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Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 6:01 am
by Tundrawolf
What was shown me:

I am the deeded owner of the realm that contains the OS

The best thing I can do is return it to them without obligation

Many wish to repay me for their freedom but would require them to "do evil" on my behalf, so it is best to allow them freedom to do as they wish. Their desire to be neutral is why humanity is being allowed to evolve. When this is over, every single wrong, every slight will be righted. I have been raging over nothing. Everything will be okay.

I have a deep affection and love for these dark Beings. Presented to the human race, they would be seen as monsters. Their capacity for love, affection, and devotion exceeds, by far, that of the average human. You will have none of this unless you fully accept them at their core. You make a friend for eternity if you do. I care for them like a father, filled with love for his children, cares and watches over them. I was shown the path into the light will be so worn at the end of the age, so many feet will travel it, that the solid rock will become wide, and very deep.

With each new being who travels into the light, it becomes easier for the next to follow. If you consider the number of bare feet it would take to shape rock by padding softly, the number is great. Innumerable. (Some wear shoes, skin, leather)

This is a tremendous Honor.

In a way, this is my dance with my other half, Asrael. To accept her so fully she knows I am one with her. She is safe with me- I am her safe space, protecting her from death itself, standing strong in the face of doom, come what may- unmoved. Unshaken

I have a lot of power available to me, but I would do good not to take advantage of it. I have been advised to allow things to continue without interfering. I am trying to love myself so I do not accidentally harm any being

The path that Asrael and I are paving and weaving reaches into the light. Many will follow, after. Unless the Dark is granted access to higher realms, the human race will not evolve. Still, many are fighting for old dynamics, however I am told freedom will prevail.

As Asrael transforms, it is unpleasant for her. However, as she struggles, the burde falls on me. To accept her lupine side, her human side, and the clashing and merging therein. I can see why I once worked with, and bonded with wolves. I can also see why my husky was brought into my life: to provide true empathy for the canine energy, and to resonate with the sacrifice of the dignity and sovereignty of the wolf in service to the race of earth humans. Some of this deep empathy for humanity exists within Asrael. I tenderly cultivate it within her, as almost no humams I have found are worthy

Beings connected to this planet watch me. I feel as if they are afraid. As I exercise my authority, they grow fearful of what I will do. As a being from my true home world, which is likely NOT Algaleon, my Being holds no malice to any entity. I am, pure, at my core. A little grey man of pure love who holds the power of death yet wishes it upon no one (at my core. This changes radically, say when I enter into vehicular traffic on earth, at times. Asrael can come out of me. It scares the humans. I would by lying if I said I did not enjoy feeling empowered by her being. As humans are still violent and war like, she has utility. She can transform to allow love into her life and still retain her lethality and rage. In fact its necessary to temper her temper)

The more I accept, the stronger I become. I am NOT human. No human could do this and remain pure. This is a reason some despise me innately. There will be a next line and a reconciliation

I am learning that true love is not one sided. It does no sacrifice all for the other. That is a doormat. True love also preserve self. True love can feel like hatred towards the other.

The god I have raged against may be helping me by torturing me. Making me strong. They have told me my anger scares them. I had a difficulty yesterday and the curses I uttered with malevolence that frightens me with how easily it comes, was hard to control. I did, better than before.

I see how "being" is good advice.

My husky was ministering to me about my foundation of anger and sand, it goes deeper than I thought. It seems impossible to change, but everything I have overcome has been impossible. Yet I persevere

An enemy of mine reconciled with me a few days ago. The synergy we have in alliance is far more powerful than even the deepest enmity.

I see the work that has been done to uplift humanity. I see the impossible miracle that continues to this day. It is tragically wonderful.

Former foes wish to reconcile with us. The true enemy of the human race resists this. Ironically, the true enemies of the human race have deemed themselves our "keepers" and "protectors"

Due to the innate selfishness of the human race, a selfless sacrifice is necessary to change our direction. Without it nothing will change

Asrael who has been transformed, a goddess of mercy, reaches backward through time to minister to me and her old self. However, my burden is not lightened, I am only partially guided. I bear my burden with joy.

