Original post: durki
Confessions flush out ego from inside of you so as to make you hollow. Space thus created inside you is filled by God so as to make you godly. Mounds of individualism and cunningness in your body & mind get bombarded by confessions and hence they get loosened so as to finally get dislodged from your system or being. In your confessed state, you are judged by society which is representative of God & not by yourself ( a big mass of many individuals is more divine-spirit than any particular individual. And no individual however great or holy can judge oneself accurately ).
Mahatma Gandhi derived all his strength through confessions & prayers. He titled his autobiography as " The Story Of My Experiments With Truth ". He revealed that a prostitute that he visited in his boyhood rebuked him for not measuring upto her steep standards. After his marriage, when his father was in the process of dying, he went to bed-room and copulated with his wife when she was in her advanced state of pregnancy which finally resulted in a child being born who died immediately afterwards
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Original post: Emperor Time
Mine is i am 21 but still a virgin and when i was a kid about ten years ago and earlier i torture certain animals but regret the torture but still kill insects that come in the house like just yesterday that i had to kill 103 flies.
Mine is i am 21 but still a virgin and when i was a kid about ten years ago and earlier i torture certain animals but regret the torture but still kill insects that come in the house like just yesterday that i had to kill 103 flies.
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
It's probably more advantageous to be honest rather than confessional.
Most psychologists will advocate a person to be honest with themselves and others, on a variety of issues, you can't deal with a problem or resolve it if you pretend it isn't happening.
However, I don't know if public confession/ humiliation helps you face your demons, especially on an internet forum where you're interfacing from the comfort of a screen.
I think Sushumma summed it up nicely.
As for confessing heinous sex crimes, I guess you should consider the ramifications Durki. If you really wanted to be more godly go find the people you abused and make reparation to them, or turn yourself in for some horrendous Indian justice.
Catholics have been practising psychotherapy for years, with a good dose of guilt. My question is, by the act of confession have you removed the 'blight' or mode of thinking that led you to act that way or just exhibited yourself as a specimen of human filth that regrets their actions?
Contrition and remorse is one thing, making amends and changing your life is another.
Sorry if it sounds judgmental, it is more a general thinking rather than a specific attack.
It's probably more advantageous to be honest rather than confessional.
Most psychologists will advocate a person to be honest with themselves and others, on a variety of issues, you can't deal with a problem or resolve it if you pretend it isn't happening.
However, I don't know if public confession/ humiliation helps you face your demons, especially on an internet forum where you're interfacing from the comfort of a screen.
I think Sushumma summed it up nicely.
As for confessing heinous sex crimes, I guess you should consider the ramifications Durki. If you really wanted to be more godly go find the people you abused and make reparation to them, or turn yourself in for some horrendous Indian justice.
Catholics have been practising psychotherapy for years, with a good dose of guilt. My question is, by the act of confession have you removed the 'blight' or mode of thinking that led you to act that way or just exhibited yourself as a specimen of human filth that regrets their actions?
Contrition and remorse is one thing, making amends and changing your life is another.
Sorry if it sounds judgmental, it is more a general thinking rather than a specific attack.
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Original post: durki
Honesty, duty, laws and rules are exterior & superficial. They touch only periphery of your ego. Confessions strike at the root of your ego. By hiding your private life, you build a wall around you which makes you end up as an egomaniac at best and as a megalomaniac at worst. By making genuine confessions of your darkest life, you feel getting devastated temporarily but it does you a lot of good on a permanent basis. Like an onion, your ego gets peeled off and you get divested of Matter so as to end up suffused with Spirit.
Honesty, duty, laws and rules are exterior & superficial. They touch only periphery of your ego. Confessions strike at the root of your ego. By hiding your private life, you build a wall around you which makes you end up as an egomaniac at best and as a megalomaniac at worst. By making genuine confessions of your darkest life, you feel getting devastated temporarily but it does you a lot of good on a permanent basis. Like an onion, your ego gets peeled off and you get divested of Matter so as to end up suffused with Spirit.
