I've had an interest in the Occult for a while now, and though I've never done anything that has to do with rituals, summoning, or anything else of the sort, simply because I am fearful of what may or may not happen. I do suffer from anxiety, and I believe that has a lot to do with my fears, but all the same, I always come back to this path. I always find myself wanting to learn more and more about different types of belief systems; usually being Paganism or Wicca, but then I discover that some of the things that I believe do not correspond with Wiccan or Pagan beliefs. I find myself becoming interested in Demons, and Chaos Magick, which The Wiccan Rede prohibits.
So now I'm at the point where I want to decide what my own beliefs are, regardless of whether or not there is a name for them. I, personally, do believe in balance. I believe that there is Light in the Dark, and Dark in The Light, and that one never out-weighs the other. That is, however, one of the only things that I am completely positive I do believe. Mind you, I am still somewhat young, so I'm still on that self-discovery path.
Now, for my question, I want to know where to start when it comes to Demons, The Goetia, Chaos Magick, and so on and so forth. At this point, I'll take whatever sorts of references or personal opinions that can be offered, and I do appreciate you for your help if you have any to offer!
