Spirit or Demon?

[AllenReus]

I have a couple of questions regarding spirits, demons and cursed objects, but first i need to tell you the story.

7-8 years ago I made this object that I believe summoned a demon. It was a grave stone made of soap stone, back
then I was unaware of magic's true power. I did however believe in ghosts because i had seen them
my whole life. This gravestone I hand carved and as a touch up, i carved my name into the gravestone with RIP at the
top. Under it i put my birthdate and the year it was in a formation like this underneath my name (1991-2007).
I also made this gravestone with much intent and darkness in mind. I later would regret this more than anything after
a few days. Strange things started to happen around me, i would start to hear voices and see things, also call me in
a voice of somebody familiar to me, when there was nobody around. I sometimes would walk around corners and see very
tall shadow people looking at me for a second or 2 at a time. Along with everything around me being VERY white, more
so than usual. This is common place in my nightmares now thanks to that... Nothing ever felt right either during
that time, it felt off and VERY creepy.
My animals died soon too, i had birds and rabbits. Their necks were broken
and stomachs ripped open, it was so creepy it made me feel sick. Like i wanted to run. Soon i started to get hurt too,
waking up with scratches on me, waking up in my hallway sometimes, once in my gravel driveway. Blackouts would happen
around me, in my house, in school. As well as many bats for some reason, i believe bats MAY be attracted to magic
due to when i cast spells, bats usually show up within a few days. It got much worse though very fast, I knew this
thing was there, i could feel it. I once looked in the mirror from coming downstairs because i heard dishes and i
thought my mom was downstairs, in the mirror i saw a woman that didn't very much look like my mom but i thought it had
to have been her. I said "Hey, madre" I then walked into the kitchen and there was nobody there. I soon felt a
presence creeping up on my from behind and then there was a pain, unlike any pain i ever felt before. It was a pain
like my entire body was separating. Due to this, my pain tolerance is extraordinarily high in the modern day. I could
be wrong but i believe this was the demon or spirit trying to separate my soul and body or something similar. Since
it was like a pain that was both physical and non physical and since this was stopped, i have not had anything like
it again. I then could barely move and was almost starting to pass out. I managed to make it back up stairs to my mom.
because I always even at my age thought she could help in some way. This same thing had happened a hand full of times
after that. Each time was so much worse than the last. The last time it happened I thought i was dying. I tried to
scream but it hurt to much to even let a sound out. I collapsed and i started losing all feeling within my body and
all my senses began to fade away. I thought i was dying at the time. I woke up on the floor hours later and my mom
eventually figured out that it was the gravestone and smashed it and buried it. It stopped that one spirit/demon
but there was still others to mess with stuff. My mom finally decided to embrace magic and used a banishing spell to
get rid of the rest of the things in the house, it put up like a protective barrier around the house too. Sometimes
when we took pictures of the house, lines of light looked to be surrounding the house.
I guarantee you that this was A - Not a dream, B - Not a lie and C - not a delusion. I am wondering if this truly was a demon or if it was some kind of
spirit. Also if it would be possible to replicate this once again. Just for knowledge purposes. This experience DID harm me to this day as well, i lack remorse and am SLIGHTLY sociopathic due to it. Due to this wouldn't I be afraid of magic and demons and such? I don't seem to be, i seem to be more attracted to them... Why am I not afraid of them?
Sorry that this was a bit long, it was kind of a long story.

[Desecrated]

What you are describing is a textbook psychotic episode.
Go and see a doctor.

[cyberdemon]

What you are describing is a textbook psychotic episode.
Go and see a doctor.

I'm the in-house doctor, I'll take over.

Speaking of psychosis, AllenReus, do you have any memory lapses from that time period? Such as ending up in places you don't remember going to, or finding out later you did something you thought you hadn't? How many days exactly did this event happen over and did it ever happen again or is it a one-time thing? Do you still live in the same location and what exactly do you mean by going "sociopath"? Describe exactly the change in your personality from before and after the event.

Secondly, yes. It sounds like a typical local-influence demon. What kind of dark intents did you have? Did you entertain any suicidal thoughts?
I'm skeptical as to whether it's really a medical condition vs an actual event because apparently it all did stop after a good banishing.

Do you have the photos of the location still? If you don't mind sharing, I'd love to see them.

[Stukov]

What you are describing is a textbook psychotic episode.
Go and see a doctor.

I'm the in-house doctor, I'll take over.

Speaking of psychosis, AllenReus, do you have any memory lapses from that time period? Such as ending up in places you don't remember going to, or finding out later you did something you thought you hadn't? How many days exactly did this event happen over and did it ever happen again or is it a one-time thing? Do you still live in the same location and what exactly do you mean by going "sociopath"? Describe exactly the change in your personality from before and after the event.

Secondly, yes. It sounds like a typical local-influence demon. What kind of dark intents did you have? Did you entertain any suicidal thoughts?
I'm skeptical as to whether it's really a medical condition vs an actual event because apparently it all did stop after a good banishing.

Do you have the photos of the location still? If you don't mind sharing, I'd love to see them.

There is certainly some problems with the way some of medicine handles mental health issues throughout the world, however, it doesn't mean we should discourage someone from seeking help from those who specialize in the field. There are also certain issues that overlap between the physical and metaphysical, as board members I don't think we should pretend we can assist with the physical. I've seen those who were merely touched and open to the metaphysical being diagnosed and drugged by the mental health profession, but I've also seen spiritualist lie to themselves they are helping delusional people who became dangerous.

I just want to say if someone is asking for help, provide the help we can provide, but pretend our way is the only way they can be helped because our tools are limited.

[AllenReus]

It all happened over a year. As far as i know there was nothing i did that i didn't know of at the time. I never thought of suicidal thoughts, even though it was terrible... As to what i mean by sociopathic, i don't really feel the same way about people anymore. Pain is really nothing to me anymore, its just a minor thing that i can ignore pretty easily now. I have become darker in the sense that i don't think of humans as higher beings at all, i tend to think of them as just animals. Even such like cannibals don't really gross me out. My intents while making the gravestone were like i was expecting something to happen, like i knew what i was doing subconsciously but not consciously. The things like then never happened again inside the house after the banishing.
Apparently bad things happened to my mom as well during this time, so I'm pretty sure it wasn't just me experiencing it. And yes i still live at the same place. The pictures are on my moms phone so i will have to wait till tomorrow to get those. I hope she still has them... My mom from what she has told me had a similar experience when she was a kid. She would get grabbed by something when nothing was seemingly around, she would get covers pulled off her. It sounded like something out of paranormal activity when she told me.