Original post: durki
I am passing through a bad patch in that I am having bad dreams nowadays. Of course, I have passed through many phases of life and this too shall pass. Most effective medication known to man is time.
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
I think Xanax is much more pleasent and effective.
Most effective medication known to man is time.
I think Xanax is much more pleasent and effective.
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Original post: durki
Recollection of following quotation often helps me when I feel depressed :-
High up in the North in the land called Svithjod there stands a rock which is 100 miles high and 100 miles wide. Once every 1000 years one small bird comes to sharpen its beak. When that rock might have thus been worn away then one day of the eternity would have gone by.
Recollection of following quotation often helps me when I feel depressed :-
High up in the North in the land called Svithjod there stands a rock which is 100 miles high and 100 miles wide. Once every 1000 years one small bird comes to sharpen its beak. When that rock might have thus been worn away then one day of the eternity would have gone by.
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Original post: durki
There had been many occasions in my life when I contemplated suicide. But each time I got to realize that suicide was an act of cowardice and that the life is precious. Then there were the great men whom I read. All of them had said that the life is an opportunity for evolution and should be seen as challenge & struggle.
There had been many occasions in my life when I contemplated suicide. But each time I got to realize that suicide was an act of cowardice and that the life is precious. Then there were the great men whom I read. All of them had said that the life is an opportunity for evolution and should be seen as challenge & struggle.
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Original post: durki
I am the silliest guy on the earth. Following 2 facts prove it :-
(1) I had a toothache. Some one advised me to smoke. I emptied out packets after packets of cigarettes only to get cough.
(2) I had a calculus in urinary tract. Some one advised me to drink beer. I consumed not only many bottles of beer for weeks on end but also wine.
I am the silliest guy on the earth. Following 2 facts prove it :-
(1) I had a toothache. Some one advised me to smoke. I emptied out packets after packets of cigarettes only to get cough.
(2) I had a calculus in urinary tract. Some one advised me to drink beer. I consumed not only many bottles of beer for weeks on end but also wine.
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Original post: dragonus18
i am very open minded
1. someone i hardly knew gave me a satanic site, 2 months later i did the dedication rite and did research in the occult
2. someone else told me to take 60mg of diphenhydramine and 60mg of DXM and i did it.
i am very open minded
1. someone i hardly knew gave me a satanic site, 2 months later i did the dedication rite and did research in the occult
2. someone else told me to take 60mg of diphenhydramine and 60mg of DXM and i did it.
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Original post: durki
[QUOTE=dragonus18;319541]i am very open minded
2. someone else told me to take 60mg of diphenhydramine and 60mg of DXM and i did it.[/QUOTE]
Similarly I took
(1) methedrine and
(2) belladenal.
This latter drug I used to take for becoming a genius.
[QUOTE=dragonus18;319541]i am very open minded
2. someone else told me to take 60mg of diphenhydramine and 60mg of DXM and i did it.[/QUOTE]
Similarly I took
(1) methedrine and
(2) belladenal.
This latter drug I used to take for becoming a genius.
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Original post: extinctionspasm
[QUOTE=Lord Liber;315891]
Sorry to break it to you Extinctionspasm, but 5 is not on your side.
It is completely evil.
All numbers are evil (cf. Voudoun Gnostic Workbook, M. Bertiaux, Choronzon Club Lesson number 2, "Numbers of Evil", p. 612 ).
There is no hope, there are only the numbers of evil. Radical evil.
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Luckily for me I have read Roland Barthes and I have quite a solid unserstanding of semiotics/semiology.
Hence my perception of the inferrences the "symbols" like numbers make.
In this case if you had have understood my post you may have noted that i was using 5 in its geometrically traditional role as being the signifier of "time".
With this is mind it appears that the use of a number is as insignificant to my confession as if it were an old woman (another tradition symbol of time). What is important is "what" I was saying, not "how" I was saying it.....
To me at least; and as it was my confession, I dont feel at all that it is unreasonable for me to point this out.
I am concerned with meaning.
I resent misrepresentation.
I am apalled by the egoistic sabotaging of the confessional in order to promote ones own loosely woven philosophy.
