The Gates of Azyn

[Meresis Wergamoth]

Hi, I would like to share a very meaningful experience that happened to me few years ago.
It is already published in french in a little e-zine and I just translated it in english, because I think it might interest some people.

I would ask for two things:

1- If you have any thoughts or feedback about it, please share it with me.

2- If you see some significant grammatical or syntax mistake, don't be shy to tell me... I will be glad to improve this translation.

Here it goes:

Several attempts have been made in recent times to recover traces of a series of magical formulae pertaining to the Gates of Azyn. Independent groups of occultists, and individuals working in isolation, have received intimations in dreams, by skrying and other means, of the presence of entities intent upon communicating certain keys, the use of which would enable their possessors to unlock the Gates beyond Daäth.
- Kenneth Grant, Outside the Circles of Time.

It happened in automn, when the leaves are rare in the trees and the cold wind is taking place for a long and dark winter. We were some friends gathering in a loft for a little informal party, as we used to do. One of them had with him 14 grams of psilocybe cubensis mushrooms and offered it to the assembly; no one was willing, prefering other substances or just nothing. I was the only one to show interest, but the jester did put all of the bag in the decoction anyway. When the magic tea was ready, we splited it between the both of us. I added to my part some cacao and sugar, and swallowed it in very little time.

The high was coming fast and I had some gastric discomfort with a lot of sweating, I did take a cold shower and felt better, but was not in the mood to socialize anymore. I was needing some rest and meditation, and to this end I dragged myself to a hamac tighted between two pillars of the loft. I then lied down, shut my eyes and I soon was very far away...

In the multicolor fractal visions that was flowing in my inner sight was opening a dimentional portal in which I been irresistibly sucked up. This was looking like a breach, a vagina and a torned veil. What was surprising to me to the other side was the stability and lucidity of my perceptions, the realistic feel of it... adding to the chocking nature of these entities and their universe... you understand that I was actualy in front of some strange creatures!

Before me was standing beings that was looking to be around three meters high, but as I was not in my physical body, it is only estimated from my point of perspective. They were seeming to have weird insect heads, with humanoidish bodies, though it is hard to tell because they were appearing translucid, made of energy spheres linked by tunnels, as one can illustrate the tree of life or the molecules. Behind them was a grand gate and beyond, a cyclopean city made of gigantic black stones sparkling with crawling storms and vibrating to the sound of deep, low-pitched melodies of alien harmonics, and In the sky was also a web of linked energy globes, and the entities were connected to this web. So we were at the Gates of their dark city and one of them was presenting to me an open grimoire in which it had a text I could not read illustrated by several kabbalistic graphics. Another one of them so spoke to me (it was not realy a voice, but the communication was nonetheless clear):

''We are the watchers of your world, which is imprisonned by this web that you see. We own the keys of the weft of sublunar spheres, and we keep most of humans in a heavy saturnian prison of ignorance and fear.
But to them that we allow to come here, we offer our immemorial knowledge, our forbidden science, our unknown arcanes. Yet this knowledge is not of your world, and that is why you have to renonce to your humanity in order to learn. If you follow us, you shall become one of us, and you shall never turn back.''

I do not know what would happen to the reckless who would accept to follow these demons in their meta-universities because I did not. I moved back, I was so afraid before these strange beings, these outerworld arcanes, drowned in the malevolent chant of the qliphotic spheres.
I was terrified; for the first time of my life I understood the cosmic horror vaguely evocated by H. P. Lovecraft. As I was feeling despair invading me, I took refuge into the love of the Mother-Goddess, and wished with all my heart to stay among my human family.

I told them that I was not ready to know. I wanted to go back to my friends. I love life, but I am now haunted by these arcanes from another world. Did I do well to refuse to follow them beyond the Gate? Yes. Yes, because the next time, I'll know what I want, I'll know that I'm ready, and I shall enter in the vast city with so firm a step that my life on this land of men will as soon be nothing more than distant memories.

[dodaive]

''We are the watchers of your world, which is imprisonned by this web that you see. We own the keys of the weft of sublunar spheres, and we keep most of humans in a heavy saturnian prison of ignorance and fear.
But to them that we allow to come here, we offer our immemorial knowledge, our forbidden science, our unknown arcanes. Yet this knowledge is not of your world, and that is why you have to renonce to your humanity in order to learn. If you follow us, you shall become one of us, and you shall never turn back.''

I have actually have been interested in a recently developed myth, with some similarities. The myth I am using is very much based on the Bible, except that god, or collectively the exarchs are trying to maintain control of the world, and keep the world in ignorance. You might say this forms the basis of my religion. The myth is actually quite long to be able to post here. But , there is a lot of truth to it if you ponder it. I can PM you the MS Word doc. if your interested.

[Meresis Wergamoth]

I know this kind of legend is similar with some sumerians scriptures (the texts that inspired the firsts books of the bible) and the book of Enoch. As for the modern myth, I know less about it.

I would be interested in receiving the document indeed, thank you very much