Too much energy in my spine;

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Too much energy in my spine;

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So, I've been slowly performing a Kundalini meditation called "the Front-Back method" for around 2 years. My first intrigue with Kundalini came from my intense experiences on LSD, where, in hindsight, was probably the start of a forced awakening.

A few days ago, I had an intense emotional outpour. I was attacked magically several times, to the point where I vomited (intense argument with my significant other, she's really good at projecting bad vibes.) After a short while of altercation, as well as a time of introspection together, immediately afterwards, a huge energetic blockage in my throat area cleared out (let's say there was some crying involved, and it did wonders.)

After that throat blockage busted out (which I've also been fighting for a few years, a little at a time), the energy that had stagnated just under my heart flew up to my brain. I've also been practicing pranayama (sp?) meditations now and again, running my intent up and down along my spine through my energetic centers.

Now, considering the recent successes I've had with the few low spells I've cast, and after doing a significant amount more research on the topics of kundalini and Qi in general, I feel as though I'm climbing over the apex of my awakening process.

I don't think I'm quite there, as I don't feel very different that I used to. The only difference is that I notice myself more often. I remember to keep a pin-point attention more often than I used to. Sometimes, my consciousness slips back down. I can literally feel my center of focus originating from my mouth/nose area, rather than from the middle of my forehead or the middle of my brain. When this happens, and I recover from it, it's almost like a black-out moment. I was just thinking about seemingly important things, but I have literally no recollection of my time spent in a lower state.



The past couple days, I've been doing my best to clear out the energetic blockages I still have. There are a few, and seeing as how I'm not trained in any type of physical art that would help me stay fit energetically, I seem to get a lot of stagnated energy in my body. Especially around existing blockages.
Currently, my throat area still has a tense feeling, although not nearly as tight as it used to be. The area around my heart and lungs also has a few tight spots, but I'm wary about messing with that area, given Bardon's instructions to avoid charging the heart with vital energy. Other than that, I feel pretty cleared out.

For at least the past few hours, and probably longer if I was actually paying attention, my spine has been burning up with energy. It feels really warm, in my spine alone, focusing close to the bottom of my heart most intensely. It's gotten to the point that I'm a little bit worried. It doesn't necessarily hurt, but it's unpleasant enough to be worthy of this post, which is a rare thing for me these days.

Earlier in the day, I attempted to fill myself with an excess of fire-based intent, to deal with the cold temperatures outside, but I was moderately unsuccessful. I got a short burst of warmth while I managed to stay focused, but it faded quickly and proved to be a useless waste of energy and time.
I recently (within the hour) tried filling myself with a little bit of cold energy, as well as trying to project the warmth from my body, and while the cold eased my spine for a moment, after a short moment, it heated back up to the point of overpowering any coldness I could provide.


I'm just curious what kind of changes or additions to my practice I should make to assure nothing goes wrong in my body at this stage. I'll admit to a certain degree that I'm moderately clueless as to what I'm actually doing here, over-all. It's not easy pieces together a working understanding of reality from every source of information you've obtained, and I'm sure more than a good portion of what I know is somehow flawed. Honestly, I'm to the point where I don't even remember how I know half of the things I seemingly know. I've just put pieces together, and from somewhere beyond, I've managed to be successful in my work and actually maintain a certain level of confidence in myself.


Thank you for anyone who managed to read through here, and an especial thanks to anyone who can offer some assistance to me. I'm open to all words.
(Before it is questioned, this is absolutely caused by magick practice, so going to a doctor at this particular stage is out of the question. That only becomes an option when it causes unpleasant symptoms that I cannot live with.)
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To my knowledge, my energetic centers are not flowing, and other than the energy in my pranic tube, not much else is flowing around my body. Occasionally I focus on my stomach and gut centers to digest food faster. That's about the craziest thing involving my chakra nodes that I've done, besides once, recently, flushing them with energy, as I occasionally do. I always make sure to close everything off when I'm done though, so unless my attention got interrupted without realizing it, there should be no issues there.

Again, thank you for any assistance you can offer me here. Even links are great.
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Please don't dislocate a spinal disc while doing yoga. That's all.
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cyberdemon wrote:Please don't dislocate a spinal disc while doing yoga. That's all.

I don't mess with any crazy-ass poses, so you have no worries there. I'm already a hunch-back, and I'm trying to fix that. Full-Lotus is my chosen static posture. I don't perform any active yogic meditations.
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Can you describe this "Front-Back method" a little? It sounds familiar but I can't recall anything about it. Is it a version of the Microcosmic Orbit?

There's an exercise that comes to mind that will help you circulate this, but I'm away from the book that it's in and I can't remember every detail off the top of my head. I'll have to bring it up tonight.



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Shinichi wrote:Can you describe this "Front-Back method" a little? It sounds familiar but I can't recall anything about it. Is it a version of the Microcosmic Orbit?

There's an exercise that comes to mind that will help you circulate this, but I'm away from the book that it's in and I can't remember every detail off the top of my head. I'll have to bring it up tonight.



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You essentially breathe vital energy down the front of your body (lungs, diaphragm, stomach, and genitals), attach it to the base of your spine, and force it upwards with intent. The biggest thing blocking my progression in performing it was an energetic blockage in the upper part of my chest and throat area.

I honestly don't know what that is, that you mentioned.

I'm interested in your solution. Honestly, I think I need to take up some Tai Chi, but I don't have the extra money for that right now.

I've simply been circling it through my body and up and down my spine as much as have time. It's helped ease it, but I can't seem to push this energy out of my body at all.
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Got distracted by life. [crymore]

That definitely sounds like a degraded MCO practice. I really don't recommend forcing energy in any kind of circulation exercise, for the same reason you shouldn't force yourself when lifting weights. You may push yourself and get stronger a little faster, sure. But the risk of spraining or pulling something also goes way up, especially if you aren't extremely careful. It's not a good way to practice anything.

I can still do up a thing using my books when I get a little more time, but I also remembered this: http://forums.vsociety.net/index.php/topic,22055.0.html Scroll down to the Microcosmic Orbit part. The thing I was going to pull from my book is way more advanced (and thus 1. way more complicated and 2. a bit more dangerous if you don't have prerequisite training), but Kouji's version is rather safe and easy and should help you circulate your energy a bit better.

Basically, it sounds to me like you've opened up the Governor Vessel running up the back, but you've not opened up the Conception Vessel down the front of the body so that the energy can circulate properly and naturally (that "up and down the back" line in your last post really makes it sound like you're completely ignoring the CV...). The result of using an imbalanced practice, focusing too much on one place. That just leads to stagnation, which causes a host of problems. Sigh. Really, the best thing you could do is go to an Acupuncturist that's an expert in traditional Qi Gong Acupuncture, so he can scold you about dangerous training and fix your meridians more quickly. If you can't, practice the MCO linked above so you can work on circulation more and just stop doing practices like this either way. [tongue]

And none of this is traditional Kundalini Yoga. It's working with Prana / Qi and the Nadis / Meridians & Vessels. Kundalini always and only awakens once Nadi Sodhana (Meridian Detox) is achieved, it always and only begins in the perineum at the Root or what Acupuncture calls the Hui Yin Point, and it is a far more intense force than Prana / Qi. It'll feel like you sat on a taser or something.



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you have to ground yourself with a root chakra activation like Aum lam or looking at a geometric while doing energy work of your system or something equivalent. There is actually a simple chigung technique that's very powerful where you gently and firmly tip your pelvis forward and back you can do it lying in bed or in horse stance standing up.

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