In need of insight
Posted: Thu Jun 29, 2017 2:31 am
Hi every one Im going to be up front and honest upfront im not a magician but a person who has naturaly have paranormal experiences in my life the best way i can explain it im very informed about the goetia and few other beginning magicain tools but, i do not practice myself in fear of causing problems in real life situations by having a bad invocation.
Now that done with that I must start that I have allways had a interest in the dark arts since I was in middel school im 23 now by the way. It all started when I was playing out side and this old hatien woman, who us neighborhood kids joked about her doing voodoo, called me to her porch to help with some heavy grocery bags. So I did and as walking to leave and as she handed me money that did not ask for she grabed my wrist and closed her eyes and then smiled and said, your aura is dark thick and is absent of light like a shadow but yet golden and bright on the inside
My only response was uhhhhh huh whats a aura as i put the 20$ I earned in my pocket. So only said in the right time I know the answer to my question.
Now fast forward im about 15-16 years old, badass street thug kid selling drugs and other negative activities. I began smoking pot heavy and was doing cough syrup aka codien as well. Now durring the times of being stoned I felt a strong spiritual energy inside of I was able to do things while high off weed that I could never do while not high,it almost felt as the marijuana was opening doors to my spiritual self that I never have had felt or thought of. So durring a summer of being stoned and bored with a laptop I began look up and read upon all things aura and spiritual related. among my searches i found about the goetia and demonolgy and since I had no one to contact to help me understand myself spirtualy I could only read and attempt differnt ways to achieve answers and along the long way I believe I have open door to certian entities in my life that have not been closed to this day!
With that being said here comes the meat and potatoes of my post on this forum . the realisation of the entites in my life began with a book of all things.
It was in the middle of the summer and my mother had left on a work related trip ,and i was staying at a friends mind you I grew up in a single mother home with my older doing home and moved to other states so therefore me and my mother only and only the ones that have keys to our home. So I come a day early before my mom dose to enjoy the house to my self smoke weed watch and play on my laptop. So once i steped inside I found a book I recognised that was put away in a plastic bin in the basement that was now on the floor underneath the dining room table. So my first reaction being that we live in the ghetto was to check for a sign of a break in but of course all the valuable were still there and there was no sign of a break in or a break in in the basement. I was left to investigate the upside down book under my dining the room table. The book was called steps to jesus christ and it was a book from my older sisters church youth group. So as turned the book over the book contained an illustrated picture of jesuses on the cross with people surrounding him but perfectly dead centered on were Jesuses face was on the book cover was burned of off in a jagged circle and as I opened the book to the last page that wasnt burnt were Jesus face use to be it read perfectly centered in the circle ,his evil will ride again. My mind started racing not in fear but in astonishment I had gotten what seem to be a reaction to my experiments with spirits to work! I also must mention that I was sober durring the whole time of this occurenc so those will not say that I was just stoned out of minds in the replys. So being the negative living person I was at the time I decided to break down my pot on the burnt book cover side and said out loud I don't know who you are what you are but this did not offend or cause fear in me now i know you exsist I cannot fear you so therefore I want to work with you, and proceeded to roll my weed.
Now this book became a thing to talk about to freinds, I have since lost it due to my mother finding it and throwing it away. Outside of the book incident has multiple incidents of pictures of my little brother falling or and his baby pictures book flying out of a wisker basket that was flat on the ground and opening up to a pic of him and haven't had any incidents since we moved out of that house when I was 17. I will say I have had voice in my mind that is very fatherl like that has directed me out of bad situations but in recent years it has been gone and absent and I have faced bad situations I usually avoid, yes I have also changed my negative was when I turned 18 I still use pot but not as heavy I have had mental tests as well to and have been proven to be non mentally ill.
The point I'm getting to with all this information that I have shared what do you other magicians make of this did I play cards with a goetia entity ?and not close the door between out worlds ?but yet it found to respect me for not fearing it? And a offer was put on the table for my little brother soul but since I was ignornt to see that and it took pitty on me and gave guidance out of bad situations?
