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Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 4:42 am**

Original post: Angelus Degenero

This post is like a train wreck. Makes me feel a little ill reading it, but I just cant look away. I think maybe I feel sick to my stomach because all these confessions make me think of the things I could add, but choose not to.

I suppose the thing I am most ashamed of and proud of at the same time is that I betrayed my entire family's traditional belief system. I know it is a pile of crap, but I cant help but feel guilty about it. And yet proud that I was able to see generations of bullshit for what it was. I don't speak to several members of my family I was close to before for this same reason. I feel bad for the irrational... hatred (?) I feel towards them for still believing.

As for the sick, twisted, moral perversions that twist around in my head... I think I am doing a good job of convincing myself they are "normal" or at least acceptable.

Also... is India a really fucked up place?

AD

Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 4:45 am**

Original post: LadyHydralisk

I've been playing with my boobs for the past few hours for fun.

I masturbated with a banana when I was sixteen because I had to be eighteen to get into the sex shop downtown.

I got splinters from that.

I'm not really ashamed of anything though, sorry to say.

Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 5:07 am**

Original post: LadyHydralisk

oh I know I KNOW

I found out I am REALLY REALLY scared of dragons. yes I am ashamed of that. I thought I was afraid of nothing.

they didn't use to crawl into my room and try to have sex with me though. :\

Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 5:13 am**

Original post: Angelus Degenero

Boobs?

Bananas?

Splinters?!?!

Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 5:58 am**

Original post: Hanged_in_Glory

How the hell'd you get splinters from a banana, Naomi?!:o

My first hobby, as a lad, was wanking. My second hobby was being mean to the farm cats.

I used to dig shooting small birds. I once bagged about a bushel full of 'em in one afternoon. Attempted avian genocide.

I was once the general manager of a porn production company in the San Fernando Valley, and I exploited the girls shamelessly.

I once stepped on a snail just to hear it crunch.

The list is endless.....

Do I feel guilty about any of these things? Nah - Except maybe for the birds and the snail and they've forgiven me, so I've forgiven myself. Bast payed me back in spades for kicking cat-ass. So, it's all good.....

Ah. Confession is such catharsis.

Posted: **Fri Sep 21, 2007 5:11 pm**

Original post: Emperor Time

I confess that even though i am 21 years old i have never smoke a ciggaret and never drank alcohol and have never used any illegal drugs in my whole life ever

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 1:13 am**

Original post: hitman777

Mick Bangs Dogs

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 1:22 am**

Original post: LadyHydralisk

hitman777;283332 wrote:Mick Bangs Dogs

You're as bad as your brother.

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 1:33 am**

Original post: hitman777

How Did You Know Who I Was? Witch Shit?

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 1:35 am**

Original post: hitman777

How Do I Erse Waht I Write On Here?

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 1:36 am**

Original post: Blackbird

meh, guess i'll keep this one up.

i was a bully and semi-destructive pyro (one time, i filled a "i can't believe it's not butter" plastic container entirely with gasoline [not knowing that plastic burned] and lit it up in my driveway...the can melted and the gas started spreading towards my basketball hoop in my driveway, the hose was off, so i got a bucket, filled it with water, and dumped it on the fire, but it just spread more...the second bucket of water put it out though...there was a huge black spot on my driveway for years--i have no idea how my parents never saw it) in middle school
started vandalizing/doing drugs/selling drugs in high school
conned my way out of my first college (looked up bipolar disorder online and convinced the entire school and a psychologist i had it...got a medical leave of absence)
stopped selling drugs and started stealing to pay for my habits soonafter high school

also, cheated my way through high school.

accidentally drove two people temporarily insane (one for a night [he was on coke though] another for a month or so)

and a couple more things i don't want to mention.

haven't done any of that shit in a while, though. trying to change my ways. replacing drugs with basketball, guitar, occasionally boxing, video games. it's tough, though. i can rarely find anyone that'll box me (i don't box in a gym or anything...i just always have gloves in my car and ask anyone who doesn't look like they'd kill me if they wanna box)...i need to find some new thrill one of these days.

