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I made a blood pact with a particular person that I know of who was deceased not too long ago.
He was an ambitious man and peculiarly skilled in guitar. Not the best guitar player but he was ambitious, prosperous and had morals and values. A majority of passed away musicians were drug addicted. I didn't want to bind to a drug addict that would take advantage of me and use my body for it's addiction.
The reason I did this was because I'm a song writer and I am very passionate about music. Music is what drives me more than anything. I want to be more than a song writer for a band. I want to be in a band.
I'm not asking for world dominating fame just to have people to jam with and play locally.
I was a lousy guitar player. Now since the past year my speed has drastically improved. I assumed this was a placebo effect on the mind until strange subtle things happened.

I have thoughts in my head that are not something I would ever think of I can't get them out of my head. If I don't get anything productive done that day I have that pitted sickness inside that makes me bawl my eyes out a the end of the day. I make t-shirts using silk screening as a business. I used to have a deign that mocked a political figure that the attachment was fond of in real life (i made the design before I knew of the attachments personality) and when I look at it I get that feeling of guilt and remorse and that drain of energy
feeling and that knot in my heart and lump in my throat...... I had to throw the shirts in the burn barrel because a feeling inside was telling me to get rid of them. My freind came over the other day wearing one of them and I had a feeling of wrath towards it but I manged to keep my cool and glare at it and slightly mock it.
Apparently what I've read about my attachment and that he was good at reserving himself from violent outbursts unless it was a good reason. I like this. Because I have anger problems and now I can keep my tempter tantrums in over trivial things.

Last Thursday when I was writing a letter to the entity and than reading it out loud. I asked him to "Seep in to me" I said that over and over. I was off into a half-conscious doze than of a sudden I had sleep paralysis and could someone walking around I thought it was my mom. I tired so hard to speak out her name and I manged to than I wasn't paralyzed anymore. I opened my eyes and lifting my head up and looked around my room. I assumed it could have been a dream. Than I said "------ is that you?"
and this black noisy fast mass yelled in my face. It was very fast and very brief I couldn't make it out.
He was a very in your face kind of guy. He had thrills in freaking people out.

I'm a little spooked and amazed. This is comforting though and it's gradually becoming more intense but it feels positive and loving like a father is watching over me. I have lost some of my radical views and my
over-compassionate self but I still feel I'm there. I read during his life he was jealous of his other band member for song writing skills. I assume he might have desire those skills. I don't think a full possession will happen. I think he wants something out of my personality. I'm a decent song writer not the best but i'm good.

I get thoughts to wear certain clothes and after seven years of being a vegetarian and a natural food nut
and avoiding artificial colors and additives like the plague. Now I eat meat and love poultry especially.
I love chocolate milk and having a sugary snack late in the afternoon. Artificial additives used to make me cringe when I would even think of them. Now its slept my mind.
He might be using me as some kind of food source but I don't over indulge in fact I've lost weight from not pigging out when I'm depressed. I know during this entities mortal life he was very self-disciplined and never
did drugs or over indulged. The catch is he was a control freak.

Last night I meditated than chanted his name backwards. After doing that for a few minutes I felt that typical
chill up my spine and icy feeling. I wrapped myself up in my blanket to make sure it wasn't just a draft but I could still feel it. I felt it until I fell asleep and I could feel a presence.
Also when I chant his name backwards while playing the guitar,I can strum very harshly and fast and not have any pain or tension what so ever. But when I don't chant his name my hand cramps up and my arm goes numb.
I do have carpel tunnel syndrome and it was preventing me from playing but when I chant that name of his it
doesn't hurt. After ten minutes of doing that straight I was full of upbeat positive energy.
Sometimes I feel his power sometimes I don't. I guess he comes and goes. I told him he can do that and I
respect that the fact that he probably has other things to do on the other side.

Belive it or not you'll think i'm batshit. Thats why I don't tell people. I have never told anyone expect my best freind. I am saying this as anonymous as well. I like to keep this hidden.
I think ego kills magic.

