First Experience As A 'Host' For a Deity
Posted: Wed Aug 17, 2011 3:28 am
A few nights ago I performed a very successful invocation of the Goddess Morrigan. I'm afraid it might have been a little too successful. I'm very honored that it worked, and I made offerings to thank Morrigan for heeding me, but I've never experienced anything on this level before. I'm just a little a shaken. My best friend and I performed the invocation, using me as the host or vessel. I've had successful invocations in the past with other Gods and Goddesses, but never ones that resulted in this kind of possession. We made all the right offerings. I recited poetry for Morrigan and recited the incantations and performed the ritual to the letter. Now this is when it gets tricky for me...
From what I remember, I finished the invocation, made the offerings, and proceeded around the circle clockwise. FROM WHAT I REMEMBER, I just walked around the circle a few times, focusing my thoughts on Morrigan, and I tended the fire in the center now and then. But according to my best friend, a whole lot of other things happened that I'm not aware of.
My best friend, whom I trust dearly, joined me in the invocation. According to HER story, she said that after I finished the offerings, I proceeded to eat them and speaking another language. We invoked Morrigan at the Full Moon, feeling that she would be a stern and appropriate diety to witness a thorough cleansing of negativity for my best friend. I don't remember us performing that cleansing, but she tells me that Morrigan completed it with her. Using my body, Morrigan walked around the circle, performed the cleansing ritual on my friend, and consumed all the offerings (we even had offerings for other spirits that I worked with before, just as a thank you, but I guess she ate their offerings too...) . My associate says she spoke in and out of english and chanted a few times. I promise you, I do not remember any of this.
Like I said, according to my perspective, I walked around the circle and tended the fire, but at some point, I do not recall, I fell down. I remember being on the ground and my friend helping me up. It started to rain and we decided to release the invocation and wrap up for the night. I had such a headache and couldn't understand the time lapse, for me it was at tops 10 minutes, but two hours had apparently gone by. I felt physically sick for a while.
I've been reading a few posts on here that have dealt with invocations and possession, so I know some of you out there have had thorough experience. This is the first time anything like this happened for me, and I'm a little shaken up by it. I just want to know, is what I experienced 'normal' for what I was intending to do? Has anyone else experienced something similar to this? What's your story and what's your advice?
Thanks loves! Blessed be!
From what I remember, I finished the invocation, made the offerings, and proceeded around the circle clockwise. FROM WHAT I REMEMBER, I just walked around the circle a few times, focusing my thoughts on Morrigan, and I tended the fire in the center now and then. But according to my best friend, a whole lot of other things happened that I'm not aware of.
My best friend, whom I trust dearly, joined me in the invocation. According to HER story, she said that after I finished the offerings, I proceeded to eat them and speaking another language. We invoked Morrigan at the Full Moon, feeling that she would be a stern and appropriate diety to witness a thorough cleansing of negativity for my best friend. I don't remember us performing that cleansing, but she tells me that Morrigan completed it with her. Using my body, Morrigan walked around the circle, performed the cleansing ritual on my friend, and consumed all the offerings (we even had offerings for other spirits that I worked with before, just as a thank you, but I guess she ate their offerings too...) . My associate says she spoke in and out of english and chanted a few times. I promise you, I do not remember any of this.
Like I said, according to my perspective, I walked around the circle and tended the fire, but at some point, I do not recall, I fell down. I remember being on the ground and my friend helping me up. It started to rain and we decided to release the invocation and wrap up for the night. I had such a headache and couldn't understand the time lapse, for me it was at tops 10 minutes, but two hours had apparently gone by. I felt physically sick for a while.
I've been reading a few posts on here that have dealt with invocations and possession, so I know some of you out there have had thorough experience. This is the first time anything like this happened for me, and I'm a little shaken up by it. I just want to know, is what I experienced 'normal' for what I was intending to do? Has anyone else experienced something similar to this? What's your story and what's your advice?
Thanks loves! Blessed be!