Hi, call me just Slav

[Athanasiia Slav]

Hi, so I am 27 autumns old and I am from Central Europe. I have no magical names yet. A tiny disclaimer on beginning is that probably I have Asperger's syndrome what explains my messy way of communication and English is my 2nd language.

Always I was spiritual, had deep connection with animals (I am able to sense when something is wrong or whenever my cat was invisibly yet pregnant). Since childhood I have WILD (at first it was just awareness, later I could move a bit and think more, 3rd final step was having full control over my body and brain in dreams) and I predicted some things (like death of my grandpa while I was unaware of it). My dreams are more complicated, sometimes I have to read them literally. I think once or twice at least I could experience OOBE but on conscious level hard for me to fully confirm and I don't remember these situations in last years.
I suspect I could be medium too (in a way that could be one of my areas where I fit in easily). I remember that once as a kid I woke up at night paralyzed, somehow I couldn't keep sleeping and I felt my hair behind left ear was in mess and wanted to fix but couldn't, within seconds I felt that someone else is fixing them for me. At first I got scared but quickly I have realized it could be my R.I.P. grandgrandpa so I fell asleep very fast (he died when I was 4 or 5, we were very close and every day or almost every I was mourning so hard for years until this happened).

I live in a christian environment (very racist) and I am not able to be on my own for personal reasons so I have no conditions to practice, train, go at my holidays, join a Slavic Rodnovery church (too far).

[Athanasiia Slav]

My beliefs are simple. I want to explore my Slavic roots, there is also a Japanese soul inside of me so I want to go this way too. I consider of working with demons, I want to learn about them too. I want to learn about history and many other things (for me knowledge is very important). I want also to learn from Mages, Witches on a higher level and teach others (culture, history; more theory than practice - or if I had my own kids, then them in a full way). This isn't easy to find anyone who is genuine in their work, beliefs (once I have bought a love ritual for few hundreds, it could be around 150-220 euros - in my situation in a country where I live in, it is a lot). Ofc I want to learn, check out what works for me from spells, rituals but also I know I need from someone else about personal issues (like mentally I am not able to do some because too much distraction).
I see everything has its own soul like in Shintoism - maybe not literally like rocks but I respect every part of nature and I can walk barefoot during medidation.

[Athanasiia Slav]

I mentioned already in my 1st post and I will here too that I suspect I am cursed by someone/something for very long time. If everything looked differently in my life, I would be able to find human explanations but here is way too complicated. I have noticed that when I wake up in a weird random moment, I check after that my social medias to see I was right inside (while I didn't hear or see it) that something happened in my relationships (a lot of times it happened) or when I have worse eyesight (I am nearsighted and one of my fears is to loose completely vision), then something is wrong too (the strongest memory is the most fav cat of sister died in the same day when out of no reason I had more blurred vision). I have a very strong intuition and kinda I know when something is wrong but at the same time Idk how it works fully in me.

I have severe nostalgic depression and Idk if this is the reason behind literally everything but I feel like I have lived in some places what I see in medias or if I am in a new place (I have the same with further countries where I haven't been ever).

3 times I have cursed someone (within few days there was an accident while I wished death) so I know how it works in my case and I regret only it taught nothing the person and I am not able to do something else to give lessons. I didn't curse for long and I would use it only in emergencies, when my limits are pushed too hard.

[Athanasiia Slav]

I feel drawn to dark side mostly like I am an explorer who has empathy to villains (shortening my thought). Once when I was getting into Satanism, reading about it, I said out of no reason shortly before falling asleep "I am a Satanist" and I don't remember what was it exactly if I heard a knock in my room or if there was a very dark shadow. For less than a second I got scared but I started to feel more safe after and I fell asleep.

I want to explore dimensions and find myself, what am I spiritually, what is my role (I saw many sheets of Witch types, that my number is 3, my element is air, my few rocks.. it feels a bit like limit while for example I could understand why Air, I feel drawn to my sign which is Libra but at the same time for example always I loved water, underwater world, I love rain and more). I want to learn about history of many places and if there is misconception about something. I want to give the truth.

[Athanasiia Slav]

Always I suck in introductions but hope it is written in ok way (always Q&A was easier form for me) and no one got bored. I tried not to say too much about some things because I want to post sooner or later in right categories. There is more in me, also from just simple side. Hope it will go well here, I will be able to understand everything, we could communicate each other well. I don't use fb a lot, there are varied occult groups but when I look at posts, most of them sound too marketing like I sense it is just posted for likes and empty attention. I am glad I have found this forum, here I see it is genuine.

I posted my one introduction in few posts in the thread because I kept getting info that's forbidden because of anti-spam, something like that. I don't get that

[Amor]

Most people have a variety of spirits attached to them. Many of the spirits are adverse. While the human cannot control its feelings and thoughts it is very easily manipulated.

So the first task for a human is controlling its physical desires. When it achieves that it knows that Life has meaning - is not random.

The second task is controlling its feelings. The highest desire is for union with all. That too needs to be controlled in order that the human might carry out the purposes of the current incarnation.

The third task is controlling the mind, including the transpersonal mind (soul body). This is the point of maximum isolation and the human is stuck there until it decides to be at-one with all.

With other preconditions, those achievements qualify the human for admission to the first level of the community of transcendent beings.

In this galaxy, the quickest way to achieve the above is using the heart.

Curses do not use the heart and do not promote union with all.

[Cerber]

Welcome!

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Always I was spiritual, had deep connection with animals (I am able to sense when something is wrong or whenever my cat was invisibly yet pregnant). Since childhood I have WILD (at first it was just awareness, later I could move a bit and think more, 3rd final step was having full control over my body and brain in dreams) and I predicted some things (like death of my grandpa while I was unaware of it). My dreams are more complicated, sometimes I have to read them literally. I think once or twice at least I could experience OOBE but on conscious level hard for me to fully confirm and I don't remember these situations in last years.
I suspect I could be medium too (in a way that could be one of my areas where I fit in easily). I remember that once as a kid I woke up at night paralyzed, somehow I couldn't keep sleeping and I felt my hair behind left ear was in mess and wanted to fix but couldn't, within seconds I felt that someone else is fixing them for me. At first I got scared but quickly I have realized it could be my R.I.P. grandgrandpa so I fell asleep very fast (he died when I was 4 or 5, we were very close and every day or almost every I was mourning so hard for years until this happened).
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It would probably take you only tiny fraction of the effort to develop of all those skills and abilities (OBE, Seering, Clairvoyance, and so on), compared to the average person. Not going to say what you should or shouldn't do, but it would be a shame for all that to be wasted.

I live in a christian environment (very racist) and I am not able to be on my own for personal reasons so I have no conditions to practice, train, go at my holidays, join a Slavic Rodnovery church (too far).

If one can't practice on the "outside" - one can always practice on the "inside", there's plenty of space there. Life, what is it but a dream?

..maybe not literally like rocks..

You'd be surprised how many rocks are there with "an attitude".