No offense, but how do you know it's him and not some malignant entity setting you up for a fall? :/

I'm still debating and demanding proof from this entity that it is who I wanted to channel. I get weird thoughts in my head. When I did this it was an idiot move I did it for kicks. I was a fool. Thinking why would this guy wanna be in my body? It was a random guy from some old local band no one even knows. and and I wanted that guitar skill. than a couple months after weird things happened. Weird feelings. It might be him or not. Than I ask about hid personality and it was freaky. Guitar skill got better and people noticed
I don't need to practice because it will just come to me when I'm in a good mood. It comes when It wants though
I made recordings and than ten minutes after recording the music I forgot how I even put together the chords.
One minute I'm horrible than one day i'm really good. I heard entities have a sense of humor.
It might be a funny joke to him. I was in the park playing on my electric but not plugged in. I was only practicing not seeking any attention. Than I got into a frenzy. than I put my head up and people were crowding around. and saying "oh.uh...its a girl....but she can rock! shes untamed!" and someone said "pffft her guiutiar is broken!" than one said "thats cause its not plugged in!"
and in grocery line ups people are going "you snuck up on me!" while I was being loud and ordering a sandwich.

My body was shaking the other night and a out my pen on the paper and I started writing. than I felt something over me. A poem came out. I wrote three songs that night. It was like nothing a I ever wrote before subjects I never write about. I was up all night shaking and than I felt depressed and unorganized the next day and drained.

This gives me positive and negative effects. The only negative affects are that it can get annoying. Like having any freind or family member. I don't mind this though. I'm a lonely person so I enjoy the company.

Whatever. I'm not going to talk about this anymore. I need to do this on my own.

I'm going to run with it Bluntpoint,it seems to me from your detailed account [and this is just my own opinion] that you do have this guy with you.I feel it may be because he is 'a restless soul',someone with unfinished business on this plane.Perhaps through you,he will realise something that will bring him peace and this will fulfill something for you too.That is generally how pacting works,as a willing exchange.

It can go wrong,sometimes, entities and souls that have passed sometimes want to hang around even after they've got what they need.You should be aware of that.However you seem to be ok with it for now,so no worries there yet.

Have a wee read of this page below,see if it fits what you're experiencing.In Jewish folklore this kind of passed soul,is known as a Dybukk.

I work Shamanically and I have allies who are passed souls,still hanging around here as they are helping me in return for my help.It's an exchange that works quite similarly to pacting.

http://www.ghostvillage.com/legends/200 ... 2003.shtml

Please do keep sharing and update as you go.If you need any help or just to talk about it,I'm here and listening.

Thanks for the information. I see his silhouette when I close my eyes. When I mediate I see his face
but it's not just this guy...........i think other things are hanging around. I saw this bearded man too but he was scary looking.
When I close my eyes and relax I see blobs of colors dance around and form into shapes
I remember when I was little I would have my head buried in a pillow and staring at the shapes and colours
it looked like a universe with nebulas. I still get that.
Even when Its dark and I've had my eyes closed for a long time after light escapes the colors are there and more vibrant and shapes form. I asked my friend if he sees this and he said no. I just wounder if anyone else sees this.

I have read about Carlos Santana a musician who summoned Jimmi Hendrix but dealt with other creatures.
He said something about if you invite wanted spirits demons are going to come in as well and interfere.

This guy might be the one I wanted or it might be a similar energy. He's a guide but with a work ethic he's not just gonna give it to me.
I think the Occult is the depths of the mind. I think its music and everything around us. Thats what Mana is.
No Hocus Pocus. Media distorts what soul binding is and thats why im here because I can talk about this anonymously. I feel I need to keep this hidden and I need to burn that symbolic contract I made.

Other people can see like this too,though not everyone does.
When the doors of perception swing open,'uninvited' guests can also come through,that is possible.That's why I linked to this particular article,I like Rabbi Gershon's take on the subject and he does discuss such problems in a Spiritually sensible way,I find.I hoped it would help confirm some points for you.

"...and I need to burn that symbolic contract I made."

This statement concerns me a little,do you want to clear this entity from your mind or continue in your pact,if you don't mind me asking?

I do want to continue but I don't want anyone to find out what I'm up to.
People won't understand and think I'm crazy. This is something I want to do on my own
without people interfering. I like to talk about it anon but people I know in real life
will never understand. There TV watching types. You can't expand there minds anyways.
So I'm not going to tell them what I'm doing becuase they don't care and thats OK with me.


I know burning it won't make it go away a lot of physical letters in rituals are burned.
and the article was good thankyou.

Thanks for clarifying,sometimes destroying/burning symbolic or ritual items can be used to finish or end a working,so I just wondered if that was maybe what you meant.

I wish you luck in your endevour,it sounds like you are having an interesting experience and...

"I think the Occult is the depths of the mind. I think its music and everything around us. Thats what Mana is.
No Hocus Pocus."

