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I have had this issue for about 5 years now, when i was in college i became fascinated with magick and the occult, i practiced meditation, visualization, chaos magic, and aura/energy control. After about 3-6 months of meditation and focus training i was finally able to see auras on almost anyone and anything, what brought my training to a halt was when i looked at my own aura, it was grey and black and kind of swirling inwards, and when was close to others theirs would pull into mine, their attitude would become hostile within minutes to hours, my room mates were going insane to the point of issuing death threats and becoming violent, i found that people in my class who sat even near me had declining grades, i could go on that tangent for a while tho.

To the main issue at hand, this energy leaching problem has not stopped, and it is passive, i have not been able to find more then one or two people at best who can even stand to be in the same room with me for more then a few minutes, is there any sort of training or rituals to dampen or control this leaching? i kind of want to be able to have a social life, friends or even a GF

Thanks in advance for any input

Vadd, Soldier & seeker

Hello Vadd_21,

I have been thinking a lot about the problems you presented. I am unsure but have some vague ideas and perhaps more information will help others and myself analyze this better.

From what you wrote, am I correct that this negative manifestation began only recently? Assuming 21 is your age, did you have these same types of issues before you were 17 and began an involvement with the occult? Further, when you say you were using visualization and chaos magic, what specifically were / are you doing? All of these details move towards one central question: what were you doing when this began? What was happening in your life? Have you tried cleansing and banishing rituals? Finally, do you have a belief in any higher positive powers? What do you mean by 'soldier?'

I and others will try and offer you the best advice we can and point you towards resources that may be of help.

Many times, we evoke specific conditions based upon the state of what we hold in our thoughts. Thoughts are indeed things, and are the key to manifestation of specific "energies". If you feel you have become somewhat negative and draining on others, you should meditate on visual imagery where you are projecting, and giving in nature. Radiating light as a brilliant Sun, or transmitting positive feelings and thoughts. This change in mental behavior will help alleviate this condition. One should also pay attention to his/her ideas, and beliefs as well as their diet. Too much dead food can contribute to this sort of negative air.

There are things within the Agnaw that act as a sort of banishing right, however, this would take teaching to provide. The standard LBRP, (Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram) found within ceremonial magick, such as the Golden Dawn system of Magic, as well as the Thelemic system shall certainly be of use. In a pinch, one could simply envision a brilliant globe of protective white light around oneself, and center yourself. This helps resist negative internal forces and forms (or objective, depending upon ones views).

LF

Asurendra wrote:

From what you wrote, am I correct that this negative manifestation began only recently? Assuming 21 is your age, did you have these same types of issues before you were 17 and began an involvement with the occult? Further, when you say you were using visualization and chaos magic, what specifically were / are you doing? All of these details move towards one central question: what were you doing when this began? What was happening in your life? Have you tried cleansing and banishing rituals? Finally, do you have a belief in any higher positive powers? What do you mean by 'soldier?'

21 was when i started dabbling, the number holds significance to me, my age is 26. Did i have the issues before my involvment? unknown, i was raised mostly alone and home schooled so i had little to no extended human contact growing up, college was my first interaction and i was almost 21 when i went. Visualizations, crystal and water scrying, chaos magic, i didint get much further then just basic sigil working. what was i doing when it began, being a student, cant really think of any major issues. Cleansing and banishing, after it began i was preforming LBRP on a nightly basis for about a month or so. belief in higher powers? yes. when i mean by soldier, its what i am, a soldier in the U.S. Army.

Lord Ferocia wrote:
Many times, we evoke specific conditions based upon the state of what we hold in our thoughts. Thoughts are indeed things, and are the key to manifestation of specific "energies". If you feel you have become somewhat negative and draining on others, you should meditate on visual imagery where you are projecting, and giving in nature. Radiating light as a brilliant Sun, or transmitting positive feelings and thoughts. This change in mental behavior will help alleviate this condition. One should also pay attention to his/her ideas, and beliefs as well as their diet. Too much dead food can contribute to this sort of negative air.

I will have to try visualizing Radiant light today. Hadent really considered diet being a factor, i will have to look into that.

thanks for the input so far, im outta time this morning, got PT to get to.

Vadd, Soldier & seeker

Hoorah!

You need to find a mentor. My opinion of your post is that you are a strong adult psy vamp that has no idea how to control his gift/curse.

There's an amazing forum for psychic vampires that I think you may find helpful http://www.psychicvampire.org/

Right off the top of my head - you can fine tune your ability to drain your enemy if you can learn to control it.

I would just like to congratulate you on 1) recognizing the 'problem' and 2) being concerned about it.

I don't know if this is something that happened to you, that you did to yourself or just who you are. It could be a blessing/ curse thing... but its you so you should take control of it.

I would suggest meditating, getting calm and then visualize it. Feel it. Let it pull in if it wants. Then slowly nudge the energy make it wobble or move. See if you can stop it or make it change direction. Eventually try to push it out. This may take a small paradigm shift. Think of a person or animal you love, that brings you joy or makes you laugh and when trying to change direction, send them loving feelings.

Breathing techniques may help also, but don't expect one exercise to help. Meditate, breathe..when relaxed imagine light from above and "breathe" it in thru the top of your head making your crown chakra glow... do that for a couple breathes and then have it bypass the crown and let it affect you 3rd eye chakra... and so on. Spend a lot of time filling your heart and navel chakra, as this may be where the 'problem' is.

As a note, if you picked up aura sight that fast AND you have a energy vamp syndrome, this could very well have roots in a past life. You may want to get regressed if none of this helps.

RoseRed wrote:
There's an amazing forum for psychic vampires that I think you may find helpful http://www.psychicvampire.org/

Thanks for that resource, it looks like something that could help, potentially a lot.

Vadd, Soldier & seeker

Hello again Vadd,

I have been thinking about your situation and I have to confess I am stumped. I think that the recommendation of Rose Red may be the best in this situation.