Confessions

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Original post: Emperor Time

I confess to never having a paying job.

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Original post: watchful canary

Here goes

When I was younger, I stole my friend's dinosaur figurine.

I was the one who spread that rumor about Kevin & Paulina in 2nd grade.

I flushed my mother's pearl earrings down the toilet when I was mad at her.

I started gratifying myself at age 12

I didn't like Lauren at all.

I threatened to kill myself in public when I was thirteen.

I have this really bad habit of staring at my male teachers' crotches.

I've been suicidal since i was 13.

I've had ridiculous amounts of cyber and phone sex.

My worst enemy's cousin whipped it out for me on webcam.

I unintentionally manipulated my last boyfriend into having sex with me.

I really wanted to sleep with my last boyfriend's brother.

I have dreams where I'm still with him.

I cheated on him with 2 girls and 2 guys.

I've cheated on every boyfriend I've ever had.

I've only had four boyfriends but that's still pretty bad.

I used to tip toe past my grandmother's room when I got home so she wouldn't hear me, ergo wouldn't talk to me.

I stole from my grandmother and my mother.

My grandma always used to say I'd hate myself after she died. She was right.

I had anal sex on a jungle gym.

I've given oral sex in my fair share of sketchy allies

I've touched a boy inappropriately while in a car with his entire family.

When we were like 6, I wrote that bad thing about Nicky on the poster.

I couldn't sleep in a room by myself until I was 11.

I compulsively lie to my best friends, family members, and shrink for no apparent reason.

I was once afraid my shrink was going to force herself on me, I don't know why.

Sometimes when my dad verbally abuses me, I tell people he physically hurt me so they take it seriously.

I thought that my best friend looked really fat today.

I'm really negative.

I'm always afraid that who ever I'm dating is cheating on me. To the point where I sometimes go through their phones, google them, hack into facebooks and myspaces, and even at one point when I was 15 made a fake screen name and flirted with them on it to see if they'd bite.

I'm currently in a long distance relationship right now, and I've considered dropping out of school to make it work easier, though I know I never could.

I really want to start actively practicing magick, but I'm afraid I haven't done enough reading yet. I just sit on my computer or in a pile of books reading and once I'm done I'm still not convinced I'm ready.

When I was little I was convinced I was a robot because my head was so hard.

I really need to start thinking positively.

This got WAY too long but it feels REALLY good.

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Original post: durki

I Confess that there is no Man worthy of my worship, For Men are not Gods.
To Whom then shall I confess?

A community or congregation is a manifestation or representative of God. So if you confess here to OF members, evil in you gets purged out and you become godly.

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Original post: durki

Here goes

Your honesty & candour do us proud. Keep it up and bring out your confessions with more minuteness and greater details.

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Original post: corbin_israfael

[QUOTE=durki;333568]A community or congregation is a manifestation or representative of God. So if you confess here to OF members, evil in you gets purged out and you become godly.[/QUOTE]I must confess that I do not believe in Sin. I make no "Confessions" except to Lord Shiva though he knows my every mistake and flaw already.

Holiness comes not from confessing of past mistakes but from working towards not making those previous mistakes. How can another listening to your mistakes ever make any difference? You already made them so what can anyone do?

Also The Divine already knows every mistake and flaw you make without it being confessed. Instead of confessing weakness you should be asking for strength to overcome your flaws.

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Original post: corbin_israfael

[QUOTE=durki;330001]I confess that I feel that so many at OF love me including female members. I reciprocate their feelings whole-heartedly.[/QUOTE]I confess that I find you distasteful, confused of mind, and lacking in Intelligence, Reason and Logic.

Then again, what would I know? I'm an Ill Tempered Anti-Social Shut In Philosopher...

[Note: It honestly is very rare for me to dislike anyone for the most part. Something about you just seems to make me want to ridicule you because of your personality and ignorance.]

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Original post: durki

I confess that I find you distasteful, confused of mind, and lacking in Intelligence, Reason and Logic.
[Note: Something about you just seems to make me want to ridicule you because of your personality and ignorance.]

You have been too soft on me. Let me help you. Now I supply the invectives for myself :-

(1) I am dreary, dull, drab and boring.
(2) I am mean, petty, cunning, vicious and sub-standard.
(3) I am sadistic, revengeful, jealous, dastardly and perverted.
(4) I am an ugly, dirty and filthy egoist.
(5) I am the craziest bastard on the planet earth.
(6) I am a stigma to humanity.
(7) World stands cursed by my very presence on this globe under the sun.

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Original post: AstralMagickCraft

Keep putting yourself down and you will never get anywhere.

Listen man, you cant love others if you cant love yourself, you cant know others if you dont know yourself, etc.

Work on loving yourself, and you will be a better person or whatever by consequence.

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Original post: corbin_israfael

[QUOTE=durki;333606]You have been too soft on me. Let me help you. Now I supply the invectives for myself :-

(1) I am dreary, dull, drab and boring.
(2) I am mean, petty, cunning, vicious and sub-standard.
(3) I am sadistic, revengeful, jealous, dastardly and perverted.
(4) I am an ugly, dirty and filthy egoist.
(5) I am the craziest bastard on the planet earth.
(6) I am a stigma to humanity.
(7) World stands cursed by my very presence on this globe under the sun.[/QUOTE]...