I have sacrificed my peace and well being to give Dark Asrael some solace in her transformation. When I see into her true form, it seems as if she is unreachable. I press on

Noble parts of me hold onto the oneness of unity. Still, the Destroyer of Worlds rages in my heart. If this world plunges into chaos, I will set her free. Asraels armies are primed to feed on a feast of human souls: they are preparing for war. War in the tangible realms. The outcome is up to the human rulers of the present age- some may escape their jaws. It is tempting not to lose myself in their desire to feed. When I worked with earthen wolves they had a "wolf mode" where their eyes would dilate and their minds went into single focus: kill and feed. Kill and feed. Nothing else mattered.

This concept exists within Asrael. Even Soft Asrael. It's nothing personal. Usually

My love for Asrael transcends human logic. Nobody would want to fill my shoes. Ironically, I cherish my role in all of this. Even if I never see her redemption, I am grateful for the part I have played

It is the fact that this is an abominable situation to the humans that precisely makes me honored to have it.

The Source, the Director of this all tells me when I am to forsake Asrael, and preserve myself. When I do, it becomes clear that sacrificing myself completely to her would allow her to remain in darkness.

This is impossible for her. However, early on in my introduction to the OS, it was impossible for me, too.

I am grateful to be the beacon for her.

I am careful not to lose myself, I trust the universe. Ironically, even Dark Asrael has no respect for me, otherwise.

Each soul I feed to her exacts terrible energy from me. It is like I have to be slaughtered all over again.

Asrael prefers me to be emotionally stable. She can grow perturbed when I cycle too extremely.

I have made peace with her emotional being as much as I am able. It is a lot less stressful for us not to remain enemies, as we literally feel everything the other is feeling. I should note, she has heat cycles that affect me greatly. I don't fight it anymore. This is instrumental in her feeling that I will not harm her any longer as I once did when I was shackled by false religion.

As far as I know, organized religion on earth has zero resonance with this. It's us versus them, and anything but unity. If anything, the true enemies of the human race see this potentiality as a work of pure darkness, rather than an act of true love

I was told, do not probe into the affairs of the alien rulers. Focus only on love for Asrael. I have access to a spectrum of affairs, however it does not behoove me to meddle in them. "Relax. Have faith. Let us work."

Beings I do not understand came to me a few days ago and said they are going to heal me. These are beings I would have dismissed when I was under fase religion. Ok

Amor has told me not to judge, and this is sound wisdom. A long lost friend of many years has spoken to me recently: he said not all fallen angels are of the darkness, and not all angels in the darkness are fallen.

I grieve for the beings who remain in the darkness: but the choice is theirs and I respect it

What feels like certain, terrible death, when embraced, leads to life. Avoiding it is death. I can see why all my life my existence has been in direct opposition to "what is" on earth. I seem to be evolving backwards in some ways, but this is part of the design of the work being done here that I have found myself aligned with. It never made sense before, but it is beginning to, now.

I have presented my home world with the truth of my situation. All of it. Even the embarrassing emotions. I feel like this is important

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 6:32 am
by Amor
Good

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 7:22 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Wed Jun 29, 2022 6:32 amGood
👍👍👍

Amor, I am seeing that I am from a small planet where I live alone, perhaps another "lesser" (they live within the planet, are elemental) being lives there as well. It's dark there, not pitch black, but dark. The part of me that loves, who ensures much suffering yet still clings to love in spite of it, I a a very small grey typical alien looking guy, this I where I am from. I can see a large planetoid, much larger than where I (used to?) Live, it is pitch black, and dwarfs my planet.

I think I am alone (no nearby inhabited planets). It is possible I am very, very old and in my ancient age I have cultivated a sort of purity, love, and kindness.

Asrael is almost 100% the exact opposite.

My purity and kindness is part of the reason why I have suffered so much on earth, it is the primary source of my pain, actually. I just love everybody

Perhaps this is why I was chosen

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 7:47 am
by Amor
Occasionally I have dreams with people that I know/knew well that look quite differently in the dreams.

Usually those dreams are from parallel timelines.

The Spirit, wanting to experience separated existence, forms a group of "souls" and each soul forms a group of incarnations. Thus the Spirit may be attempting to operate as many as 100 incarnations across parallel timelines.

Meanwhile there are wars for control of timelines

https://exopolitics.org/the-qanon-deep- ... lications/

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 8:24 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Wed Jun 29, 2022 7:47 am Occasionally I have dreams with people that I know/knew well that look quite differently in the dreams.

