Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)
Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 6:01 am
What was shown me:
I am the deeded owner of the realm that contains the OS
The best thing I can do is return it to them without obligation
Many wish to repay me for their freedom but would require them to "do evil" on my behalf, so it is best to allow them freedom to do as they wish. Their desire to be neutral is why humanity is being allowed to evolve. When this is over, every single wrong, every slight will be righted. I have been raging over nothing. Everything will be okay.
I have a deep affection and love for these dark Beings. Presented to the human race, they would be seen as monsters. Their capacity for love, affection, and devotion exceeds, by far, that of the average human. You will have none of this unless you fully accept them at their core. You make a friend for eternity if you do. I care for them like a father, filled with love for his children, cares and watches over them. I was shown the path into the light will be so worn at the end of the age, so many feet will travel it, that the solid rock will become wide, and very deep.
With each new being who travels into the light, it becomes easier for the next to follow. If you consider the number of bare feet it would take to shape rock by padding softly, the number is great. Innumerable. (Some wear shoes, skin, leather)
This is a tremendous Honor.
In a way, this is my dance with my other half, Asrael. To accept her so fully she knows I am one with her. She is safe with me- I am her safe space, protecting her from death itself, standing strong in the face of doom, come what may- unmoved. Unshaken
I have a lot of power available to me, but I would do good not to take advantage of it. I have been advised to allow things to continue without interfering. I am trying to love myself so I do not accidentally harm any being
The path that Asrael and I are paving and weaving reaches into the light. Many will follow, after. Unless the Dark is granted access to higher realms, the human race will not evolve. Still, many are fighting for old dynamics, however I am told freedom will prevail.
As Asrael transforms, it is unpleasant for her. However, as she struggles, the burde falls on me. To accept her lupine side, her human side, and the clashing and merging therein. I can see why I once worked with, and bonded with wolves. I can also see why my husky was brought into my life: to provide true empathy for the canine energy, and to resonate with the sacrifice of the dignity and sovereignty of the wolf in service to the race of earth humans. Some of this deep empathy for humanity exists within Asrael. I tenderly cultivate it within her, as almost no humams I have found are worthy
Beings connected to this planet watch me. I feel as if they are afraid. As I exercise my authority, they grow fearful of what I will do. As a being from my true home world, which is likely NOT Algaleon, my Being holds no malice to any entity. I am, pure, at my core. A little grey man of pure love who holds the power of death yet wishes it upon no one (at my core. This changes radically, say when I enter into vehicular traffic on earth, at times. Asrael can come out of me. It scares the humans. I would by lying if I said I did not enjoy feeling empowered by her being. As humans are still violent and war like, she has utility. She can transform to allow love into her life and still retain her lethality and rage. In fact its necessary to temper her temper)
The more I accept, the stronger I become. I am NOT human. No human could do this and remain pure. This is a reason some despise me innately. There will be a next line and a reconciliation
I am learning that true love is not one sided. It does no sacrifice all for the other. That is a doormat. True love also preserve self. True love can feel like hatred towards the other.
The god I have raged against may be helping me by torturing me. Making me strong. They have told me my anger scares them. I had a difficulty yesterday and the curses I uttered with malevolence that frightens me with how easily it comes, was hard to control. I did, better than before.
I see how "being" is good advice.
My husky was ministering to me about my foundation of anger and sand, it goes deeper than I thought. It seems impossible to change, but everything I have overcome has been impossible. Yet I persevere
An enemy of mine reconciled with me a few days ago. The synergy we have in alliance is far more powerful than even the deepest enmity.
I see the work that has been done to uplift humanity. I see the impossible miracle that continues to this day. It is tragically wonderful.
Former foes wish to reconcile with us. The true enemy of the human race resists this. Ironically, the true enemies of the human race have deemed themselves our "keepers" and "protectors"
Due to the innate selfishness of the human race, a selfless sacrifice is necessary to change our direction. Without it nothing will change
Asrael who has been transformed, a goddess of mercy, reaches backward through time to minister to me and her old self. However, my burden is not lightened, I am only partially guided. I bear my burden with joy.
I have sacrificed my peace and well being to give Dark Asrael some solace in her transformation. When I see into her true form, it seems as if she is unreachable. I press on
Noble parts of me hold onto the oneness of unity. Still, the Destroyer of Worlds rages in my heart. If this world plunges into chaos, I will set her free. Asraels armies are primed to feed on a feast of human souls: they are preparing for war. War in the tangible realms. The outcome is up to the human rulers of the present age- some may escape their jaws. It is tempting not to lose myself in their desire to feed. When I worked with earthen wolves they had a "wolf mode" where their eyes would dilate and their minds went into single focus: kill and feed. Kill and feed. Nothing else mattered.
