Unexplainable Badluck with magick
Posted: Sun Dec 18, 2016 6:00 pm
I am hoping to find someone in similar situation as I am, or one who can explain things or provide help.
I was raised a pentecostal Christian and was very passionate about the things of God until it reached a point in my teens when I began to experience lots of emotional problems. It was at this point that I needed the peace and comfort religion promises, but I couldn't seem to find it. I realised that my enthusiasm about spiritual things wasn't rewarded with a connection. No matter how long and hard I prayed, I didn't get any message or comfort from God. I hear about other people receiving ministration from the holy spirit, but I never had any experience like that. Realising this gave me a sort of inferiority complex. I questioned my faith and and began to explore other paths. I read other religious books that aren't Christian with the hope of finding truth and a connection with the divine, but things remained the same.
Close to my late teens, I discovered that a body flaw I had that was making me depressed was not hereditary but was a result of unfortunate circumstances during infancy. It's one thing to know you have an unusual head shape, it is also another thing to know that you weren't created that way but Plagiocephaly happened. This made me seek spiritual comfort even more. After years of praying without answers or a sign. I decide to look into what magick has to offer. I read some materials on spirits and what they are capable of. I familiarised myself with the processes involved, and after much studying, I felt I was ready to summon a spirit to help me. Through research, I identified 3 spirits capable of giving me the miracle I badly needed. They are Chenor (The wish granter), Marbas (From the Goetia) and Barashakushu (Necronomicon). Over a period of 2 years, I have been trying to make contact with these spirits. I have tried everything ranging from conventional rituals to desperate and less cautious approaches. All have failed. Not a sign, no nothing. In between I have been trying some meditation to develop my astral senses but it changed nothing. My will is strong and the purpose is important. I don't understand why spirits seem to ignore me. It's like getting snubbed by the gods of every religion. It made me even wonder if the supernatural exists at all. But based on the stories of others, I know it does. My case seem to be different.
I was raised a pentecostal Christian and was very passionate about the things of God until it reached a point in my teens when I began to experience lots of emotional problems. It was at this point that I needed the peace and comfort religion promises, but I couldn't seem to find it. I realised that my enthusiasm about spiritual things wasn't rewarded with a connection. No matter how long and hard I prayed, I didn't get any message or comfort from God. I hear about other people receiving ministration from the holy spirit, but I never had any experience like that. Realising this gave me a sort of inferiority complex. I questioned my faith and and began to explore other paths. I read other religious books that aren't Christian with the hope of finding truth and a connection with the divine, but things remained the same.
Close to my late teens, I discovered that a body flaw I had that was making me depressed was not hereditary but was a result of unfortunate circumstances during infancy. It's one thing to know you have an unusual head shape, it is also another thing to know that you weren't created that way but Plagiocephaly happened. This made me seek spiritual comfort even more. After years of praying without answers or a sign. I decide to look into what magick has to offer. I read some materials on spirits and what they are capable of. I familiarised myself with the processes involved, and after much studying, I felt I was ready to summon a spirit to help me. Through research, I identified 3 spirits capable of giving me the miracle I badly needed. They are Chenor (The wish granter), Marbas (From the Goetia) and Barashakushu (Necronomicon). Over a period of 2 years, I have been trying to make contact with these spirits. I have tried everything ranging from conventional rituals to desperate and less cautious approaches. All have failed. Not a sign, no nothing. In between I have been trying some meditation to develop my astral senses but it changed nothing. My will is strong and the purpose is important. I don't understand why spirits seem to ignore me. It's like getting snubbed by the gods of every religion. It made me even wonder if the supernatural exists at all. But based on the stories of others, I know it does. My case seem to be different.
. Confidence is something that only you can cultivate. I understand where you are coming from. We have many things in common. These beings may or may not grant you your desires, but you should not rely on these beings or anyone for the matter, for your peace of mind. Best of luck [thumbup] .