Being Pulled?
Posted: Sat Jul 04, 2015 8:11 am
Okay, this is going to be strange, but I don't know where else to ask it.
A few questions: (please note I'm VERY new to much of this)
1. We all talk about invoking entities and such, which many argue have an external existence apart from us. If this is true, and you invoke a demon, aka a seemingly fantastical entity in todays secular and rational world, is Jesus outside the realm of possibility? I ask because I've had my doubts about his true nature as a divine being but since I am now studying a world inhabited by a plethora of beings, my mind is telling me that is certainly in the realm of possibility.
This leads to another question.
2) I've read many things about how, the more in tune you get with things or practice your senses, the more seemingly random or coincidental things seem not so random or coincidental and in fact may be road maps guiding you to some type of destination. Would you agree with this or am I such a newbie that I'm wrong?
Here's why I ask. In the last month or so, I've had several seemingly random things happen, utterances or synchronicities really, which I am starting to notice.
You see, I got into this because I guess I wanted to have an experience that there is more to existence then the simply mundane world of matter, to know that there are other things beyond the veil. Oh sure there are some things which are interesting such as utilizing your will and invoking something to give you a lending hand in certain areas and if you've read my introduction, one of those is a quest to improve myself, with my focus being on acquring a better economic status.
However, with that, I also see to master myself and know what makes me tick beyond the shell of ego. As such, and correct me if I'm wrong, I've been seeking a more spiritual path.
Anyways, I had posted up not to long ago on social media about feeling a "gap" in my life which I would like to feel more complete and well rounded as an individual. Posting this, someone asked me "Do you have a relationship with Jesus?" to which I answered that I had my doubts. A month prior to this, a friend had recommended to me a book called "Wild at Heart" a book with Christian elements.
So, after posting my gap conversation, last week I was driving north out of the town I live in to get beyond a cloud to see the Aurora borealis which was visible in some parts of North America. I ended up driving 25 miles but couldn't escape the cloud which aparently was much further away then I thought. As I drove I was going through the radio stations when I heard someone say "Mind the Gap" and then talk about C.S. Lewis "The Screwtape Letters" and the weapon of giving people "the horror of the same old thing" which drives them ever more into materialism.
Then today, quite by happenstance, I ran into a colleague, who I talked to for several hours about my recent experiences in life to which he recommended I seek out faith. He, being Catholic, mentioned certain saints wbich , when a medallion of one was buried on his parents land (he's older) ensured his parents agricultural bounty when their fellow neighbors had more natural deprivations. My first thought was magick.
3.) What is going on? You hear about the occults associations with darker forces so I have wondered, a. Is this REALLY true (Goetia) and b. If true, is some other mystical force directing me somewhere else. I was really enjoying working through Kraigs book, and the visulizations and practices, and knowledge he reveals but I have paused to figure this stuff out in case long held prohibitions are true. (Not saying that they're right.)
But at the same time, doing the Middle Pillar work I really feel the energy flowing and I like it. (I am reading about kundalini).
4.) However, since Catholics invoke saints, isn't this a form of magick itself? Is there such a thing as Christian magic? Reading through the New Testament and a book I have on Jewish Kaballah, I am wondering if that wasn't what Jesus was originally practicing (whether or not he man/or deity)?
Sorry for the long post, but I feel like I'm spinning around like a top. Has anyone else ever felt these questions?
Thanks for your patience. I apologize in advance if this is the wrong place.
A few questions: (please note I'm VERY new to much of this)
1. We all talk about invoking entities and such, which many argue have an external existence apart from us. If this is true, and you invoke a demon, aka a seemingly fantastical entity in todays secular and rational world, is Jesus outside the realm of possibility? I ask because I've had my doubts about his true nature as a divine being but since I am now studying a world inhabited by a plethora of beings, my mind is telling me that is certainly in the realm of possibility.
This leads to another question.
2) I've read many things about how, the more in tune you get with things or practice your senses, the more seemingly random or coincidental things seem not so random or coincidental and in fact may be road maps guiding you to some type of destination. Would you agree with this or am I such a newbie that I'm wrong?
Here's why I ask. In the last month or so, I've had several seemingly random things happen, utterances or synchronicities really, which I am starting to notice.
You see, I got into this because I guess I wanted to have an experience that there is more to existence then the simply mundane world of matter, to know that there are other things beyond the veil. Oh sure there are some things which are interesting such as utilizing your will and invoking something to give you a lending hand in certain areas and if you've read my introduction, one of those is a quest to improve myself, with my focus being on acquring a better economic status.
However, with that, I also see to master myself and know what makes me tick beyond the shell of ego. As such, and correct me if I'm wrong, I've been seeking a more spiritual path.
Anyways, I had posted up not to long ago on social media about feeling a "gap" in my life which I would like to feel more complete and well rounded as an individual. Posting this, someone asked me "Do you have a relationship with Jesus?" to which I answered that I had my doubts. A month prior to this, a friend had recommended to me a book called "Wild at Heart" a book with Christian elements.
So, after posting my gap conversation, last week I was driving north out of the town I live in to get beyond a cloud to see the Aurora borealis which was visible in some parts of North America. I ended up driving 25 miles but couldn't escape the cloud which aparently was much further away then I thought. As I drove I was going through the radio stations when I heard someone say "Mind the Gap" and then talk about C.S. Lewis "The Screwtape Letters" and the weapon of giving people "the horror of the same old thing" which drives them ever more into materialism.
Then today, quite by happenstance, I ran into a colleague, who I talked to for several hours about my recent experiences in life to which he recommended I seek out faith. He, being Catholic, mentioned certain saints wbich , when a medallion of one was buried on his parents land (he's older) ensured his parents agricultural bounty when their fellow neighbors had more natural deprivations. My first thought was magick.
3.) What is going on? You hear about the occults associations with darker forces so I have wondered, a. Is this REALLY true (Goetia) and b. If true, is some other mystical force directing me somewhere else. I was really enjoying working through Kraigs book, and the visulizations and practices, and knowledge he reveals but I have paused to figure this stuff out in case long held prohibitions are true. (Not saying that they're right.)
But at the same time, doing the Middle Pillar work I really feel the energy flowing and I like it. (I am reading about kundalini).
4.) However, since Catholics invoke saints, isn't this a form of magick itself? Is there such a thing as Christian magic? Reading through the New Testament and a book I have on Jewish Kaballah, I am wondering if that wasn't what Jesus was originally practicing (whether or not he man/or deity)?
Sorry for the long post, but I feel like I'm spinning around like a top. Has anyone else ever felt these questions?
Thanks for your patience. I apologize in advance if this is the wrong place.