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 3:58 am**

Original post: durki

I used to prowl and pry on all things & persons. Confessions have resulted in my metamorphosis, catharsis and purgation.

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 5:03 am**

Original post: Emperor Time

I also confess that i had my very first surgery at five years old

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 5:51 am**

Original post: Lucian

Emperor Time;283390 wrote:I also confess that i had my very first surgery at five years old

Why are you ashamed of that? Not much a 5 year old can do about being unwell...

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 6:29 am**

Original post: Anathema_Oracle

Speaking of confessions, today is Yom Kippur, the jewish 'day of atonement'.

Let's all grab ourselves a ram's horn and blow away our sins!??!??!

(sorry, i havent' eaten in 22 hours, weep!!_

Posted: **Sat Sep 22, 2007 6:30 am**

Original post: Emperor Time

It because i wish i did not have surgery that young but had to in order to fix my hearing problems which did not succeed until the fifth surgery and had six surgeries by eleven years old which is depressing for me

Posted: **Wed Sep 26, 2007 10:03 pm**

Original post: imskin

[QUOTE=Lucian;283398]Why are you ashamed of that? Not much a 5 year old can do about being unwell...

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maybe he was the one performing the surgery?

Posted: **Wed Sep 26, 2007 10:15 pm**

Original post: imskin

oh, shoot, I just got a good one:

almost every time I reply to a post or whenever I am filling something out online, or changing my profiles or whatever, and I have to hit the "submit" button, it turns me on.

"SUBMIT"!

I guess now would be a good time to confess my longtime interest and participation in (relatively light) BDSM.

Oh yeah, and on St. Patrick's day I went to a leather/gay bar called "The Jackhammer" in chi-town with my friend. 3 confessions about that night:

1) I got a guy's number and never called him back (I feel bad about this)

2) I fingered my friend for about 15 min in the middle of the dance floor. (I feel great about this) oh, yeah, then we were staying at my other friend's Mom's house later that night and she totally walked in on us naked and fooling around (we were naked, not her) and got real pissed. Their family is Muslim. So we booked it out the back door with our clothes while everyone was yelling in the kitchen. and we escaped.

3) My and my fingering buddy also danced with tall, sexy, black tranny. He/She tried to tuck the "stuff", but I found it.

(I feel proud about this, and hot)

This is seriously becoming more "bragging/reminiscing" than confessing for me.

"SUBMIT"!

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 4:54 am**

Original post: Emperor Time

I sure was the person performing the surgery at five. :rolleyes:

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 4:59 am**

Original post: LadyHydralisk

who gives a fuck

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 5:02 am**

Original post: LadyHydralisk

Confession - I insert finger into you know what over this picture:

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 9:01 am**

Original post: Lucian

I had a dream in which I had a really vivid and rather pleasant sexual encounter with a female tentacle alien.

No, I have not seen La Blue Girl.

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 7:51 pm**

Original post: imskin

[QUOTE=Emperor Time;283404]It because i wish i did not have surgery that young but had to in order to fix my hearing problems which did not succeed until the fifth surgery and had six surgeries by eleven years old which is depressing for me

[/QUOTE]

Sorry about that, I didn't mean to be rude or insensitive. That is terrible. My little niece is actually going to have surgery on her ears also soon. She is only 2 1/2.

Posted: **Thu Sep 27, 2007 9:02 pm**

Original post: Emperor Time

It okay and thanks for understanding what i went through and i know everything will turn out okay for your niece too.

Posted: **Sat Sep 29, 2007 7:27 am**

Original post: durki

Evolution is a process in terms of aeons. By conscious effort to walk on a proper spiritual road, one can become a better soul. I have been constantly improving though I was a debauch in my earlier days as is evident from the following episode :-
I was in shattered & battered mental state. I went to countryl side & sat amidst reeds on the bank of a small river. I was brooding and then unzipped my pant. Took out my male organ which got erected due to haunting sexual thoughts. Then I got up and started wading through the water of the river unmindful of a girl who was indeed watching me from the opposite bank. I became aware of her when she giggled seeing the spectral myself.