Possession.

[ground.zero]

Retardation of memory, perception, speech and motor. Flashes and emotions become uncontrollable causing panic attacks resulting in fever.
Constant, yet random images of gore and blood...
These thought forms are random. I could be jumping around in a tub of candy and the thoughts will still come to haunt me!
Here's what happened not too long ago when I was in the bathroom, I'd got flashes of thought forms that take over my vision, I was in the bathroom, but I can see what is in front, side and behind me, and a demon manifests through the wall like having you hand pushing through a white plastic bag, I get back to seeing with my eyes and then the flash takes over again and there is blood and body pieces everywhere in the bathroom.
Even anything that is linked to gore, even a dead animal on the street will get to me and almost cause me to have a mental break down.
Also, I am constantly astral projecting when I sleep. At first I thought it was my body being confused on if I want to project or not, but now I'm thinking different.

I don't know what to do. I can't relax, every time I try to relax or every time I close my eyes, I see something horrible.

[Venefica]

I would recommend that you go to a doctor and a psychologist first to verify that there is nothing wrong with you which day can fix. If they find nothing then I would try doing the LBRP every day for a while, and some grounding exercises often, to ground, banish and protect yourself in case you have gotten into contact with something which is affecting you negatively. If this do not help then stronger banishing rituals might be necessary, but I would try the LBRP first, it also have the added benefit of reising your Spirit and making you better at magick as well as banishing Spiritual or Energy nasties from your system.

[ground.zero]

But the matter with seeing the doctor is if you say one thing about hearing demons talk to you or astral projection, right away you're crazy, what are the chances of getting a doctor who has knowledge of the metaphysics? ALMOST NONE AT ALL! Or could it be that i'm actually mental and I'm in denial of it (because I really don't agree that I am mental!). Seriously, I think I would rather drown in holy water and have a all of the priests tell me I'm crazy and not possessed at all, before I commit myself.

[Rikoshi]

Don't describe it in terms of meta-physics. Say you have 'intense dreams', describe the feelings, hallucinations, etc. without using occult lingo. If it turns out a simple pill could solve this, it would be foolish to go get an exorcism.

On that note, if there is no cure in pill form, I'd perform powerful self exorcism or bind the spirit within you.

[Venefica]

I do not necessary agree. I thing that there are several ways to look at a thing. And while the original poster should definitely see a doctor, I do think that there is healing in banishing or even in a exorcism. I think that if in one Paradigm an illness can be mental stress, it can in another Paradigm be an evil Spirit or in a third it can be negative Energy. I think that if something can be healed with banishing that is far better for the body than pills. But off course if one have to take pills then one have to, but if one can do something to make the problem go away without medication that is preferable.

[daisyrocket]

I would suggest you apologize for anything you may have accidently done to piss of said demon and then forgive it for messing with your shit. Then perhaps try to learn from it? Have you even tried to talk to it yet? Could be trying to get your attention. Could stem from outside your mind, though it could also stem from inside your mind. I'd be more wary of the ones coming from inside.

[Nahemah]

"Don't describe it in terms of meta-physics. Say you have 'intense dreams', describe the feelings, hallucinations, etc. without using occult lingo. If it turns out a simple pill could solve this,"

Agreed.From a medical/psychological standpoint,you may be experiencing 'intrusive thoughts' and 'sleep disturbance/anxiety'.

This can happen for a variey of reasons,my son experiences psychological problems resulting from a neurological condition.He has meds that work well for this.

"Retardation of memory, perception, speech and motor. Flashes and emotions become uncontrollable causing panic attacks resulting in fever."

This sounds like an anxiety attack following what I would interpret as neurological symptoms,but I 'm not a doctor.However my son has epilepsy [and complications following on from Encephaltitis infection] and he experiences this.So getting a medical check is not as strange as it may seem to you.There are other illnesses and conditions that can cause this also.

It could be a neurological/hormonal promblem,it could be psychological or it could be demonic,so covering all the bases is a good idea.


V gives sound advice as usual,as do all the posters,clearing and warding your personal space is just good sense.It'll help whatever the cause may be.

More background may be helpful,especially if you've been engaged in any workings or rituals or activities recently,or have you had high stresses in everyday life,stuff like that.

When did this start? How long have you been experincing this and are there any particular trigger points/events you can think of that may have affected or helped to cause this?

Please do a see a Doctor,just to be safe.Even if it's just to eliminate one possible cause.

