Original post: durki
I have been drinking and smoking in quite a big way nowadays. Smoking is causing cough and wine is causing desire for a girl in night. Because girl is not available, so I am substiituting pillow for her.
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Though I am quite handsome, no offer comes my way in person from ladies probably because there is dearth of beautiful girls in Asia. Offers do come but they are through internet from unknown girls. India is defunct. Had I been in West, many girls would have invited me to their beds.
*Crying for my bad luck.*
Though I am quite handsome, no offer comes my way in person from ladies probably because there is dearth of beautiful girls in Asia. Offers do come but they are through internet from unknown girls. India is defunct. Had I been in West, many girls would have invited me to their beds.
*Crying for my bad luck.*
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Original post: Master 27
I confess that I don't like him very much.
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I confess that I don't like him very much.
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Original post: Kazahel
I think I've done this one before but I'll do it again just for the kids..
I confess I have never lied(or made up a deliberate lie)on any forum that I have ever been to. I confess I mostly share my dreams, and then I might share quotes(news or whatever) or songs which I have found interesting and in connection to my dreams, but thats generally it. I also confess I dont find links first and then dream certain dreams later. I always dream first and then go looking for what it means(and sometimes I stumble on it quite nicely the very next day..). So I confess I have never made up a dream.. lucid or non lucid. All dreams I share I tend to share exactly how they are, and when I dreamt them(ruffly the correct day).
So basically I confess that I enjoy sharing my dreams, but when I get the feeling that people are maybe considering me just a liar(because of them), and maybe starting threads over it etc.. then that only shows how little anyone actually knows me.
I think I've done this one before but I'll do it again just for the kids..
I confess I have never lied(or made up a deliberate lie)on any forum that I have ever been to. I confess I mostly share my dreams, and then I might share quotes(news or whatever) or songs which I have found interesting and in connection to my dreams, but thats generally it. I also confess I dont find links first and then dream certain dreams later. I always dream first and then go looking for what it means(and sometimes I stumble on it quite nicely the very next day..). So I confess I have never made up a dream.. lucid or non lucid. All dreams I share I tend to share exactly how they are, and when I dreamt them(ruffly the correct day).
So basically I confess that I enjoy sharing my dreams, but when I get the feeling that people are maybe considering me just a liar(because of them), and maybe starting threads over it etc.. then that only shows how little anyone actually knows me.
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Original post: Marquise De Sade
Its 3:30 here in NY, and I'm starting to remember why I like these forums, and wish I hadn't left. Anywayz...
I sacrificed three birds for a ritual, and regret it since I don't like hurting animals.
While I'm not bisexual, and do have a girlfriend I would kiss a musician friend of mine because he offered to help me in my musical projects.
I claim I hate bollywood movies but when a friend of mine watches them I stay to watch the chicks.
Pyromaniacs use to fascinate me so much as a teen that I almost burned my house down.
Its 3:30 here in NY, and I'm starting to remember why I like these forums, and wish I hadn't left. Anywayz...
I sacrificed three birds for a ritual, and regret it since I don't like hurting animals.
While I'm not bisexual, and do have a girlfriend I would kiss a musician friend of mine because he offered to help me in my musical projects.
I claim I hate bollywood movies but when a friend of mine watches them I stay to watch the chicks.
Pyromaniacs use to fascinate me so much as a teen that I almost burned my house down.
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Original post: Carmin
I still have a copy of Charlotte's Web that I borrowed from the library when I was 8. I think it was due in 1993
I hitchhiked for the first time when I was 9
I stole Barbie accessories from a daycare
I think about sex more than anyone you will ever know
I still have a copy of Charlotte's Web that I borrowed from the library when I was 8. I think it was due in 1993
I hitchhiked for the first time when I was 9
I stole Barbie accessories from a daycare
I think about sex more than anyone you will ever know
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Original post: Aurum
I confess we bought a cheap goat from the council but ended up having to give him away because he ate the whole garden and started ramming everyone. Years later, only recently, I think I saw him on the front page of the newspapers, spitting image, saying they wanted to kick him out of the community because he wasn't following the bi-laws, wearing a T-shirt.
I confess we bought a cheap goat from the council but ended up having to give him away because he ate the whole garden and started ramming everyone. Years later, only recently, I think I saw him on the front page of the newspapers, spitting image, saying they wanted to kick him out of the community because he wasn't following the bi-laws, wearing a T-shirt.