I am concerned that thought and emotion are becoming the latest marketable forms of entertainment. Where people try on philosophies and feelings for an hour or a day "for the experience", subverting them and their true "value" to the processes of consumption and fashion. Condemming the functional to the domain of the formal, and in doing so rendering humanity dysfunctional, or worse yet, functionless.
I am scared.
Where are Deleuze and Guattari when we need them.
Where oh where are the desiring-production machines?
I am feeling very sad, vulnerable, scared and alone.
I don't want to end up like Neitzsche, not that I am as great, but I fear I could becpome as mad.
[QUOTE=Lord Liber;315891]
Sorry to break it to you Extinctionspasm, but 5 is not on your side.
It is completely evil.
All numbers are evil (cf. Voudoun Gnostic Workbook, M. Bertiaux, Choronzon Club Lesson number 2, "Numbers of Evil", p. 612 ).
There is no hope, there are only the numbers of evil. Radical evil.
[/QUOTE]
Luckily for me I have read Roland Barthes and I have quite a solid unserstanding of semiotics/semiology.
Hence my perception of the inferrences the "symbols" like numbers make.
In this case if you had have understood my post you may have noted that i was using 5 in its geometrically traditional role as being the signifier of "time".
With this is mind it appears that the use of a number is as insignificant to my confession as if it were an old woman (another tradition symbol of time). What is important is "what" I was saying, not "how" I was saying it.....
To me at least; and as it was my confession, I dont feel at all that it is unreasonable for me to point this out.
I am concerned with meaning.
I resent misrepresentation.
I am apalled by the egoistic sabotaging of the confessional in order to promote ones own loosely woven philosophy.
I am concerned that thought and emotion are becoming the latest marketable forms of entertainment. Where people try on philosophies and feelings for an hour or a day "for the experience", subverting them and their true "value" to the processes of consumption and fashion. Condemming the functional to the domain of the formal, and in doing so rendering humanity dysfunctional, or worse yet, functionless.
I am scared.
Where are Deleuze and Guattari when we need them.
Where oh where are the desiring-production machines?
I am feeling very sad, vulnerable, scared and alone.
I don't want to end up like Neitzsche, not that I am as great, but I fear I could becpome as mad.
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Original post: Master 27
I'm a virgin, and not ashamed of it.
I'm afraid of being physically close to somebody...
though in my mind I've fucked thousands of strangers that pass me by...
I know I will probably die before I turn 30.
I'm afraid of dying and not leaving a mark in the world.
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I'm a virgin, and not ashamed of it.
I'm afraid of being physically close to somebody...
though in my mind I've fucked thousands of strangers that pass me by...
I know I will probably die before I turn 30.
I'm afraid of dying and not leaving a mark in the world.
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Original post: Gipsygirl
I had a crush on my older brother when i was little.
Me and my little brother flashed each other when we were little because we thought that's how you had sex, and we thought it was something you were supposed to do.
I used to steal and vandalize everything I could,just because I could.
I had a threesome with my ex and my friends little brother, even though i knew they both had girlfriends.
I've experimented with drugs .
underage drinking.
I'm a little bi curious
I used to imagine gruesome ways to kill my pets.
i used to cut myself.
I used to hope I was insane, so I'd have an excuse to the way I am.
I'm a little bit of a control freak.
I still hate lieing to my parents.
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I had a crush on my older brother when i was little.
Me and my little brother flashed each other when we were little because we thought that's how you had sex, and we thought it was something you were supposed to do.
I used to steal and vandalize everything I could,just because I could.
I had a threesome with my ex and my friends little brother, even though i knew they both had girlfriends.
I've experimented with drugs .
underage drinking.
I'm a little bi curious
I used to imagine gruesome ways to kill my pets.
i used to cut myself.
I used to hope I was insane, so I'd have an excuse to the way I am.
I'm a little bit of a control freak.
I still hate lieing to my parents.