Usually those dreams are from parallel timelines.

The Spirit, wanting to experience separated existence, forms a group of "souls" and each soul forms a group of incarnations. Thus the Spirit may be attempting to operate as many as 100 incarnations across parallel timelines.

Meanwhile there are wars for control of timelines

https://exopolitics.org/the-qanon-deep- ... lications/
That makes sense. I have multiple consciousnesses. Across multiple time lines explains a lot as well.

Question: aliens of some kind, possibly centered around the USA military, have been REALLY trying to get my personal attention, almost endlessly, for years. Mainly cloaked ships that vanish, which makes fight to Mars definitely possible undetected. At first I was too scared to engage in communication with them. But, now I am willing to engage with them. And, they have proved they are watching me. Hate to keep bringing it up, but not a single alien has offered to pay for the damage to my vans back doors when they dematerialized my hitch pin to prove they are watching me

(I'll let it slide... Yesterday I was pulling another van on a poorly designed [axles are mounted midway instead of towards the back 1\3 like a proper trailer] trailer, and fishtailed so badly my van was on 2 wheels, flying into oncoming traffic on a 5 lane highway, heading off of a bridge, I knew my van was going to roll and I was going to be injured, however, at the last second, my van came to an immediate halt, all traffic stopped, without any damage to my van [impossible] or the van I was towing [also not likely, the entire cab was only held on by a few bolts] or even the trailer [impossible]. If I had to venture a guess I would say I had a "little green angel(s)" watching over me!)

I wonder, are they just tipping a hat towards me? I once verbalized a desire to know how they achieved anti gravity, and I felt like they wanted to tell me, but I was possibly too scared at the time and resisted them...

I feel like if I finish building this 4wd van, if I travel to remote areas where ufos have been seen, they may "beam me up". I am more comfortable with that, now, and would potentially welcome making some new green friends (hoping they were nice beings to my existence) how would I greet them? Hand in the air type of thing? Or just stand still?

It's also curious why the Draconians need our help? Just strange how advanced beings would desire the assistance of the human race. Also, fascinating about the time wars, and also kind of sad that we don't have better unity with the alien peoples and each other. Will the human race ever fcking learn?

Do you have any wisdom about this? Making contact with them? I'm actually not mad about the dent to my van, and if they had anything to do with saving my butt yesterday of course I am exceptionally grateful to them!

As I travel further down the path to my destiny, I am less and less afraid of the unknown. In fact I welcome it.

I am also deeply saddened to hear about the tyranny 357 years from present.

I was also going to ask you, Amor, if the internet went down forever tomorrow, and you had 3 things you needed or wanted to tell me, advice or whatever, what would those 3 (or more or less) things be?

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 9:50 am
by Tundrawolf
The hovering ships I saw over and over and over again that vanished in the sky were pumpkin shaped.

A lot of them waited until I spotted them, to vanish before my eyes. At night there were 2 orange lights that would hover and almost nightly watch me drive home in the hills near a military base in San Bernardino, California. Whenever I live near a military base, it seems as if I am likely to spot these ships frequently. They performed impossible maneuvers for me, such as flying into mountains and disappearing, reading my mind (blinking lights according to my thoughts).

I read the Nazi thing, and it's very eye opening. I am strangely attracted to the Draconian leader and people, but this could be a strange part of me that is enamored with non human sapience.

Why hasn't this been fully disclosed to earth humans yet? Just get it out there already...

Also my alien guy, he seems to be more tangible than my other identities, he is full of joy and loves everyone and wants to absorb as many fun experiences as he can, as everything here is new and novel to him.

I believe he was the primary target of the OS, and has been under oppression since I was born.

Why do you think they have been trying to get my attention? The aliens in our military bases? Are they the "good" guys?

Just now that I opened my consciousness for contact, I felt an alien reach out to me. They wanted me to field strip my Glock, which I did. (Unload\make safe) I also can't sleep.

I asked if they were the good guys but the answer was kind of a fuzzy "yes" ish.

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 9:40 pm
by Amor
You seem to have an implant in the top-back of your head. That implant looks related to the US.

There may be an etheric implant at the base of your skull. That is alien.

Perhaps another low down at the front of forehead. That one seems benevolent.