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Original post: durki
My weight has become 90 Kgs. and stomach has become inflated due to reckless consumption of mangoes, vegetable of ladyfingers fried in clarified butter, wine, mutton and country hens - not to mention long sleeping hours. I am feeling ashamed of myself and getting disgusted with my habits & daily routine that is divested of spiritual practices.
My weight has become 90 Kgs. and stomach has become inflated due to reckless consumption of mangoes, vegetable of ladyfingers fried in clarified butter, wine, mutton and country hens - not to mention long sleeping hours. I am feeling ashamed of myself and getting disgusted with my habits & daily routine that is divested of spiritual practices.
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Original post: durki
Those were the days I used to take drugs. There was a behavioural change making me megalomaniac so much so that I started considering myself equal to or more than Jesus, Buddha and other prophets.
Those were the days I used to take drugs. There was a behavioural change making me megalomaniac so much so that I started considering myself equal to or more than Jesus, Buddha and other prophets.
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Original post: corbin_israfael
[QUOTE=durki;342672]Though I am quite handsome, no offer comes my way in person from ladies probably because there is dearth of beautiful girls in Asia. Offers do come but they are through internet from unknown girls. India is defunct. Had I been in West, many girls would have invited me to their beds.
*Crying for my bad luck.*[/QUOTE]The irony is that if I could switch places with you then I would. I am a very very good looking male who has an over abundance of willing women but I would rather be in India studying Religion and Philosophy. I find that women and other vices only distract me from the path I walk...perhaps I just need to find the Will to resist Temptation...but it's hard when everything I could want is within my reach.
[QUOTE=durki;342672]Though I am quite handsome, no offer comes my way in person from ladies probably because there is dearth of beautiful girls in Asia. Offers do come but they are through internet from unknown girls. India is defunct. Had I been in West, many girls would have invited me to their beds.
*Crying for my bad luck.*[/QUOTE]The irony is that if I could switch places with you then I would. I am a very very good looking male who has an over abundance of willing women but I would rather be in India studying Religion and Philosophy. I find that women and other vices only distract me from the path I walk...perhaps I just need to find the Will to resist Temptation...but it's hard when everything I could want is within my reach.
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Original post: durki
It seems a person is born & brought up and then made to live where he deserves and where he evolves fastest. Circumstances are a prod & spur to seek Divine within. It seems my inner world was evil so I had an external world of reptiles, cunning & vicious people and filthy & rotten surroundings. I surmounted all my lowly environmental & atmospheric situations successfully so far. A person should not grudge one's background but instead make most of it.
It seems a person is born & brought up and then made to live where he deserves and where he evolves fastest. Circumstances are a prod & spur to seek Divine within. It seems my inner world was evil so I had an external world of reptiles, cunning & vicious people and filthy & rotten surroundings. I surmounted all my lowly environmental & atmospheric situations successfully so far. A person should not grudge one's background but instead make most of it.
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Original post: corbin_israfael
I like to think of Life as a big trial set up by God to test ones Devotion and Resolve. I was never one to desire something unless I had to challenge myself to attain it so if it was easy that wouldn't be any fun.
I like to think of Life as a big trial set up by God to test ones Devotion and Resolve. I was never one to desire something unless I had to challenge myself to attain it so if it was easy that wouldn't be any fun.
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Original post: Oryx
I have a love/hate relationship with most everything. Especially world of warcraft.
I am very addicted to world of warcraft, and other such rpgs in which I can participate in an alternate reality, because I'm too damn lazy to create my own most of the time.
I hate hypocrisy in other people.
I am a terrible hypocrite. I am at odds with myself.
I am terribly lazy, and have a hard time manifesting anything on this physical plane. woe!
Dancing makes me feel so very connected to the Earth and the Stars, and it is sacred. I started dancing for myself, and only myself, and this interconnectedness with things.
I quite like the feeling of being onstage, casting a spell as I dance, hypnotizing a crowd, for I love the feeling of commanding an audience and striking terror into men's hearts. This concerns me.
I have a love/hate relationship with most everything. Especially world of warcraft.
I am very addicted to world of warcraft, and other such rpgs in which I can participate in an alternate reality, because I'm too damn lazy to create my own most of the time.