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Original post: The Craft
i sometimes hide under my blanket and think nothings real
i once forgot to give water to my duck and it died
i used to shoplift when i was small becuase i thought things at go-lo were all free
i some times wished that God or anyone who would listen which wasnt human or animal would take my life away becuase there was so much pain to bare in such short time...
i sometimes wished that this guy called josh would burn in hell and if we died at the same time and he went to heaven and i to hell id pull him down with me...
i sometimes imagine bad thoughts about people i dont like being hit by lightning or some other nature-force
i find it hard to trust people whether there friends or not becuase ive been betrayed so many times
i hate it when people discriminate people who do magic/k or are different for everyone else
i hate people who invade my personal space
when i was a good christian i was afraid of the dark and when i chose to go my own way it sort of gone...i wasn't scared anymore
i hate the people who take credit of the things i make or come up with
i hate people who eat animals such as dogs and cats
i cant stand the smell of old people
umm
i got more just i forgots it...
oh i hate people who judge me and dont know me
i hate it when i have to lie to say someone looks good >.>
i sometimes hate people who i dont actually know or even indicated anything to me before let alone talk to me
i find it annoying how people keep saying magic/k is from the devil when (i think) it doesnt actually say that in the bible (feel free to correct me if im wrong) and they dont even mention the word 'witch' either
i sometimes laughed at this mega-obese teacher who had to walk side ways through doors...and she used to leave peanut shell pieces in work books when she marked our work
i want to say something private but it kills me to even think of the word seeing how its such a common demoralising expression/word these days...to shy/embarassed to mention it
CAN SOME1 REPLY IM FEELING LONELY >.<
i sometimes hide under my blanket and think nothings real
i once forgot to give water to my duck and it died
i used to shoplift when i was small becuase i thought things at go-lo were all free
i some times wished that God or anyone who would listen which wasnt human or animal would take my life away becuase there was so much pain to bare in such short time...
i sometimes wished that this guy called josh would burn in hell and if we died at the same time and he went to heaven and i to hell id pull him down with me...
i sometimes imagine bad thoughts about people i dont like being hit by lightning or some other nature-force
i find it hard to trust people whether there friends or not becuase ive been betrayed so many times
i hate it when people discriminate people who do magic/k or are different for everyone else
i hate people who invade my personal space
when i was a good christian i was afraid of the dark and when i chose to go my own way it sort of gone...i wasn't scared anymore
i hate the people who take credit of the things i make or come up with
i hate people who eat animals such as dogs and cats
i cant stand the smell of old people
umm
i got more just i forgots it...
oh i hate people who judge me and dont know me
i hate it when i have to lie to say someone looks good >.>
i sometimes hate people who i dont actually know or even indicated anything to me before let alone talk to me
i find it annoying how people keep saying magic/k is from the devil when (i think) it doesnt actually say that in the bible (feel free to correct me if im wrong) and they dont even mention the word 'witch' either
i sometimes laughed at this mega-obese teacher who had to walk side ways through doors...and she used to leave peanut shell pieces in work books when she marked our work
i want to say something private but it kills me to even think of the word
seeing how its such a common demoralising expression/word these days...to shy/embarassed to mention itCAN SOME1 REPLY IM FEELING LONELY >.<
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Original post: Venefica
I stole one of my former landlord's frying pan, it was in our apartment, and it was a good pan, and I was angry whit the landlord so when we left we took the pan whit us as a little revenge. I am evil yay!
I think very few think they are pure and perfect. And besides what would be fun in being perfect? I do believe confession can have a point, getting things of one chest but still...hum well back to the tread, what more can I dig up.All human beings on earth have skeletons in their cupboards. Only those under self-delusion & self-deception think they are pure & perfect. By hiding their evil propensities, such persons block their own spiritual progress. As for myself, I have shifted my consciousness from mundane to divine rather more through revealing & exposing my inner world to others than through any other spiritual practice. I have shown amazing candour in telling unspeakable facts & truths about my most secret life to others and in consequence I have proportionally derived immense benefit by way of mental relief & freeing myself from bad habits & evil tendencies.
I stole one of my former landlord's frying pan, it was in our apartment, and it was a good pan, and I was angry whit the landlord so when we left we took the pan whit us as a little revenge. I am evil yay!
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Original post: Brian
Ok, don't think I can't do this face to face as I've already told this to my psychologist.
The worst thing I've ever done is to take a year off of college because I fantasized that a young lady wanted to move in with me and get married to me, even though I didn't talk to her.
It's not too bad because I'm not quite up to college anyways, but it leaves quite a wound in my sense of integrity.
Ok, don't think I can't do this face to face as I've already told this to my psychologist.
The worst thing I've ever done is to take a year off of college because I fantasized that a young lady wanted to move in with me and get married to me, even though I didn't talk to her.