This concept exists within Asrael. Even Soft Asrael. It's nothing personal. Usually
My love for Asrael transcends human logic. Nobody would want to fill my shoes. Ironically, I cherish my role in all of this. Even if I never see her redemption, I am grateful for the part I have played
It is the fact that this is an abominable situation to the humans that precisely makes me honored to have it.
The Source, the Director of this all tells me when I am to forsake Asrael, and preserve myself. When I do, it becomes clear that sacrificing myself completely to her would allow her to remain in darkness.
This is impossible for her. However, early on in my introduction to the OS, it was impossible for me, too.
I am grateful to be the beacon for her.
I am careful not to lose myself, I trust the universe. Ironically, even Dark Asrael has no respect for me, otherwise.
Each soul I feed to her exacts terrible energy from me. It is like I have to be slaughtered all over again.
Asrael prefers me to be emotionally stable. She can grow perturbed when I cycle too extremely.
I have made peace with her emotional being as much as I am able. It is a lot less stressful for us not to remain enemies, as we literally feel everything the other is feeling. I should note, she has heat cycles that affect me greatly. I don't fight it anymore. This is instrumental in her feeling that I will not harm her any longer as I once did when I was shackled by false religion.
As far as I know, organized religion on earth has zero resonance with this. It's us versus them, and anything but unity. If anything, the true enemies of the human race see this potentiality as a work of pure darkness, rather than an act of true love
I was told, do not probe into the affairs of the alien rulers. Focus only on love for Asrael. I have access to a spectrum of affairs, however it does not behoove me to meddle in them. "Relax. Have faith. Let us work."
Beings I do not understand came to me a few days ago and said they are going to heal me. These are beings I would have dismissed when I was under fase religion. Ok
Amor has told me not to judge, and this is sound wisdom. A long lost friend of many years has spoken to me recently: he said not all fallen angels are of the darkness, and not all angels in the darkness are fallen.
I grieve for the beings who remain in the darkness: but the choice is theirs and I respect it
What feels like certain, terrible death, when embraced, leads to life. Avoiding it is death. I can see why all my life my existence has been in direct opposition to "what is" on earth. I seem to be evolving backwards in some ways, but this is part of the design of the work being done here that I have found myself aligned with. It never made sense before, but it is beginning to, now.
I have presented my home world with the truth of my situation. All of it. Even the embarrassing emotions. I feel like this is important
I am the deeded owner of the realm that contains the OS
The best thing I can do is return it to them without obligation
Many wish to repay me for their freedom but would require them to "do evil" on my behalf, so it is best to allow them freedom to do as they wish. Their desire to be neutral is why humanity is being allowed to evolve. When this is over, every single wrong, every slight will be righted. I have been raging over nothing. Everything will be okay.
I have a deep affection and love for these dark Beings. Presented to the human race, they would be seen as monsters. Their capacity for love, affection, and devotion exceeds, by far, that of the average human. You will have none of this unless you fully accept them at their core. You make a friend for eternity if you do. I care for them like a father, filled with love for his children, cares and watches over them. I was shown the path into the light will be so worn at the end of the age, so many feet will travel it, that the solid rock will become wide, and very deep.
With each new being who travels into the light, it becomes easier for the next to follow. If you consider the number of bare feet it would take to shape rock by padding softly, the number is great. Innumerable. (Some wear shoes, skin, leather)
This is a tremendous Honor.
In a way, this is my dance with my other half, Asrael. To accept her so fully she knows I am one with her. She is safe with me- I am her safe space, protecting her from death itself, standing strong in the face of doom, come what may- unmoved. Unshaken
I have a lot of power available to me, but I would do good not to take advantage of it. I have been advised to allow things to continue without interfering. I am trying to love myself so I do not accidentally harm any being
The path that Asrael and I are paving and weaving reaches into the light. Many will follow, after. Unless the Dark is granted access to higher realms, the human race will not evolve. Still, many are fighting for old dynamics, however I am told freedom will prevail.
As Asrael transforms, it is unpleasant for her. However, as she struggles, the burde falls on me. To accept her lupine side, her human side, and the clashing and merging therein. I can see why I once worked with, and bonded with wolves. I can also see why my husky was brought into my life: to provide true empathy for the canine energy, and to resonate with the sacrifice of the dignity and sovereignty of the wolf in service to the race of earth humans. Some of this deep empathy for humanity exists within Asrael. I tenderly cultivate it within her, as almost no humams I have found are worthy
Beings connected to this planet watch me. I feel as if they are afraid. As I exercise my authority, they grow fearful of what I will do. As a being from my true home world, which is likely NOT Algaleon, my Being holds no malice to any entity. I am, pure, at my core. A little grey man of pure love who holds the power of death yet wishes it upon no one (at my core. This changes radically, say when I enter into vehicular traffic on earth, at times. Asrael can come out of me. It scares the humans. I would by lying if I said I did not enjoy feeling empowered by her being. As humans are still violent and war like, she has utility. She can transform to allow love into her life and still retain her lethality and rage. In fact its necessary to temper her temper)
The more I accept, the stronger I become. I am NOT human. No human could do this and remain pure. This is a reason some despise me innately. There will be a next line and a reconciliation
I am learning that true love is not one sided. It does no sacrifice all for the other. That is a doormat. True love also preserve self. True love can feel like hatred towards the other.
