How does this sounds like to anyone experienced ?

[sunas]

I have summoned ( or so i thought, at least i know i have somehow called ) lilith
Like many months ago..
I deeply wanted to have a lover that wasn't human, someone who would be better then anyone human but still to have some of the human traits.
I could get more into detail about whom i really wanted and who i really got but the thing is..

..i actually think i kind of made a deal of somewhat with that entity which i am deeply sure to be lilith, i still don't know if that deal was ever made or not! I did get that person who i deeply wanted but i don't think that lilith is getting her part of the deal, at least until now nothing really happened and i am not really sure of what i really made a deal for..is there a way i can find out if i actually made a deal ?

[Jack-o-diamonds]

your post confuses me immensely.

so... you wanted someone specific... but then you actually just wanted a super-lover. you then called said super-lover and got the specific person you wanted? and then... you think this super-lover is lilith... and you are somehow connected via a deal with her?

could you try clarifying?

[hobotubbie]

your post confuses me immensely.

so... you wanted someone specific... but then you actually just wanted a super-lover. you then called said super-lover and got the specific person you wanted? and then... you think this super-lover is lilith... and you are somehow connected via a deal with her?

could you try clarifying?

Jack, Sunas already posted about this subject at some extent @ceremonial magick thread i believe, if you wish you can read it i think you will understand a little bit more about his issue.

You really seem relentless in your search for this Sunas.. maybe you should take a break or something. Btw, i remember vaguely that you talked alot about putting yourself into a submissive (slave was the word i believe) regarding the entity in question, and now you talk of it as lover. Kinda confused now aswell.

[Jack-o-diamonds]

oh actually i think i remember reading that.

[clown] shows you how well i pay attention.