Original post: primaelgen
I'm going to go ahead and post this. This does get explicit, though I tried to be as clinical as I can. If the moderators have a problem with this, I apologize ahead of time (I wouldn't be offended if the post gets taken out of circulation). I *am* very interested in people's comments and feedback, though -- specifically in the hows, not the whys or why nots. Depending on how well received, I'll develop and post up more in the future.
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PrimaelGen: Pump Method
Prereq: Ability to go into trance, ability to feel energy
Keywords:qigong, jing, magick, pump, gender change, shrinkage
Version: 2004-12-26 (Merry Xmas)
Introduction
In the Taoist and internal alchemy traditions, there are many method of converting the sexual essence (JING) into a refined energy that the adept can then circulate into her body, to revitalize the organ, and give off that radiant "glow". A human being spends a large portion of her "energy budget" in reproduction. This is the power of life, folks.
There are many TGs that are on the fence about total transformation. Some have realized that by castrating themselves, they gain greater control of their sexuality. These people often feel a sense of calm, rather than the violent roid-rage. In that sense, it is more "feminine". This is why the ancient internal alchemists have traditionally trained in taking control over their sexuality, so as to live harmonious... and a better, more fulfilling life. When was the last time you had a great time?
These techniques have been pulled from a variety of sources, one of the better known is Mantak Chia. This particular technique is intended to energetically castrate, perhaps even feminize the adept's testes. Shrinkage can occur. This represents a different view on the sparse techniques available on the net. Namely, we're going to use this technique to get healthier, and that also includes bringing the body congruent with your spirit, now doesn't it? To that end, this is not intended to make you unhealthy. Some sources have suggested that it is more difficult to change and transform your body if your body has more vital energy. That's a fallacy. It is often easier to change your body if your body is energetic and strong.
Jing, the Sexual Essence
In the terminology of the Chinese internal alchemy, "jing" is the sexual essence, from which is refined "chi" or energy. Chi is further refined into "shen", or transcendent spirit. This is a very high-level overview, and PrimaelGen is aware of the lack of detail. There's many nuances and raging debates across the internet if you care to research more in depth.
Suffice to say, the adept can feel her jing in her testes as a cold, sometimes "sticky" energy. Let the testes hang loose and you should be able to feel the temperature difference. Don't shy away because you are uncomfortable with your body (first is acceptance, then comes change). Move your eyes if you have to, but the point is to feel this relative cold.
Now, imagine the coldness moving. You might have to squeeze the PC muscle (the muscle you use to cut a stream of urine while you're in the middle of pissing) to facilitate this. PrimaelGen highly recommends trying this, even if you feel you are adept at moving energy with visual (eyes, third-eye) alone. Using this tactile method will greatly enhance your ability to move energy, and it is vital and basic to the Pump Method.
Work on squeezing the muscle. You can (and probably should) imagine those muscles as your vagina squeezing and pulling energy in ... from the testes and penis. If you feel a rush of energy, relax, and let it sink into your belly. That's usually a good place to store it, without getting heart attacks or going crazy. (You think I'm crazy? Go research it! These are called dantien, or dantian).
This alone will allow you to manage your sexuality and sexual response. If you feel your penis as grossly there during the mornings when you have an erection, you can use this pump method to rapidly pump the energy that is perking up, and inward. Just like an energy vagina, one that sucks it in. It helps if you imagine (with your eyes) the penis as an oversized clitoris, while you feel the energy of your over-sized clitoris. If you don't know what one looks like, PrimaelGen recommends you looking it up. You should be able to take control over your erection fairly quickly (matter of days, depending on your ability to concentrate and trance).
Now, some adepts will want to go even beyond that. Once pumped ... particularly during erections ... the energy will feel very expansive, sometimes very hot. And harsh. And masculine. This next section deals with mixing in more yin or feminine energy in a way to start the feminization process.
Feminizing the Testes
If you've done your homework, you would know that certain people have "testicular feminization" or "androgyn insensitivity syndrome". Among there, you should notice an enzyme called aromatase. This enzyme converts the testosterone in the testes into female hormones. It is the relative balance of testosterone-to-estrogen that tells the cells within your body to go more masculine, or more feminine. Energetically speaking, you can train your senses to perceive this difference, and cultivate them.
Steroid-using and non-steroid-using body builders know, one of the dangers of using steroids is the feminization. This causes gynecomastia, a condition which creates as much anxiety as your body creates in you. Both are about body images, no?