The god I have raged against may be helping me by torturing me. Making me strong. They have told me my anger scares them. I had a difficulty yesterday and the curses I uttered with malevolence that frightens me with how easily it comes, was hard to control. I did, better than before.
I see how "being" is good advice.
My husky was ministering to me about my foundation of anger and sand, it goes deeper than I thought. It seems impossible to change, but everything I have overcome has been impossible. Yet I persevere
An enemy of mine reconciled with me a few days ago. The synergy we have in alliance is far more powerful than even the deepest enmity.
I see the work that has been done to uplift humanity. I see the impossible miracle that continues to this day. It is tragically wonderful.
Former foes wish to reconcile with us. The true enemy of the human race resists this. Ironically, the true enemies of the human race have deemed themselves our "keepers" and "protectors"
Due to the innate selfishness of the human race, a selfless sacrifice is necessary to change our direction. Without it nothing will change
Asrael who has been transformed, a goddess of mercy, reaches backward through time to minister to me and her old self. However, my burden is not lightened, I am only partially guided. I bear my burden with joy.
I have sacrificed my peace and well being to give Dark Asrael some solace in her transformation. When I see into her true form, it seems as if she is unreachable. I press on
Noble parts of me hold onto the oneness of unity. Still, the Destroyer of Worlds rages in my heart. If this world plunges into chaos, I will set her free. Asraels armies are primed to feed on a feast of human souls: they are preparing for war. War in the tangible realms. The outcome is up to the human rulers of the present age- some may escape their jaws. It is tempting not to lose myself in their desire to feed. When I worked with earthen wolves they had a "wolf mode" where their eyes would dilate and their minds went into single focus: kill and feed. Kill and feed. Nothing else mattered.
This concept exists within Asrael. Even Soft Asrael. It's nothing personal. Usually
My love for Asrael transcends human logic. Nobody would want to fill my shoes. Ironically, I cherish my role in all of this. Even if I never see her redemption, I am grateful for the part I have played
It is the fact that this is an abominable situation to the humans that precisely makes me honored to have it.
The Source, the Director of this all tells me when I am to forsake Asrael, and preserve myself. When I do, it becomes clear that sacrificing myself completely to her would allow her to remain in darkness.
This is impossible for her. However, early on in my introduction to the OS, it was impossible for me, too.
I am grateful to be the beacon for her.
I am careful not to lose myself, I trust the universe. Ironically, even Dark Asrael has no respect for me, otherwise.
Each soul I feed to her exacts terrible energy from me. It is like I have to be slaughtered all over again.
Asrael prefers me to be emotionally stable. She can grow perturbed when I cycle too extremely.
I have made peace with her emotional being as much as I am able. It is a lot less stressful for us not to remain enemies, as we literally feel everything the other is feeling. I should note, she has heat cycles that affect me greatly. I don't fight it anymore. This is instrumental in her feeling that I will not harm her any longer as I once did when I was shackled by false religion.
As far as I know, organized religion on earth has zero resonance with this. It's us versus them, and anything but unity. If anything, the true enemies of the human race see this potentiality as a work of pure darkness, rather than an act of true love
I was told, do not probe into the affairs of the alien rulers. Focus only on love for Asrael. I have access to a spectrum of affairs, however it does not behoove me to meddle in them. "Relax. Have faith. Let us work."
Beings I do not understand came to me a few days ago and said they are going to heal me. These are beings I would have dismissed when I was under fase religion. Ok
Amor has told me not to judge, and this is sound wisdom. A long lost friend of many years has spoken to me recently: he said not all fallen angels are of the darkness, and not all angels in the darkness are fallen.
I grieve for the beings who remain in the darkness: but the choice is theirs and I respect it
What feels like certain, terrible death, when embraced, leads to life. Avoiding it is death. I can see why all my life my existence has been in direct opposition to "what is" on earth. I seem to be evolving backwards in some ways, but this is part of the design of the work being done here that I have found myself aligned with. It never made sense before, but it is beginning to, now.
I have presented my home world with the truth of my situation. All of it. Even the embarrassing emotions. I feel like this is important