-i think that's the worst of it.-
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Original post: Gipsygirl
Durki I think you're just a little gullible
Durki I think you're just a little gullible
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Original post: Sapiens Vir
Confession lightens the soul and since I will be asking many of you for advice, collaboration, and knowledge then it is only fitting to air my demons here.
1) I have killed and tortured other humans under orders.
2)Part of me enjoyed taking the life of another human being.
3) I have used my abilities for personal gain.
4) I have lied consistently about what I did in the military.
5) I often dream of battles both ancient and modern and I relish the killing.
6) I am bi-polar and I often try to hide it only to hurt those who get too close.
Confession lightens the soul and since I will be asking many of you for advice, collaboration, and knowledge then it is only fitting to air my demons here.
1) I have killed and tortured other humans under orders.
2)Part of me enjoyed taking the life of another human being.
3) I have used my abilities for personal gain.
4) I have lied consistently about what I did in the military.
5) I often dream of battles both ancient and modern and I relish the killing.
6) I am bi-polar and I often try to hide it only to hurt those who get too close.
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Original post: koolbear05
I fuck skin heads. . .
I fuck skin heads. . .
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Original post: tiger_shark
-I have been masturbating since I was 7.
-I have stolen about six bikes whenI was younger, among other things.
-I am guilty of underage drinking and smoking insane amounts of pot.
-I have snorted adderall, drunk whole bottles of delsum, done morhpine, and smoked salvia. I have also done duster.
-I stayed with a boyfriend who cheating on me 5 times.
-Broke up with said boyfriend a day before our two year anniversery and started seeing my current boyfriend a day later.
-I have been masturbating since I was 7.
-I have stolen about six bikes whenI was younger, among other things.
-I am guilty of underage drinking and smoking insane amounts of pot.
-I have snorted adderall, drunk whole bottles of delsum, done morhpine, and smoked salvia. I have also done duster.
-I stayed with a boyfriend who cheating on me 5 times.
-Broke up with said boyfriend a day before our two year anniversery and started seeing my current boyfriend a day later.
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Original post: durki
[QUOTE=Sapiens Vir;319752]Confession lightens the soul and since I will be asking many of you for advice, collaboration, and knowledge then it is only fitting to air my demons here.
1) I have killed and tortured other humans under orders.
2)Part of me enjoyed taking the life of another human being.
3) I have used my abilities for personal gain.
4) I have lied consistently about what I did in the military.
5) I often dream of battles both ancient and modern and I relish the killing.
6) I am bi-polar and I often try to hide it only to hurt those who get too close.[/QUOTE]
Now that you have started confessing, you have put yourself on the right path.
I am a multi-polar personality.
[QUOTE=Sapiens Vir;319752]Confession lightens the soul and since I will be asking many of you for advice, collaboration, and knowledge then it is only fitting to air my demons here.
1) I have killed and tortured other humans under orders.
2)Part of me enjoyed taking the life of another human being.
3) I have used my abilities for personal gain.
4) I have lied consistently about what I did in the military.
5) I often dream of battles both ancient and modern and I relish the killing.
6) I am bi-polar and I often try to hide it only to hurt those who get too close.[/QUOTE]
Now that you have started confessing, you have put yourself on the right path.
I am a multi-polar personality.
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Original post: koolbear05
[QUOTE=tiger_shark;319906]-I have been masturbating since I was 7.
-I have stolen about six bikes whenI was younger, among other things.
-I am guilty of underage drinking and smoking insane amounts of pot.
-I have snorted adderall, drunk whole bottles of delsum, done morhpine, and smoked salvia. I have also done duster.
-I stayed with a boyfriend who cheating on me 5 times.
-Broke up with said boyfriend a day before our two year anniversery and started seeing my current boyfriend a day later.[/QUOTE]
You sound fun. . .:evil:
[QUOTE=tiger_shark;319906]-I have been masturbating since I was 7.
-I have stolen about six bikes whenI was younger, among other things.
-I am guilty of underage drinking and smoking insane amounts of pot.
-I have snorted adderall, drunk whole bottles of delsum, done morhpine, and smoked salvia. I have also done duster.
-I stayed with a boyfriend who cheating on me 5 times.