Or is it still with me? Or is it just a familiar that was given to me and has since given up on me for lack of not giving it attention? These are all theories I have compiled but I need to consult you magicians who know what your doing because these unanswered questions have bothered me to this day and the lack of incidents with said possible entity has decreased to a point of non exsistant.
Now that done with that I must start that I have allways had a interest in the dark arts since I was in middel school im 23 now by the way. It all started when I was playing out side and this old hatien woman, who us neighborhood kids joked about her doing voodoo, called me to her porch to help with some heavy grocery bags. So I did and as walking to leave and as she handed me money that did not ask for she grabed my wrist and closed her eyes and then smiled and said, your aura is dark thick and is absent of light like a shadow but yet golden and bright on the inside
My only response was uhhhhh huh whats a aura as i put the 20$ I earned in my pocket. So only said in the right time I know the answer to my question.
Now fast forward im about 15-16 years old, badass street thug kid selling drugs and other negative activities. I began smoking pot heavy and was doing cough syrup aka codien as well. Now durring the times of being stoned I felt a strong spiritual energy inside of I was able to do things while high off weed that I could never do while not high,it almost felt as the marijuana was opening doors to my spiritual self that I never have had felt or thought of. So durring a summer of being stoned and bored with a laptop I began look up and read upon all things aura and spiritual related. among my searches i found about the goetia and demonolgy and since I had no one to contact to help me understand myself spirtualy I could only read and attempt differnt ways to achieve answers and along the long way I believe I have open door to certian entities in my life that have not been closed to this day!
With that being said here comes the meat and potatoes of my post on this forum . the realisation of the entites in my life began with a book of all things.
It was in the middle of the summer and my mother had left on a work related trip ,and i was staying at a friends mind you I grew up in a single mother home with my older doing home and moved to other states so therefore me and my mother only and only the ones that have keys to our home. So I come a day early before my mom dose to enjoy the house to my self smoke weed watch and play on my laptop. So once i steped inside I found a book I recognised that was put away in a plastic bin in the basement that was now on the floor underneath the dining room table. So my first reaction being that we live in the ghetto was to check for a sign of a break in but of course all the valuable were still there and there was no sign of a break in or a break in in the basement. I was left to investigate the upside down book under my dining the room table. The book was called steps to jesus christ and it was a book from my older sisters church youth group. So as turned the book over the book contained an illustrated picture of jesuses on the cross with people surrounding him but perfectly dead centered on were Jesuses face was on the book cover was burned of off in a jagged circle and as I opened the book to the last page that wasnt burnt were Jesus face use to be it read perfectly centered in the circle ,his evil will ride again. My mind started racing not in fear but in astonishment I had gotten what seem to be a reaction to my experiments with spirits to work! I also must mention that I was sober durring the whole time of this occurenc so those will not say that I was just stoned out of minds in the replys. So being the negative living person I was at the time I decided to break down my pot on the burnt book cover side and said out loud I don't know who you are what you are but this did not offend or cause fear in me now i know you exsist I cannot fear you so therefore I want to work with you, and proceeded to roll my weed.
Now this book became a thing to talk about to freinds, I have since lost it due to my mother finding it and throwing it away. Outside of the book incident has multiple incidents of pictures of my little brother falling or and his baby pictures book flying out of a wisker basket that was flat on the ground and opening up to a pic of him and haven't had any incidents since we moved out of that house when I was 17. I will say I have had voice in my mind that is very fatherl like that has directed me out of bad situations but in recent years it has been gone and absent and I have faced bad situations I usually avoid, yes I have also changed my negative was when I turned 18 I still use pot but not as heavy I have had mental tests as well to and have been proven to be non mentally ill.
The point I'm getting to with all this information that I have shared what do you other magicians make of this did I play cards with a goetia entity ?and not close the door between out worlds ?but yet it found to respect me for not fearing it? And a offer was put on the table for my little brother soul but since I was ignornt to see that and it took pitty on me and gave guidance out of bad situations?
Or is it still with me? Or is it just a familiar that was given to me and has since given up on me for lack of not giving it attention? These are all theories I have compiled but I need to consult you magicians who know what your doing because these unanswered questions have bothered me to this day and the lack of incidents with said possible entity has decreased to a point of non exsistant.