Original post: The Infinite WITHIN
I've been lucky enough to, after being homeless- call an old friend from high school and live with him for 3 months before his dad kicked me out, get a girlfriend, and live with her family for the next 3 months, and then landing a job and moving in with a roomate for the next two years.
Perhaps you will have that kind of luck?
if not, don't put all your eggs in one basket.
Consider the area you live in: are there any shelters, boarding houses, and if you can't find a place better than the rest: the NAVY is better than the army.
All the technical more brain-able people are in the navy learning technology. And taking it places after service.
I'd look into carefully considering this option before giving 4 years to it. It's a decision that'll affect the course of your next four years.
Are your parents actually going to allow you to live there BEYOND 18, for maybe even a couple of more months to get a reasonable way to move out on your own (i.e. landing a job)
If so, you may want to bring out those politicianing skills and smooth out The Differences.
When you say it's too late in the game to flip-flop, or pretend to do so.
A few things you should understand as a magician...
1) TIME: is not a factor to spontaneity, it's never "too late". Time can be manipulated, engineered, Created/Introduced/Shaped/Extended.
2) You define reality.
If it were me, and situations were incredibly dire: i'd play it all up, pretend that I was walking home from the park, etc.- say you were brought forcibly to your feet and God showed you all the terrors of Hell, and God said, "Do you want this!?!?"
And you learnt your lesson, and he led you away from the devil; and you wept.
Now you must hide those occult books, before hand, if you wish to keep them.
If not, make a list, and if they're not rare you can get them back again- even burn them as an added "testiment" to your Experience.
Use God as A TOOL against the religious and the weak-superstitious, I do it all the time.
Politicians are doing this: ALL THE TIME
When it comes to "military service", George Bush's evading Viet Nam in contrast to John Kerry's outstanding-service actually did not make a difference, now did it? *tisk, tisk*
You're THE MAGICIAN HERE, Not Them.
Remember that punk,
Your thoughts on this?
because even if you "submit", and they buy it- you win; and you refine your skills as a politician. Adding to your resume.
In that time, you can get a job and after a few months- perhaps seek out a studio, or a roommate.
And live your life like you are able to again.
EDIT:
an interest in the occult did not stop Rasputin, Goebbels, Wiligut, The Buddha, the Dahli Llama, etc.