-Broke up with said boyfriend a day before our two year anniversery and started seeing my current boyfriend a day later.[/QUOTE]
You sound fun. . .:evil:
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Original post: durki
I had joined gang of an under-world don in Mumbai for a few weeks. But I was kicked out on the ground that I was too clumsy.
I had joined gang of an under-world don in Mumbai for a few weeks. But I was kicked out on the ground that I was too clumsy.
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Original post: Emperor Time
I confess that I been gone for the last five weeks here because my feelings were hurted.
I confess that I been gone for the last five weeks here because my feelings were hurted.
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Original post: Kazahel
I confess the best job I've ever had was dealing heroin. I took over another guys business for awhile because I was trust worthy. It was pretty sweet and a spinout. So I was good at making those little pk's up. I'd sell about 10 $50 pks a day(everyday) at least.. like that was the goal.
So yeah I confess, and that was ages ago and I'm not like that anymore.
I confess the best job I've ever had was dealing heroin. I took over another guys business for awhile because I was trust worthy. It was pretty sweet and a spinout. So I was good at making those little pk's up. I'd sell about 10 $50 pks a day(everyday) at least.. like that was the goal.
So yeah I confess, and that was ages ago and I'm not like that anymore.
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Original post: Emperor Time
I also confess that I am willing to almost do anything for ultimate power. :evil:
I also confess that I am willing to almost do anything for ultimate power. :evil:
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Original post: durki
Try hard as much as I do, I am not able to outgrow my feelings of jealousy, revenge and parochialism / narrow-mindedness. Of course, my perverted tendencies are known to one & all.
Try hard as much as I do, I am not able to outgrow my feelings of jealousy, revenge and parochialism / narrow-mindedness. Of course, my perverted tendencies are known to one & all.
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Original post: Kazahel
Well not to me and now you've got me curious. So what comes under your perverted tendencies? Like what counts as perverted?.. or what do you feel guilty over?durki;320596 wrote:Of course, my perverted tendencies are known to one & all.
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Original post: durki
[QUOTE=Kazahel;320607]Well not to me and now you've got me curious. So what comes under your perverted tendencies? Like what counts as perverted?.. or what do you feel guilty over?[/QUOTE]
(1) I covet young and beautiful wives of others. I feel guilty when they are mothers of children and their husbands happen to be my friends.
(2) At times, I am a paedophile. I consider paedophilia to be bad.
(3) At times, I get incestuous thoughts. Incest is sinful.
[QUOTE=Kazahel;320607]Well not to me and now you've got me curious. So what comes under your perverted tendencies? Like what counts as perverted?.. or what do you feel guilty over?[/QUOTE]
(1) I covet young and beautiful wives of others. I feel guilty when they are mothers of children and their husbands happen to be my friends.
(2) At times, I am a paedophile. I consider paedophilia to be bad.
(3) At times, I get incestuous thoughts. Incest is sinful.
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Original post: Kazahel
Oh.. well dont feel too bad. I mean you are what you are. Like you sound like you like married chicks.. nothing wrong with that in my book. And you like underage too.. well I guess you have different tastes.. fair enough.. who am I to rain on your parade.. and I suppose you must have a nice family.. so you sound lucky somewhat.
You see.. every cloud has its silver lining.
durki;320620 wrote:(1) I covet young and beautiful wives of others. I feel guilty when they are mothers of children and their husbands happen to be my friends.
(2) At times, I am a paedophile. I consider paedophilia to be bad.
(3) At times, I get incestuous thoughts. Incest is sinful.
Oh.. well dont feel too bad. I mean you are what you are. Like you sound like you like married chicks.. nothing wrong with that in my book. And you like underage too.. well I guess you have different tastes.. fair enough.. who am I to rain on your parade.. and I suppose you must have a nice family.. so you sound lucky somewhat.
You see.. every cloud has its silver lining.
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
I confess that the confessional has no priest, you're shooting your shit to the congregation and they aren't as forgiving as a sanctified person. Beware.
I confess that the confessional has no priest, you're shooting your shit to the congregation and they aren't as forgiving as a sanctified person. Beware.