It's not too bad because I'm not quite up to college anyways, but it leaves quite a wound in my sense of integrity.
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Original post: Venefica
Well we all make mad leaps for love. I think human beings are designed for it, it is part of what make us human. Sorry to hear it did not work out for you.
Well we all make mad leaps for love. I think human beings are designed for it, it is part of what make us human. Sorry to hear it did not work out for you.
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Hmm, my confession is that I feel slightly disturbed after reading the rest of this thread.
I also find it makes me wonder how man-made morals really are. As much as I try and pretend that there is no distinction between darkness and light, that duality is absurd, still there are things that just universally seem like the 'wrong thing' to do... like raping 5 year old kids and then assuming that because you have thought about it enough, it is all okay.
I confess that I find rape to be more dark and evil than murder. I see something much more twisted in it. It scares me that sometimes many people don't seem to give it much thought, or treat it as something only slightly and humorously bad, like pulling a prank, and I have seen in my own life that often those that treat it as such were victims of it.
I confess that this confession makes me feel stupid... like I am weak.
It also makes me feel judgmental.
This thread is one of the most charged that I have ever read here on OF.
Are we going to nominate someone that can pronounce absolution or order penance? Either in a mock-catholic kinda way, or perhaps a Satanist would have some interesting ways of handling it. I'm sure someone would have a good time filling the role!
Hmm, my confession is that I feel slightly disturbed after reading the rest of this thread.
I also find it makes me wonder how man-made morals really are. As much as I try and pretend that there is no distinction between darkness and light, that duality is absurd, still there are things that just universally seem like the 'wrong thing' to do... like raping 5 year old kids and then assuming that because you have thought about it enough, it is all okay.
I confess that I find rape to be more dark and evil than murder. I see something much more twisted in it. It scares me that sometimes many people don't seem to give it much thought, or treat it as something only slightly and humorously bad, like pulling a prank, and I have seen in my own life that often those that treat it as such were victims of it.
I confess that this confession makes me feel stupid... like I am weak.
It also makes me feel judgmental.
This thread is one of the most charged that I have ever read here on OF.
Are we going to nominate someone that can pronounce absolution or order penance? Either in a mock-catholic kinda way, or perhaps a Satanist would have some interesting ways of handling it. I'm sure someone would have a good time filling the role!
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Original post: Eretik
"I also find it makes me wonder how man-made morals really are. As much as I try and pretend that there is no distinction between darkness and light, that duality is absurd, still there are things that just universally seem like the 'wrong thing' to do... like raping 5 year old kids and then assuming that because you have thought about it enough, it is all okay."
Me too,The Third.I can't wrap my head around that,no matter how hard I try. I don't want to either. I hoped it was a sick attempt at a shock value joke.Apparently not.[?]
If you are weak and judgemental for this,then you are not alone - I am of the same mindset.
Some of the other confessions are good reading,not surprising either ,we all have fears etc. and I like that Venefica took the good frying pan,for example.
I fear crowds.
I panic and vomit when I look down from great heights.
I am so boring that I don't have any juicy confessions.
"I also find it makes me wonder how man-made morals really are. As much as I try and pretend that there is no distinction between darkness and light, that duality is absurd, still there are things that just universally seem like the 'wrong thing' to do... like raping 5 year old kids and then assuming that because you have thought about it enough, it is all okay."
Me too,The Third.I can't wrap my head around that,no matter how hard I try. I don't want to either. I hoped it was a sick attempt at a shock value joke.Apparently not.[?]
If you are weak and judgemental for this,then you are not alone - I am of the same mindset.
Some of the other confessions are good reading,not surprising either ,we all have fears etc. and I like that Venefica took the good frying pan,for example.
I fear crowds.
I panic and vomit when I look down from great heights.
I am so boring that I don't have any juicy confessions.
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Original post: Madrona
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Originally Posted by Madrona
You have some good points, and you are brave (to say the least.)
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Originally Posted by Madrona
You have some good points, and you are brave (to say the least.)