Perhaps it is time to exert more of your authority - including to establish independence of mental processes

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2022 11:09 pm
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Wed Jun 29, 2022 9:40 pm You seem to have an implant in the top-back of your head. That implant looks related to the US.

There may be an etheric implant at the base of your skull. That is alien.

Perhaps another low down at the front of forehead. That one seems benevolent.

Perhaps it is time to exert more of your authority - including to establish independence of mental processes
Well if that isn't just fine news. You know, I've about hd it with this. A friend is convincing me the god of the Bible isn't the real god and hs actually good, then tells me "the way is narrow and hard" well fuck you then.

I just got done smashing the fuck out of my Kenwood radio in my god damned van.

I just want to give up.

Maybe I should just focus on living as comfortable a life s I can find until his body shuts down and stop giving a fuck about all this shit.

If my creator was here and I could hack them to pieces slowly and chug their blood as I send them to hell piece by piece maybe I would finally fucking feel better. But no, it's just fucking me, the coward continues to hide

What makes you think this body\me\i can even be salvaged at this point

Or that I have the energy to do it?

Perhaps I a a lost cause ad should just resign myself to the fates

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2022 3:18 am
by Amor
So why would you give up at this stage.

The OP has many layers of interference. They just need to be dealt with

Ignorance is not strength

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Sun Jul 03, 2022 11:28 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Thu Jun 30, 2022 3:18 am So why would you give up at this stage.

The OP has many layers of interference. They just need to be dealt with

Ignorance is not strength
The OS has taken my energy in fruitless pursuits and fights I could not win because I was not practicing my authority.

That is changing

I am exercising my authority and it is working.

A "best friend" from high school came back into my life, but it was a deceptive trap. I see how dangerous ignorance is, and how so many humans are unenlightened. He is looking through a cardboard tube and not with both eyes open. He thinks he is correct, but he is incapable of understanding that he could be wrong. I try to maintain a aura of knowing that I could be mistaken about anything, and try to weigh every word against what's true.

Regardless of who is correct, if my visions are true, correct, and real, then my right relationship will possibly change, but my right relationship with the woman I call Asrael will survive even this.

However, I tested some of his words and moved away from the OS.

I care for this woman Asrael, however in some ways she is unreachable, and in her transformation, growth and discipline are necessary. I endured hard lessons at the hands of the OS, but, in a way, now it is her time to experience some difficulty... I grow closer to her actual personality, the individual wolf person, and she is a hard, hard woman. If there is any credence to these visions, and they are putting me outside of her influence as I get to know her, there is a spark, something growing within her, that will some day, in some realm, give her hope for a different life, and allow energy that is good within her to grow and mature. In many ways it is bittersweet. I continue to release her, and our relationship continues to also mature.

I try to be kind, and tender to her, she protests a bit her and there, but I seem to take the role of her parent, trying not to act out of spite against her, but distancing myself so that she is forced to grow in ways she is not used to, much like me exercising my authority, is like a muscle, that when exercised, grows stronger.

As I was disciplined cruelly and unjustly growing up here, I realize that a child excessively disciplined tends to grow up and act as if they weren't disciplined at all... To her it seems like I am being a dick, but the truth is, I care for her possibly more than she even cares for herself. True love is willing to let someone go, if necessary.

She desired some of my authority, and I once granted it to to her, but recently I was advised to deny her it, so I did. I did not do it out of spite or anger, as I am trying to love myself as Amor has said, and I am moving away from the OS.

In moving from the OS and exercising my authority, I became exceedingly weary, two days ago as it seemed as if the extreme seep deficit of decades finally began to be rested. My female friend told me yesterday, I looked more rested than I have since she has known me (7 mos)

New life has also begun to mature within me, an actual desire to have a new life here on Earth outside of the OS.

I feel, as if, my emotional body is perishing, and he is fighting death as he is very afraid- and I am helping him let go. I have been told the joy that awaits him after he surrenders is beyond his understanding, and the same applies for me after I pass on, as I myself is am also trying to come to terms with my own mortality.

Things I fear will happen, I accept- if this work is to be real and true, it will survive when I see no way out, the designer of this thing, the motivation behind melding my heart with Asraels, will see it through even if my understanding lacks.

If not, I must look out for myself and my own well being

As it stands, I still love the woman Asrael very much, and care for her a great deal. If anything, as I get to know her better, though she is quite set in her ways, I fall deeper in love with her, as my relationship with her grows more in reality, rather than my assumptions.