I hate hypocrisy in other people.
I am a terrible hypocrite. I am at odds with myself.
I am terribly lazy, and have a hard time manifesting anything on this physical plane. woe!
Dancing makes me feel so very connected to the Earth and the Stars, and it is sacred. I started dancing for myself, and only myself, and this interconnectedness with things.
I quite like the feeling of being onstage, casting a spell as I dance, hypnotizing a crowd, for I love the feeling of commanding an audience and striking terror into men's hearts. This concerns me.
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Original post: Kath_
hehe, you know, it seems almost inescapable that you hate hypocrisy in others mainly *because* you hate it in yourself.
I'm going to go out on a limb, and play a mix of psychology & daoist monk here...
Perhaps, you should embrace this facet of yourself, delve into it, understand it, hear it, un-repress it's function, and accept it as a part of the self... and then from that standpoint, move forward towards whatever action or inaction is the best represents the 'whole' you, including both the part of you which is hypocritical, and the part which (formerly) loathed it. In a mutual acceptance of the parts of self.
Loathing parts of the self, loathing parts of self which you see in others, and addiction to mmo's & other forms of escapism, are all indicative of you being in a state of internal civil war. some part of your mind dominating the stage of your consciousness, acting in pointed denial of a significant portion of the rest of your mind.
Don't hate anything that's 'you'. You'll only end up in a cycle of bits of self being at war, causing you to act out in very inconsistent ways, flip flopping from one extreme to another. Better to just be the whole you, somewhere in the middle.
ok, so that was horribly off topic... confessions, hmm... I confess that I'm not really ashamed of anything. which is shameful no? ok, lemme try again... uh... I stole a 2-liter of soda from work recently. It was handy, i was disgruntled. More an act of passive resistance than monetary gain. It was very good soda. I savored it almost ritually. I don't really like my employer.
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hehe, you know, it seems almost inescapable that you hate hypocrisy in others mainly *because* you hate it in yourself.
I'm going to go out on a limb, and play a mix of psychology & daoist monk here...
Perhaps, you should embrace this facet of yourself, delve into it, understand it, hear it, un-repress it's function, and accept it as a part of the self... and then from that standpoint, move forward towards whatever action or inaction is the best represents the 'whole' you, including both the part of you which is hypocritical, and the part which (formerly) loathed it. In a mutual acceptance of the parts of self.
Loathing parts of the self, loathing parts of self which you see in others, and addiction to mmo's & other forms of escapism, are all indicative of you being in a state of internal civil war. some part of your mind dominating the stage of your consciousness, acting in pointed denial of a significant portion of the rest of your mind.
Don't hate anything that's 'you'. You'll only end up in a cycle of bits of self being at war, causing you to act out in very inconsistent ways, flip flopping from one extreme to another. Better to just be the whole you, somewhere in the middle.
ok, so that was horribly off topic... confessions, hmm... I confess that I'm not really ashamed of anything. which is shameful no? ok, lemme try again... uh... I stole a 2-liter of soda from work recently. It was handy, i was disgruntled. More an act of passive resistance than monetary gain. It was very good soda. I savored it almost ritually. I don't really like my employer.
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Original post: durki
Mood was sullen when I got up today morning. It could be attributed partly to the semenal emission that I had in the wee hours. Then there was message from OF wishing me happy birthday. It is always good to love and be loved sans selfishness.
Mood was sullen when I got up today morning. It could be attributed partly to the semenal emission that I had in the wee hours. Then there was message from OF wishing me happy birthday. It is always good to love and be loved sans selfishness.
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(1) I have been glutton all along.
(2) In my office, only a sweeper-lady gives overtures to me.
(3) I am jealous of my subordinate who is close to my boss.
(1) I have been glutton all along.
(2) In my office, only a sweeper-lady gives overtures to me.
(3) I am jealous of my subordinate who is close to my boss.
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Original post: LoneFerret
My most emberessing secret is that one time i had a really bad trip on mushrooms, by myself (DUMBEST THING I EVER DID) in front of all of the children in my neighborhood and THAT is why now they call me the "crazy witch lady". (whenever someone asks me why they call me crazy witch lady i always say I don't know.)
I have sticky fingers and steal books and makeup.