Well if I had to identify one good quality it's that you have a good sense of humor like myself. Most people would be offended instead of agreeing and I somewhat admire people who can take a good jab and not get worked up about it.

While you may be a tad overly negative about yourself, I find that self analysis and finding your own faults can be progressive when you work toward correcting them.

We often do not see the good qualities in ourself, me included. I tend to switch between Manic Egoism and Depressive Self-Degradation. It's all a part of what makes me who I am. So I'm sure you have good qualities it's just our views tend to clash and I let my passive aggressive sarcasm get the better of me.

To quote Swami Vivekananda: "The Greatest Sin is to say that you are weak. That you are worthless and evil. For you are already Free and Perfect...it is the world that makes you believe otherwise."

~You are only Bound in so far as you believe you are Bound.

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Original post: Sharandarikali

[QUOTE=corbin_israfael;333586]I must confess that I do not believe in Sin. I make no "Confessions" except to Lord Shiva though he knows my every mistake and flaw already.
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that is a wonderful statement, how liberating, yes

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Original post: Aurum

I was throwing things up above to get a basketball out of tree, and a close friend who was with me was really scared that a tree branch was going to fall on her. I told her that that was not going to happen and the likelihood of that happening was pretty small. The week after a tree branch fell on her.

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Original post: durki

It is my wish that if ever I meet with an accident, I should immediately die on the spot rather than being mangled, hospitalized and recovered.

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Original post: AstralMagickCraft

Repost from another forum...

It just became real to me, I really dont have friends, I dont hang out with anyone, i homeschool so the only people i talk to are online. i barely do that anymore, other than here and another place.

Sure i always say it when i need to make a point, but now, It just connected in my mind.

I feel so much better saying this even though it is really wierd to do this. To confess something like this to people you've never met in person, and hardly know.

Oh god, I really am so alone. Im crying so hard my nose bled, but im always dehydrated. so its not unnatural

So in essence, i did homework for a single college class come home the other 5 days and 46 hours, and read alternet, thismodernworld and go on this forum. maybe id watch a political film.
And then somehow the only time i go on here I am insulted. people i like distance themselves from me.
people i dont like belittle me. why? because i became fanatical about alex jones, richard dawkins and ron paul ralph nader etc.

Thinking about the old youth group, only time i basically talked to anybody my age. I live so far away i cant go there anymore, Thinking about how 17 year olds normally spend their time.

And then thinking about this, Im shivering im so depressed. my pants are covered in tears and have a bit of blood on them.

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Original post: durki

Repost from another forum...

You make him to join this site. We will interact with him & cheer him up.

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Original post: AstralMagickCraft

You make him to join this site. We will interact with him & cheer him up

another forum not another person, hes already on this forum, hes posting this.

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Original post: durki

Thoughts have occurred to me that had I been a female, I would have enjoyed being screwed, fucked and even raped by the handsome boys and not only that but also my boobs being pressed hard by them. Even being gang-raped would have been an exhilarating experience. Also it would have been immensely pleasurable for me to be taken nude in the laps of the boys and being cuddled & fondled by them.

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Original post: corbin_israfael

[QUOTE=durki;336774]Thoughts have occurred to me that had I been a female, I would have enjoyed being screwed, fucked and even raped by the handsome boys and not only that but also my boobs being pressed hard by them. Even being gang-raped would have been an exhilarating experience. Also it would have been immensely pleasurable for me to be taken nude in the laps of the boys and being cuddled & fondled by them.[/QUOTE]Freud would have liked you going by this statement...

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Original post: Marje

durki, those thoughts aren't that different from my own. xD

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Original post: Annanakki

durki, those thoughts aren't that different from my own. xD

I was thinking the same thing myself.

Don't get excited. I have nothing to confess. I have done what I have done, thought what I have thought, and shrug it all off as being human.

There are things about me I do not wish others to know, but it is not because of shame or a blight on my soul, but rather that putting certain things "out there" could turn my world upside down with public opinion. No thanks!

I'm happy being me, faults and all.

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Original post: durki

Whenever I feel stressed and tensed, I take recourse to
(1) vulgar gossiping & healthy fun with colleagues,
(2) singing filmi songs and
(3) drinking some good liquor and having puff at cigarette.

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Original post: AstralMagickCraft

I once attempted to summon a goetic spirit, after a long while the mental presence of pity was felt very strongly, like I was being pitied.

Turns out I drew the sigil without two of the necesary lines...

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Original post: Luke Saint

I confess that I like to smoke a cigarette after I do a bong hit.

I confess that I am addicted to listening to Seether.

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Original post: Luke Saint

I confess that I don't take bong hits everyday. I usually do a bong hit when I want a different perspective on reading Crowley.

I confess that I do bong hits more often than that though...

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Original post: Brian

I confess that it's really tough to stick with one of the invocating, conjuring, etc. regimens I plan for more than a few days.

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Original post: Luke Saint

I confess that I don't regularly smoke cigarettes. Twelve per month on an actively smoking month, none on other months.