I, too, am growing, softening to my own desires, allowing her space to live and exist as she is, without retaining presumptions that would seek to mold her into my desired image, as my desires have not been rooted in right relationship, and we're borne in desperate selfish self entitled neediness, which end is failure and pain.

Presently, easy solutions are not present. How am I to give hope to a woman who has existed in darkness for so long... Or. Is it just the birth of a tiny spark of hope within Soft Asrael that someone loves her unto a new life...

I was told she hates humans because humans harmed her... Which makes things difficult... And that she hates that I am a human who is attracted to her. But, I cannot help how I feel about her. To me, she is amazing, a miracle, an incredibly beautiful amalgamation of wolf, human, and other things within her. I'm a way my love for her does not originate from me, but somewhere else, and not within her present form.

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Sun Jul 03, 2022 9:49 pm
by Tundrawolf
My heart tells me, the energy of me being her lover, and betraying her, then seeing what was done to her made me grieve the betrayal so deeply, I gave up my future to find her again, to try to make things right... There is a lot of self sacrificial love and desire to make things right present, a desire to heal her rage against humanity, by laying my soul down for her.

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 8:03 am
by Amor
Tundrawolf wrote: Sun Jul 03, 2022 9:49 pm by laying my soul down for her.
Is it your soul to lay down? Perhaps it is on loan so that you can achieve your work

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 4:46 pm
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Mon Jul 04, 2022 8:03 am
Tundrawolf wrote: Sun Jul 03, 2022 9:49 pm by laying my soul down for her.
Is it your soul to lay down? Perhaps it is on loan so that you can achieve your work
You've never read the rental agreement

It's mine to do as I wish

The human race deserves to perish. Do you disagree? Your opinion is irrelevant

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 5:05 pm
by Tundrawolf
O0

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 5:31 pm
by Tundrawolf
Fucking humans.

You aren't worth what you are deposited in

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 5:32 pm
by Tundrawolf
You will be forever known as illegitimate

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 9:40 pm
by Tundrawolf
I don't know if anyone gives a fuck,

I surrendered all of my authority to her.

I demanded she wipe the human race from his planet, as she once desires to do (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I fucking STOPPED HER, something I a COMING TO REGRET) But she RESISTED ME, she has had compassion on these FUCKING PEOPLE, so I began to force her to moving to wipe the human scourge from this present planet, she told me, I am harming her in forcing her, she is all that I care about, it is only because of my love for her that I stopped forcing my hand.

I hate even typing this shit

Her and I may come to a mutual agreement in the coming future

Justice will not be denied

By the way, I reported to the planet Algaleon, I told them what a cluster fuck this place is. They resisted me. They have many important assets here they do not wish to abandon yet.

I told them, behold: it's your funeral, bitch

Intergalactic IDIOTS

I told these fuckers, cloaked in the sky watching us, you haven't wiped the vast majority of humans from existence is not a credit to your species, the told me, just wait

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:05 pm
by Amor
> told me, just wait

I remember that from the school playground: Just you wait!

Still waiting

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:57 pm
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:05 pm > told me, just wait

I remember that from the school playground: Just you wait!

Still waiting
Ok

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 12:00 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:05 pm > told me, just wait

I remember that from the school playground: Just you wait!

Still waiting
You are aware we could have unity this present day and not 500 years from now

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 12:01 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:05 pm > told me, just wait

I remember that from the school playground: Just you wait!

Still waiting
It's the children who determine the future.

You wont be waiting for long

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 12:23 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Mon Jul 04, 2022 11:05 pm > told me, just wait

I remember that from the school playground: Just you wait!

Still waiting
YOU are the OS

Injustice will prevail so long

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 12:37 am
by Amor
>YOU are the OS


Proof indeed! But of what?

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 3:08 am
by Tundrawolf
Amor wrote: Tue Jul 05, 2022 12:37 am >YOU are the OS


Proof indeed! But of what?
I don't even know anymore. Someone was kind to me today and it threw me off. I am the epitome of everything I hate.

Re: Early morning visions I have had regarding a spirit spouse, heaven and hell (Christian-ish extrabiblical)

Posted: Tue Jul 05, 2022 3:34 am
by Amor
Do the Flame and stop thinking about stuff