, given it is even a real concept.
In order for one to reach beyond what has ever been brought to us before. To reach beyond life and death, the individual has to truly transcend madness and sanity itself. They'd have to be in a pure state of non-existence, absolute nothingness. It requires an individual who is willing to give up all that is, to discover all that is not and has never been, yet observes from the "deep" all the same. And therein lies the issue, how would one come back from something so overwhelming? So terrible and non existent?
The Necronomicon was a work of fiction, although many argue that fact. But what Desecrated is speaking of goes beyond the veil of what our imaginations can even begin to comprehend, Necronomicon included. When he speaks of darkness, he is speaking of something that is so dark, and truly eldritch in nature, that we can't even begin to truly comprehend even the smallest concept of it, lest we die of shock instantly.
This is immediately evident from the hurt sensibilities in response to his blunt statement. And though many have acted stricken with shock at his statement involving the idea of rape and cannibalism being so mundane in nature, we as a society have seen ten times as worse every day in movies and T.V.
The truth is that those who truly are seekers of mystical secrets, true occultists- they understand that it falls to those of us with the will to do so, to test the full limit of human potential. And that means all that comes with it. Compassion, love, depravity, evil. A true occultist sees no difference in any of these expressions and it's our job to constantly be searching, pushing the current perception of what is possible. We must push ourselves to the point of absolute madness trying to understand the ebb and flow of existence, and in this case, non-existence itself.
I guess what I'm driving at is that if it's out there, one of us has to give up existence itself to discover what it truly is, in theory. Or at the very least, be willing to give up everything for it.
I've been lurking forums for a while as I go about my days, but I finally just had to step in and put in my 2 cents. First of all, thank you so much for writing this post. It gives me encouragement in my own journey and means so much to me.
To the OP:
As you have clearly seen in all the replies to your posts, the true darkness you are looking is not ever going to be found in a book or on a forum. As a person facing a similar question years ago, I can just save you the trouble if you wish to hear my words. You won't find what you look for anywhere. The best you can do is read about the LHP and find books in which at least the author seems to have a similar world-view. From there, you need to find a system of practice and a paradigm that has the openness you need to go your own way with it once you get the basics. After that, stick to those basics: energy work, meditation, scrying, etc.
The path of Darkness is one that can not be defined by anyone but you. If your intent is sincere and you are willing to do the work required, the spirits that reside in the Dark will reach out to you as best they can. From there it is up to you to work on yourself so that you can hear what they have to say. I would recommend simply keeping a dream journal and a simple earnest call to a Dark God or Demon that you feel an affinity to every night.
I completely understand how you feel fed up with the Xian mythos having something to do with so much, but it can be useful if you can find a way to use to your advantage. Sounds like you might want to try researching the older gods such as Set and Hades, Odin, etc. What I am trying to say is that you must change your perception if you truly want to see in the Dark. We are not programmed to view such things and it should be apparent in even some of the replies to your OP. Part of the quest for one who seeks the Black Flame is to learn to see by it. I do hope you find what you seek. There are so few willing to take the risks MoonMarbas mentioned, and fewer still who have the necessary characteristics to see it through.
My only question to you is once people have made that sacrifice and found what they were looking for, do you really think it worth sharing? I mean I am far from mastery of any sort, but I wouldn't want to share even what I have come to realize as truth haphazardly. I think this is one of the built-in safety mechanisms for this path. Even when a Master is realized, the knowledge he has is simply not meant to be shared with everyone or in a public venue. And secondly, anyone who is meant to pioneer a path in the Darkness will find that they can't settle for a path already made by someone else. This to me is the true difference between the LHP and RHP. The only All to come back to is the self now whole and Divine on its own.