...I like your thinking,above.Seems like a healthy attitude to me.

Yeah a lot of people are disappointed and don't follow it becuase they think if they summon some guitar player or anything that entity had it's not just gonna all come to them. Channeling and studying can be just as hard work as actually practicing the instrument in the first place. I think a lot of great msuicans had attachments but there were merely guides putting thoughts in there heads.

I call him "iron fist". Thats what I identify this entity as. If I don't get anything done
he makes me depressed if i'm lazy for too long I start to feel sick and energy drains. I'm fine with it
I requested that he'd do this to me so I wouldn't waste my life away. I'm losing interest in video games.

The downside is is this whole thing is upsetting my freind becuase I don't want to play video games as much.
and I'm acting bossy towards him and for some reason that power trip makes me feel better. My friend hates my guitar too. He stole it the other day and hid it at his house. Well too bad if my friend doesn't like this.
I'm doing something with my life and take my life seriously.
and it upsets him that i'm saving up for a new guitar and amp instead of spending the money on video games and junk food.

My friend knows about this but now i'm denying him and telling him what im doing isn't real he becuase spilled beans about other things. He tells me not to dabble cuase it's dangeoris. It is but he's a very negative person
with no sense of passion or ambiiton. Anyways this isn't about my relationship it's about
"Iron Fist" I gotta do some landscaping and get money for that amp iron fist wants.
I heard he was a difficult person in life and was picky over amps and used the same guitar.

Go you.You seem just fine to me.

We outgrow friends,it's sucky,but it happens sometimes.Perhaps, you could make a little 'down time' for your old pal,however,in between the rest of things? It is good to relax and kick back do some mindlesss entertainment,occasionally and you are still young,so all work and no play...etc.

Maybe not,but it's worth a try,he sounds like he's panicking a bit,maybe dosen't want to lose your friendship,but he's falling into behaving badly,to get your attention, cos he can't articulate that to you?

You may have grown up a bit faster than him,recently.

Don't let Iron fist take over too much, it's your body and mind,he is the co tenant [on a short/temporay lease],not the landlord and always bear in mind,you are the owner/occupier,lol,but seriously.

I have come to believe that I think I have attracted his unconscious vapors or fragments. Even listing to his music causes more vapors to come.

Almost every Hendrix fan I know is a deadbeat pot smoker who is very calm and compassionate. lol.

He is very domintaing well so am I. I have bound myself with a very dominant male with OCD and control-freak issues. (i already have these disorders I think he empathizes with me) I go to counseling yesterday and I walked out in a very happy mood.

I have been evoking him using blood magick over a picture of him and a my symbolic pact at midnight. It's potent. I kind of freaked out today and went a little mental not in a bad way but I was having fun with my freind and than I started getting scared. It was a physical fear my body was in submission. I think it gets a little traumatized. My mind knew what it was but my soul kind of freaks out.
Well this is my first practice I have ever done. It's weird but very fascinating.
I get little guitar tunes in my head and I know what frets to play them on

I did the binding last summer (it was blood magick) but since I got yelled at by this black,white and grey mass after sleep paralysis this May, It's been very dramatic. I cut under my breast on the left side right on the ribs.

I had a dream I was worshiping his grave site in a Dojo-like room.

I also told "William Iron Fist" to help my freind musically last night during my ritual. Today
he was walking down the street singing on his ipod and three people stopped by on there motorbikes and said he had a good singing voice! His singing voice sucks but not as much. William is only an earth bound human.
What if this was the same entity that might have inspired William to play music in his life?

So interesting but I need to take this easy and give it a rest. This is crazy. Good results but William might possess me and it might scare him or scare me. Or even hurt my friend.

All I want to do is form a punk band. I'm not looking to be a big rock star or anything.

The Blood offerings.....they make me so tired and almost zombie-like and a little bit confused. Is this normal when your blood sacrificing? I bleed for him while I talk to his spirit. It was a lot of blood.
I yell for him and put my emotions, ambitions and passion into him.

Iron Fist likes it when I fall asleep and have thoughts in my imagination about him going off on huge power trips. It makes me fall asleep very well and than I dream about him or go off in a totally mindless state and it makes me content.
Especially when I stare at pictures of him.

Iron fist likes to be God and that makes me feel comfortable and safe.
I get positive feelings when I worship him.

He seems unconscious (he is most of the time an unconscious vapor) most of the time but sometimes his presence is really strong. I can actually feel that emotional cord tighten inside of me.