Apparently, there is a ritual within certain Native American traditions whereby a virile man would be aroused and made to ejaculate many, many times, then ride a horse all day. This is the same as for intensely-dedicated body builders. Building muscle and ejaculating creates a condition ... depending on how you come off of the testosterone cycle ... where estrogen begins to get pumped out like mad. The estrogen in turn inhibits the production of testostrone, creating a cycle whereby the body becomes more and more feminine. It apparently worked for these gender-changing shamans.
Hard physical exercise might be something you might consider along with the Pump. One possible side-effect is the stress on the heart. There are a few studies that show that men's heart are healthier with a certain amount of testosterone. PrimaelGen is not a doctor, so you'll have to ask one about it. Besides, we're here about magickal methods to do this.
One of the main techniques an internal alchemists (Alchemy, after all, is the Sacred Science of Change, the Union of Opposites. Surprised?) have is the fusion of the yin or feminine with the yang or masculine. This generally creates tremendous power for change, often skewing towards the androgynous.
There are two easily-found sources of the yin energy. Once found, you direct them to mix with the jing in the testes, to refine them in place. "Refinement" can mean many things. Often, the jing gets sticker, gets lighter, gets softer. Sounds familiar? So, let's get started on finding these sources.
From the Heart
The heart center is about two finger widths above the place where the ribs and breast bone joing together at your mid section. To find this, use your eyes (squeeze them slightly if you have to) to feel for a place that is cool and smooth. Relax and breath deeply into your belly. If you don't know how, there are many sources for this -- yoga pranayama, most forms of qigong, and various Western singing methods suffices.
Where you are looking is your point of attention. You can expand this "attention" and shape it into a sphere. Give it a try. Now, relax your attention while keeping it there... and you should feel this cool, yin, heart energy expand.
Let this flow down the front. The key is to lead this energy. You cannot pump it like you can pump the jing. It helps if you allow yourself to feel more feminine, to surrender, to gentle, to soften. Let it surrender to your masculine, aggressive feelings... like water yielding to earth. You will feel these masculine parts of you soften and transform. Guide this heart yin down to about your pubic bone, and let it seep into your testes and the jing.
Once the heart yin hits the jing, don't be surprised if this starts creating enourmous heat or vibrations. This is a meeting of opposites, after all. Keep allowing this flow to happen until you are at a comfortable masculine-to-feminine feeling. After all, not everyone wants to be uber-feminine.
Once you feel harmonious and congruent, start Pumping this newly refined jing, suck it up with your vagina and your clitoris. Again, visualize this refined jing instructing the cells of your body to turn more feminine. It should feel more feminine. This might be enough to kickstart that whole estrogen cycle PrimaelGen talked about earlier. Let it spread throughout your body, then store any access in your belly.
From the Crown and Third Eye
The Crown is located at the hollow at the top of your skull, and the front part of the third eye is located between your eyes, above them. You can pump energy into your crown from your spine by moving the jaw muscles. It will pull the scalp and tighten the spaces between the skull plates. You can activate the front part of your third eye by gently squeezing between your eyes, as if to furrow your brows. Eventually, you should be able to make little movements to move a lot of energy.
One source will be easier than the other. If you pull from the Crown, let it slide towards the front where it mixes with the third eye opening. Here, you will visualize your Female Body, in front of you. You might feel and see energy leaving you to feed this image in front of you. Put in all the virtues of being female, and what you want to look like. When you are done, visualize your Female Body turning into white mist, which you breath in through your third eye, and let it slide down your front, mixes with your Heart Yin energy, and then down into your testes. The two energy should feel very different. Allow them to mix. Feel and see your testes becoming feminine. Feel your oversized clitoris shrinking into a beautiful clitoris. Feel your vagina reforming to allow a vaginal dimple, and then an opening.
Once the two energies have thoroughly combined and feels well-mixed, pump this energy with your energy-vagina up your tailbone and up your spine. Remember that pump at the crown PrimaelGen was talking about? Use that to mix in with the Crown energy, and let it flow to the third-eye again.
You will eventually be able to connect this cycle. It will create an ever-feminine feeling, a cycle that feeds on itself and spread across your body. It is important that you maintain in a relaxed way! your image of your Female Body.
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[/QUOTE]Dangerous? How? Like losing your "silver-chord"? If so, wouldn't you be just a soul or spirit then? And have no real connection to you body("the silver-chord")? I have actually made a spell for body-changing, but as I had a leak of belief(then), there was nothing to do...