I cast a love spell and it worked even though I'm a total newb and now i worry that i messed too much with my lover's free will even though he seems happy with me and our relationship feels healthy.
I don't give a damn about the well being, happiness and comfort of "meat" animals.
Ok now i feel like a fairly awful person. Eeeek. I'm not so bad, I promise!!
My most emberessing secret is that one time i had a really bad trip on mushrooms, by myself (DUMBEST THING I EVER DID) in front of all of the children in my neighborhood and THAT is why now they call me the "crazy witch lady". (whenever someone asks me why they call me crazy witch lady i always say I don't know.)
I have sticky fingers and steal books and makeup.
I cast a love spell and it worked even though I'm a total newb and now i worry that i messed too much with my lover's free will even though he seems happy with me and our relationship feels healthy.
I don't give a damn about the well being, happiness and comfort of "meat" animals.
Ok now i feel like a fairly awful person. Eeeek. I'm not so bad, I promise!!
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Original post: Sopor_676
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.
I have no regrets nor do I feel bad for anything ive done in my life.
I have done things which I felt were wrong of me at the time, but the results of my actions always lead me to a better understanding of the parts of my life surrounded by my mistakes.
If I hadnt made those mistakes, I wouldnt be who I am.
And I am mostly assuringly not ashamed of who I am today.
Therefore in retrospect, I have no regrets, and Ive made no true mistakes.
And as far as secrets go, to say secret implies something you wouldnt tell just any ordinary person.
If i believe I would be ashamed of something that I may do, whether I regret it or not, then what reason have I for doing it?
Man is to busy hiding the things he fears other men will chastise him for instead of embracing who he truly is.
This is the division that divides us.
(Let there be no difference made among you between any one thing & any other thing; for thereby there cometh hurt.) Liber AL vel Legis, Ch. 1, Verse 22
Love is the law, love under will.
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.
I have no regrets nor do I feel bad for anything ive done in my life.
I have done things which I felt were wrong of me at the time, but the results of my actions always lead me to a better understanding of the parts of my life surrounded by my mistakes.
If I hadnt made those mistakes, I wouldnt be who I am.
And I am mostly assuringly not ashamed of who I am today.
Therefore in retrospect, I have no regrets, and Ive made no true mistakes.
And as far as secrets go, to say secret implies something you wouldnt tell just any ordinary person.
If i believe I would be ashamed of something that I may do, whether I regret it or not, then what reason have I for doing it?
Man is to busy hiding the things he fears other men will chastise him for instead of embracing who he truly is.
This is the division that divides us.
(Let there be no difference made among you between any one thing & any other thing; for thereby there cometh hurt.) Liber AL vel Legis, Ch. 1, Verse 22
Love is the law, love under will.
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(1) I too had once tripped after eating baked maize when I was sitting in the class in the fourth standard.
(2) I never liked my father because he used to cast love spells on the unsuspecting ladies. I felt happy when he died.
(3) I dislike Indian sub-continent for the superstitions and primitiveness.
(1) I too had once tripped after eating baked maize when I was sitting in the class in the fourth standard.
(2) I never liked my father because he used to cast love spells on the unsuspecting ladies. I felt happy when he died.
(3) I dislike Indian sub-continent for the superstitions and primitiveness.
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Original post: durki
Many a time have I been called a bastard when I stroked and touched beautiful girls & boys during rides in the local trains in Mumbai.
Many a time have I been called a bastard when I stroked and touched beautiful girls & boys during rides in the local trains in Mumbai.
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Original post: Hood
This makes really icky reading...why would anyone air their skeletons on an internet forum? tacky!
This makes really icky reading...why would anyone air their skeletons on an internet forum? tacky!
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Original post: Anathema_Oracle
Between your dietary habits and habitual sex offending it's good to see you still have time for social commentary. Kudos!Many a time have I been called a bastard when I stroked and touched beautiful girls & boys during rides in the local trains in Mumbai.
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Original post: Carmin
I'm just amazed he can type all of this one handed.
I'm just amazed he can type all of this one handed.
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My perverted tendencies are attributed to my
(1) father who married twice and had more than 200 concubines &
(2) mother who co-habited with a man other than my father.
My perverted tendencies are attributed to my
(1) father who married twice and had more than 200 concubines &
(2) mother who co-habited with a man other than my father.