Well, there was a touch of sarcasm in there, but the point is, regardless of what i think about durki because of the horrific things he confesses to have done in the past, I dont think it really serves me any good to judge him and call him out as a terrible person, it is obvious that what he did was hidious, however, I do not feel it is my job to be the judge of this man or of how immoral or unforgivable he is. It does serve me to acknowlege the positive benefits of confessing things about yourself that people wont like (and facing some of our biggest fears.) Doing it on a public forum is one method that is somewhat anonymous and safe, and although you may not be saving the world or proving your worth to others you are FACING YOUR FEARS and lessoning them and the control others have on you and taking back your own power, severing the false ego. Assuming that this is in any way exhibitionism is a complete misunderstanding. And when people say it is just being stupid, part of the purpose is in getting a negative reaction.Huh? Maybe. Could be bravery, could be exhibitionism. I find this "brave", "spiritual" front very unconvincing. But who knows and really, who cares?
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Original post: She Demon Wolf
I used to hide notes from school about missing homework from my parents, and intercept letters home etc.
I once stole a highlighter marker pen from a shop, because it was purple and I really liked it but had no money (I was 8 years old...).
I cursed someone I didn't know out of sheer jealousy...it worked. Oops.
I enjoy reading people's confessions...
P.S. for more confession-fun, try
http://grouphug.us
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
I used to hide notes from school about missing homework from my parents, and intercept letters home etc.
I once stole a highlighter marker pen from a shop, because it was purple and I really liked it but had no money (I was 8 years old...).
I cursed someone I didn't know out of sheer jealousy...it worked. Oops.
I enjoy reading people's confessions...
P.S. for more confession-fun, try
http://grouphug.us
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
Guilty of that too. Some of these are mere admissions rather than a confession. Is anyone feeling better reading this thread or is it just morbid curiousity?
I enjoy reading people's confessions...
Guilty of that too. Some of these are mere admissions rather than a confession. Is anyone feeling better reading this thread or is it just morbid curiousity?
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Original post: Scarlett_156
(edit) Just thought of something!
There was the time when... hm... actually they made fun of me ON THE RADIO for that, so it no longer shames me to think of it... dang...
With me I keep coming back and reading it because I feel tempted to post some shit--but then I think: "No, that would be stupid... I certainly can't tell them about THAT... this one is still in the works... class 2 felony, no friggin WAY... meh, he got over it... that guy, now he was BEGGING for it but, hm, there's the 'crossing state lines' dealio..."Guilty of that too. Some of these are mere admissions rather than a confession. Is anyone feeling better reading this thread or is it just morbid curiousity?
(edit) Just thought of something!
There was the time when... hm... actually they made fun of me ON THE RADIO for that, so it no longer shames me to think of it... dang...
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Original post: The Craft
if you killed someone were happy to hear about it ^^ and no i dont feel anybetter...i feel hollow as usual, does anyone know how to get rid of that hollow feeling if uve ever felt it b4?
if you killed someone were happy to hear about it ^^ and no i dont feel anybetter...i feel hollow as usual, does anyone know how to get rid of that hollow feeling if uve ever felt it b4?
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Original post: durki
Very fact that you confess shows you are humble enough to surrender yourself to higher power. A person who confesses is in a repentant & penitent mood willing for atonement & amendment. Thus he is receptive to Divine Field around him.
It is not difficult to distinguish between right & wrong or between good & evil. Any thoughts, words & deeds if they lead towards Spirit are right & good and if they lead away from Spirit & towards Matter are wrong & evil.
Very fact that you confess shows you are humble enough to surrender yourself to higher power. A person who confesses is in a repentant & penitent mood willing for atonement & amendment. Thus he is receptive to Divine Field around him.
It is not difficult to distinguish between right & wrong or between good & evil. Any thoughts, words & deeds if they lead towards Spirit are right & good and if they lead away from Spirit & towards Matter are wrong & evil.
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Original post: doh
Exactly, which is why I haven't been in here. I have nothing I regret other than not telling my father just how much I loved him before he died.
I'm not pentinent or remorseful for things I've done in my life as I feel I have no reason to be. And as far as if people judge me, so what. I never really cared.
But I did spend one week in jail for trying to shoot my little sister.
Exactly, which is why I haven't been in here. I have nothing I regret other than not telling my father just how much I loved him before he died.
I'm not pentinent or remorseful for things I've done in my life as I feel I have no reason to be. And as far as if people judge me, so what. I never really cared.
But I did spend one week in jail for trying to shoot my little sister.
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
These things happen, I accidentally shot a .22 rifle at my friend, you know how it goes, too much to drink, whiskey in one hand, rifle in the other, "oh, nah, its not loaded", *bang* "Did you just shoot at me?"