[Xion]

Retardation of memory, perception, speech and motor. Flashes and emotions become uncontrollable causing panic attacks resulting in fever.
Constant, yet random images of gore and blood...
These thought forms are random. I could be jumping around in a tub of candy and the thoughts will still come to haunt me!
Here's what happened not too long ago when I was in the bathroom, I'd got flashes of thought forms that take over my vision, I was in the bathroom, but I can see what is in front, side and behind me, and a demon manifests through the wall like having you hand pushing through a white plastic bag, I get back to seeing with my eyes and then the flash takes over again and there is blood and body pieces everywhere in the bathroom.
Even anything that is linked to gore, even a dead animal on the street will get to me and almost cause me to have a mental break down.
Also, I am constantly astral projecting when I sleep. At first I thought it was my body being confused on if I want to project or not, but now I'm thinking different.

I don't know what to do. I can't relax, every time I try to relax or every time I close my eyes, I see something horrible.

SSRI inhibitors might be nice. Speak to your psychologist.

If you really are possessed, embrace it a bit. Try it out, live with it, it might grow on you (pun intended).

I don't know about you, but now more so than ever I try to embrace the things that break us out of our comfort zones if only to laugh at the face of rationality and to enjoy the wild ride in the often sad drama that is life. If everything that is really happening to you is as you describe it (and assuming you are not mentally ill, which is a logical assumption), then that actually sounds pretty awesome.

[ZebedZebub]

i had a similar experience this winter, excepting motor retardation and hallucinations. it started after i visited some cellar in my home town's medieval fortress. my life was really nice, my relationship with my girlfriend was superb. however when i got out of there my feet went numb and i started having flashes of my city in its medieval times, emotions and memories that really were not mine. everything got to me and everything made me feel bad mentally. i also had a horrible pessimistic attitude towards everything. what scared me most (though for a period i quite liked it) was that whenever i was moving i could actually feel like i had two bodies and the second one kept moving just like my own but with much greater force. i don't really know how to explain but i was sure my mind is ok and i wasn't losing it. i knew of the LBRP but never used it because i considered it useful only if one also does evocations and so. however, i started practicing it. after a while i started feeling better and better.

sorry for the possibly bad english.

[tucachu]

@ ground.zero and ZebedZebub, this article talks about possession. Good information:

http://dalepower.net/articles/articles_Possession.html

There should be a second part being posted soon, on how to do something about it.

[heliom]

Physical ailemnts aside - speaking directly to possible occult situations - This seems like it could also be a psycic attack.

If these symptoms are continuing and sporadic I would recommend you look into some practical shielding techniques and defensive maneuvers.

If it is energy based, despite what you call it - it should maintain roughly the same functionality.

A personal favorite shielding technique of mine is to imagine I have very large wings that I wrap around myself and then sit quietly in peace protected form all outside forms of energy.

[Kath]

Physical ailemnts aside - speaking directly to possible occult situations - This seems like it could also be a psycic attack.

yeah, I agree. assuming they're not crazy of course

then again, who better for a parasite to pick on than crazy people? one could be crazy AND psychicly attacked after all.

but it sounds like a personal haunting (not really a "possession" per say), by a negative entity which is fairly dangerous in my opinion. the description of the bathroom scene, and what happened there, was 'very' familiar to me, and closely matches some experience I have had with certain entities which most in our western culture would call 'demons'.

I'd recomment seeking outside help, perhaps a deity or something along those lines.
I would also recommend figuring out how to completely purge yourself of fear (you're no fun if you don't freak out).
try very hard to remain in your body. at least until after this mess is completely resolved.

[Second]

The quickest way to tell if this is meta physical, or a disease is to burn good quality white sage. If it is negative energy or a negative spirit, and if the spirit isn't too strong, you should instantly feel better. I have had most of my energy nullified by negative energy and negative spirits before. It feels like cloudy memory, because an entity has already went through your aura and is distrubbing the good energy in your head, or your good energy is low and you can't seem to gain any new good energy from the air. Also, to go with the mental cloudyness, you might feel the lack of energy, or massive pain in the middle of your back or you stomach may hurt, which is do to negative energy. Also, don't shop at walmart or aldes, because most of their food is low in good energy. If you want to talk farther, my email is yukay_j@hotmail.com

[Second]

I would suggest you apologize for anything you may have accidently done to piss of said demon and then forgive it for messing with your shit. Then perhaps try to learn from it? Have you even tried to talk to it yet? Could be trying to get your attention. Could stem from outside your mind, though it could also stem from inside your mind. I'd be more wary of the ones coming from inside.

Demons attack for multitude of reasons. You don't even have to do anything, but be unlucky enough to encounter one. Demons will attack anyone who is a threat, any one who is of good moral or good souls, and a demon may attack just, because it wants to feed off of your negative energy created by negative emotions, Fear, Hate, and Pain. Demons live to spread negative energy through fear, hate, and pain.

[Poltergiest]

Assuming you still have the problem your mind may be to clouded to help your self if you need outside assistance posting a very general living area might help if you don't mind another person getting rid of the problem for you.