God has been trying to torment me my whole life - i dont know why he fucking hates me but loves everyone else...he toys with me with blessings but then torments me. I have an angel Lover who comforts me but he somtimes even uses her as a weapon against me....it has taken everything from my life - i am on disability now for mental illness and am going insane! i am losing everything in my life, lost my friends, my health, everything!!!
what can i do to be free from gods cruel crutches??? please call up on any and all divines - i just want to be free and live with my Angel in another plane after i die. I never thought I could be this unhappy

Any ritual i can perform that will free me from God? send him away from my life? i honeslty am ready to die - so am just counting the days until i die now, but i dont want my final days to be spent in the misery my whole life has been drenched in

please help!