Wow, I could go on, but that just makes me laugh instead of feel bad.
But I did spend one week in jail for trying to shoot my little sister.
These things happen, I accidentally shot a .22 rifle at my friend, you know how it goes, too much to drink, whiskey in one hand, rifle in the other, "oh, nah, its not loaded", *bang* "Did you just shoot at me?"
Wow, I could go on, but that just makes me laugh instead of feel bad.
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Original post: Dunhill
Confession and repentance are two different things. The trick that is often missed with the confession and repentance cycle is to cut down on recidivism. As I tell my wife - the cats understand 'Get down', they just don't understand 'and don't get back up again'.
For some reason this thread with AO's & Sushumma's comments reminded me of the scene in Schindler's List (with some help from imdb). The comments on shooting further fixed it my head.
durki wrote:Very fact that you confess shows you are humble enough to surrender yourself to higher power. A person who confesses is in a repentant & penitent mood willing for atonement & amendment.
Confession and repentance are two different things. The trick that is often missed with the confession and repentance cycle is to cut down on recidivism. As I tell my wife - the cats understand 'Get down', they just don't understand 'and don't get back up again'.
For some reason this thread with AO's & Sushumma's comments reminded me of the scene in Schindler's List (with some help from imdb). The comments on shooting further fixed it my head.
Oskar Schindler: Power is when we have every justification to kill, and we don't.
Amon Goeth: You think that's power?
Oskar Schindler: That's what the Emperor said. A man steals something, he's brought in before the Emperor, he throws himself down on the ground. He begs for his life, he knows he's going to die. And the Emperor... pardons him. This worthless man, he lets him go.
Amon Goeth: I think you are drunk.
Oskar Schindler: That's power, Amon. That is power.
[Touching his reflection in a mirror]
Amon Goeth: I pardon you.
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Original post: Sushumma
1. I might be falling in love (with a girl I've met twice), and it's totally fscking up my worldview.
1. I might be falling in love (with a girl I've met twice), and it's totally fscking up my worldview.
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Original post: Venefica
Why on earth would matter be bad. If matter was evil, why would the good Spirit make us material beings? To test to see if we were good? That do not seam very good and nurturing to me. Fact is we are both matter and Spirit. And as even Enlightened men like Buddha preached. To turn only to the Spirit or only to the material is just as big sins. We need both.It is not difficult to distinguish between right & wrong or between good & evil. Any thoughts, words & deeds if they lead towards Spirit are right & good and if they lead away from Spirit & towards Matter are wrong & evil.
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Original post: Neophyte
I am still virgin.
Not so fast. I would not deem the comment of durki to be that unwise, only I would change the words good and evil for "leading to achievement" and "leading from achievement," whereas achievement is the betterment of ourselves for which most occultists strive. Material things are not inherently bad, but they lead us away, are not concentrated and if we lose ourselves in them, we too are not concentrated and concentration is necessary for any achievement, especialy achievement in occult.Why on earth would matter be bad. If matter was evil, why would the good Spirit make us material beings? To test to see if we were good? That do not seam very good and nurturing to me. Fact is we are both matter and Spirit. And as even Enlightened men like Buddha preached. To turn only to the Spirit or only to the material is just as big sins. We need both.
I am still virgin.
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Original post: Venefica
I would say one can develop and better one self on the material as well. Yes our soul need development but so do our body, witch exist in the physical plane, among the material.
I would say one can develop and better one self on the material as well. Yes our soul need development but so do our body, witch exist in the physical plane, among the material.
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Original post: Neophyte
Indeed, but unless we use spiritual, e.g. driven by spirit, by intent, methods, as opposed to those directed by the random currents of matter, we become lost. I am not saying we should not affect matter, on the contrary, but unless we do so with intent, which is of the dominion of spirit, we are under the power of fate.
I like blind girls. Really I do, I mean, I am attracted to them.
Indeed, but unless we use spiritual, e.g. driven by spirit, by intent, methods, as opposed to those directed by the random currents of matter, we become lost. I am not saying we should not affect matter, on the contrary, but unless we do so with intent, which is of the dominion of spirit, we are under the power of fate.
I like blind girls. Really I do, I mean, I am attracted to them.
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Original post: Scarlett_156
*puts more hot sauce in "Aborti-Mary" drink, stirs, and keeps reading*
*puts more hot sauce in "Aborti-Mary" drink, stirs, and keeps reading*