Shocking experinces with Rainbows as a child

[Bluntpoint]

Since I was toddler I have had a strange phobia of rainbows. They are very beautiful but they make me go into submission. Prisms make me cringe but I can handle them. There not that bad in a sprinkler. I'm getting better as I get older. When I was little I was scared of the shower and I thought one would a appear over my bed at night. But still even now if one is really big and bright in the sky I get very intimidated and run for shelter and cower. If one is in a book and I'm not expecting it and I flip to the page I jump. I had this fear since I first knew about them. Could this have to do with a past life? A new age lady said I could have been a Fairy in my past life. But I have a have a time believing that. I have heard mystical creatures are scare of rainbows becuase they can be seen through them? I don't know. Honestly I can't stand New Age People. depends on the New Agers. My new attachment "Iron Fist" doesn't like them. They were always phony baloney to me anyways.

I'll cut to the chace now Anyways heres my two stories

I was in grade One.
It was an afternoon on Saint Patrick's day. It's weird that this happened on "lepercon day" I was in grade one and my older brother walked me home. My brother was baby sitting me while my parents were out. It started to rain while they left. The sun came out and I had two double rainbows RIGHT on my front lawn. About 20 feet away from me from the window. They were HUGE They stretched so far to the other side of town. One was bright
the other was dark and murky and even had black in it. Being that close shocked me. It was an amazing.experience but very scary. My miserable teenage brother got exited and playful He went "Lets get the pot of gold!" I grabbed the railing and screamed when he took me by the hand There was no pot of gold. I saw the end it just went into the ground.

I was fascinated but in penetrating fear all my childhood. Every night I would cower in my bed. I got made fun of up until junior high about it when an incident happened and one appeared on the playground. I didn't understand why they scared me so much. So many children would be so happy to have that experience. I remember not knowing what to say so I grabbed a blue crayon and drew a picture of my heart beating and showed it my brother.

And than summer came. I would be so scared. I would use a spray bottle and touch the rainbows with them. It was
scary but it wasn't a big huge rainbow so I was fine. I would touch the rainbow mist and put my hands on the walls. I would spray the side of the house and see my hand prints in rainbow form they would still be there when the sprinkler hit the side of the house days after. That was scary. This wasn't imagination
It used to seriously bother me but it was a train wreck and I had to keep looking I was so curious. My would mom get angry when I'd use her Windex to spray for rainbows.

What do you think about this?

This is very bizarre. I'm 21 now and I'm cowering as I type this. It's harmless but intimidating.

[Gandridur]

Let's be logical here. I know and you know that there are no threats from a rainbow. This is a irrational fear that you have developed. Why I dont know. Only you know the true answer to that. But it's very easy to fix. Cognitive behavioral therapy has proved to be a very effective way to cure phobias and rapidly. So pick up your phone and call. This has nothing to do with any previous life and nothing to do with any stupid theory that you could have been a fairy. So ludicrous. I really hate that kind of fluffy new age and that kind of answers. They live in a fairy dreamworld. Does a answer like that help? No. Does it help to so solve you problem? No. No one know for certain that reincarnation exist. And if it does, it doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is here and now and problems should be solved in the here and now. Another problem with reincarnation theories is that it takes away ones own responsibility. If it happened in a previous life, you are not responsible for that in this life that it happened to you since you are a another person in this life.

[Bluntpoint]

So your not the only one who can't stand that new age crap? Good. I live on an island full of them
and they drive me crazy. It's getting better as I get older and it's not like you see a rainbow everyday.
but the experiences are weird to see a rainbow that close and seeing it go into the ground.

[Nahemah]

I have a phobia.It's irrational,as phobias are.It dosen't rule my life,as I am used to it and accept it as one of life's 'little quirks'.

[I won't tell what it is,unless pushed,it IS rather silly,no, it IS,lol, but it's real to me]

Some are not so unreasonable in my mind,anyway.If you live somewhere there are poisonous spiders for instance,I think it is quite sane to have a fear of them.
However,here in Scotland,there are no noxious types and never have been,within human occupation timescales,yet many folk here have a phobia about spiders.Go figure,eh? Lol.[mine is not spiders]

Rainbows is one I 've not heard of so far,not till now,but there are loads of recognised phobias out there,most with weird latin/greek-ified names [think:Triskaidekaphobia for instance,the fear of number 13],so don't let it make you feel too bad.

http://www.phobia-fear-release.com/phob ... tions.html

This is a list of phobias,check it out,it dosen't cover everything,but there's a lot and some are very odd,to me,but it's relative,I suppose.

I like how you 'sprayed' for rainbows,that shows you tried to take control,at least a little and mum getting annoyed with you for it,made me lol a bit too as I drove my mum up the wall,with mine too.

Gandridur is right,as if it takes over,or starts ruling your life,then therapy can help.Some folk are slaves to their fear and it stops them from doing things and from fully living their lives, however,others like me,are not too bad with it.

Phobia is irrational,but there is usually a rational cause,some event or realisation,buried deep in the subconscious,from way back when [often in infancy],that is the root of the fear.It can be worked with and worked out.

I do not believe in the past life/blame route either.

[TheSeeker]

I do not believe in the past life/blame route either.

Nor do I, unless one is absolutely convinced that past life experience is actually the cause. In which case one is able to make a conscious decision to shoulder the responsibility for something done or undone in a past life. However, even that is --as Grandridur said-- in the here and now.

I myself have a cloak made from the skins of fluffy bunnies that I wear to Pagan Pride Day Gatherings, drum circles, etc. It works best when combined with a liberal dousing [no pun intended] of Hippie-off Brand Pest-o-cide.

Nothing wrong with blaming stuff on past lives as long as you shoulder the responsibility in this one; that's called Darma.

[Nahemah]

Dharma is not part of the philosophy of the 'love n lighter-quick fix-law of three-blessed be brigade':funnily enough.And how often do you hear Samsara addressed or discussed either?

I always find it amusing,how they lift partial ideas from Ancient Belief systems that they like, but blindly totally ignore other parts that they find eh...'troublesome or complicated' shall we say?

I'm a bit sceptical of regression hypnotism too, TheSeeker.I have worked with folk on phobic problems,in my own path and found the cause of their fears,almost always to be rooted in their developing minds,in this life.
As I said last post,mostly in infancy,a time before conscious memory is fully aware,in most people.

My own is thus rooted also.

However and yes,there is a however,for me here,there are one or two that have stumped me,so I allow for the possibility of conscious awareness breaking through from a past life.But as you guys say,that still has to be worked on,in the here and now.So,no excuses.

I tend to scare the fluffs on nights out,lol.I look 'gother than thou'[ cos I was first doing it in the days before they were born!] so they hang around me [aww,likee the pied piper],till I start talking to them,that is......but,sonetimes I stay nice,cos they amuse me or something strikes me in them,that shows they'll grow.Shake and wake mission,lol.

[Gandridur]

Nothing wrong with blaming stuff on past lives as long as you shoulder the responsibility in this one; that's called Darma.

Blaming=not taking responsibility. How many times have you heard someone blame it on something else and at the same time made a change? None, of course. When someone is blaming someone else or something else they victimize them self to avoid their own responsibility. I'm so fed up hearing people blaming others, circumstanses etc. Yes its to me people turn when they have problems. Do they listen and do something to change? Rarely. Most people dont want to change and get better. They like to indentify themself with their problems. They find some meaning in it. And who do they blame in the end? Me of course. I have lost some so called friends that way. Well that's off topic.
Now I'm not sayin you blame it on a previous life or anything else. One can believe that the root lies in a previous life but that's something else than blaming it on a past life.