What or who is she ? (Astral Guide? Angel?)

[Whyhaveyouforsakenme]

Hello my friends,
I am unsure if this is the right section to post this in if it is please feel free to move it.
I have very recently discovered that there is something within me or close to me.
I am a very religious man I go to church every sunday. I pray everyday and I have read the Bible multiple times.
Now since I was very young I always had this feeling in my chest this fuzzy kind of warmth in the center of my chest
when I was at special places like lourdes or when I did the "right" thing in a difficult situation.
I also feel a certain well not exactly pain but a very negativ feeling which I can't really discribe
when people mention Satan or when I was at one of my friends house it was what some people call "haunted" (she always was hit in the face while she slept and she had bad bruises from it)
I would get this feeling like something bad was there.
I assumed it was the holy spirit guiding me and showing me what was "good" and what was "evil". I was never able to access it by myself I always needed certain influences but for reasons I will not explain in this Thread I started to look into it and as I had a day off today I began to Meditate.
I tried to open my mind more and leaving the possibilty open that it may be something other than the holy spirit.
Almost immediately I got this warm feeling again and I knew I just knew it is a she.
Since then I have been holding on to her and the feeling hasn't gone away.
I am afraid that if I let go it might go away for ever.

Now I would like to know have any of you ever experienced something similar?
What or who is she ?
Is she inside me or close to me ?
How can I get into contact with her ?
Is it safe to let go for a while ?
How can I be sure I won't loose her ?

[Nahemah]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lailah

Your HGA,or Guardian Angel?

"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani?" I got a prize once in school,for knowing this in Aramaic.

I was raised RC of Irish descent also.

Your English is excellent,by the way. [thumbup]

[Whyhaveyouforsakenme]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lailah

Your HGA,or Guardian Angel?

"Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani?" I got a prize once in school,for knowing this in Aramaic.

I was raised RC of Irish descent also.

Your English is excellent,by the way. [thumbup]

Wow, I think your right as soon as I read the name such a great joy overcame me I almost cried with happiness.
But who am I to be blessed with such a great entity by my side ?
Do you know how I can speak to her and not just feel her ?

And thank you sooo much for this information!

[Nahemah]

The knowledge and conversation of the HGA,is one method,from the Western Mystery Traditions.

But I think you need input from someone who knows more about that than I do.

The Angelic or Pauline Arts might be of value too,but I don't know much about that either.

I get a bit confused from there onwards.

Esoteric Christian Theurgy

Esoteric Christianity accepts theurgy as a tradition that could benefit one greatly. The main feat of Esoteric Christianity is to learn the mysteries of God, (see Raziel), and rise to higher consciousness and theurgy is, in the esoteric tradition, using this knowledge to heighten one's own spiritual nature. In Esoteric Christianity, theurgy usually is the practice of trying to gain the knowledge and conversation of one's Higher Self, or Inner God, to teach one spiritual truths and wisdom from God that one couldn't learn from man (see Alchemy, Kabbalah, and Theosophy). Some branches of Esoteric Christianity hold that if an Esoteric Christian, Rosicrucian, or Theosophist practices it, he or she could potentially rise to the degree of Magus, or Adept.

In a traditional and magical sense, Theurgy is seen as the opposite of Goetia, even though many argue that they overlap each other. Some organizations, such as The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn claim to teach a type of theurgy that would help one ascend spiritually as well as understand the true nature of the self and its relation to the Divine and the Universe. The Golden Dawn has a somewhat significant historical following and influence; while it is held that many theurgists are usually solitary practitioners and seek the divine light alone through ritual and inner spiritual and psychological equilibration.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theurgy

Thelema and/or Hermetics may also be of interest too.

[shazwie]

hmm.....i have read this thread and i can confirm you one thing....i have also had this feeling....before and now....but it isn't like a guardian angel (i think) it is more like.....i can feel others pain and feel any kind of emotion to those i feel are welcomed into my heart.....what does this mean?? i feel like....there is just something in me that wants me to help others...but what is this supposed to mean??oh and one more thing.... bugs like beez and butterflies and sometimes moths keep getting close to me ..just FYI...