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okay long story short

God has been trying to torment me my whole life - i dont know why he fucking hates me but loves everyone else...he toys with me with blessings but then torments me. I have an angel Lover who comforts me but he somtimes even uses her as a weapon against me....it has taken everything from my life - i am on disability now for mental illness and am going insane! i am losing everything in my life, lost my friends, my health, everything!!!

what can i do to be free from gods cruel crutches??? please call up on any and all divines - i just want to be free and live with my Angel in another plane after i die. I never thought I could be this unhappy

Any ritual i can perform that will free me from God? send him away from my life? i honeslty am ready to die - so am just counting the days until i die now, but i dont want my final days to be spent in the misery my whole life has been drenched in

please help!

everyone has a different idea of who or what god is. personally it sounds like negative energy has been effecting you for quite some time now. i know evil spirits love to cause chaos and try to make you blasphem the creators name. im not sure what religion you are but i can only suggest you pray to Jesus Christ for peace. notice how you feel now and how your thinking. then make the sign of the cross and say in your head 'in Jesus christs name i cast out any unholy unclean or demonic spirit completly from me and my house. then humbly ask jesus christ to bless you and your home. it sounds like you know your gaurdian angel its good to hear ask the jesus christ comes into your life and your heart and ask him if he wills to send more guardian angels around you. i promise you will feel a change. im going to pray for you right now may i have your name? please tell me how you feel afterwards.

It's probably not God that has been causing you problems. Before you do anything extreme, find out exactly what it is that has been tormenting you, then find out how to deal with it/get rid of it/banish it. I'll do a reading for you and see what I can find out.

If you feel like you're being attacked than it's mostly a negative entity/energy, whatever you wish to call it.
If you feel safer/better to make a ritual or to take action they I personally would suggest you getting two bowls and filling one with salt (the more natural the better but dont worry) and the other with water.
Bless them in whatever way you desire, pray, meditate, give it blessings/positivity, put your intention into them to clear off negative distractions.

I also suggest meditating, close your eyes and visualize a circle around you or simply surrounded by bright protective light, it's all up to you. This is just to feel safe meditating. Focus on clearing negativity, you can ground and center if you'd like. Reconnect to yourself, reconnect to the source/creator.

and of course remember... what you think, is what you create.

Hope this helped, please feel free to explain more so I and many more experienced than I am people will be more able to assist you.

Peace!

Ok. I did the reading. Near as I can tell, they were saying that you need to step back and go within. In other words, be like the Hermit. Step away from things for a while. The world. God. Everything. Then meditate, contemplate, see what it is that you really want. What you really need. Take as much time as you need.

And the last card in the spread I was using....which is supposed to tell you what the final outcome of the situation is....it said that there could be someone in your life that may leave and indicated that this person was most likely male. I believe that this male is God. Even if he is not the one causing you problems, it may atleast signify that you will have broken ties with him. If it is some other entity that is causing you problems, it may represent that entity.

Get help for your paranoia and/or mental illness, its likely to be what is driving away everybody since you don't seem to be very aware that you yourself are causing any of this, but blame 'god' and/or your 'angel'.

Eventually google 'exorcism of Jehova' or something, might help for all I know if you really believe in it.

Become a Satanist, Satan accepts everybody. [thumbup]

Serenitydawn wrote:Become a Satanist, Satan accepts everybody. [thumbup]

He kicked me out... [twisted]

Well, the first thing you have to do is take responsibility for your life. As long as you blame other beings for your misfortune you will never see things clearly. Your woes are the result of the choices you have made. It's as simple as that. No god or gods are tormenting you. They don't need to. You are your own worst enemy. You must learn to be strong. Life is an endless trail of difficulties. It's not the events that are painful, but how we handle them. Grow up and get tough. Learn to see attachment for what it is. Examine your priorities. Are they helpful to you? Establish some sort of goals for your life.

TheSeeker wrote:

Serenitydawn wrote:Become a Satanist, Satan accepts everybody. [thumbup]

He kicked me out... [twisted]

Too fluffy bunny huh [tongue]

manonthepath wrote:Well, the first thing you have to do is take responsibility for your life. As long as you blame other beings for your misfortune you will never see things clearly. Your woes are the result of the choices you have made. It's as simple as that. No god or gods are tormenting you. They don't need to. You are your own worst enemy. You must learn to be strong. Life is an endless trail of difficulties. It's not the events that are painful, but how we handle them. Grow up and get tough. Learn to see attachment for what it is. Examine your priorities. Are they helpful to you? Establish some sort of goals for your life.

this is rough but i agree with it's message.