Powerful witches needed: Soul Removal.

[Kami]

What I mean by the title is that I hope someone here or many,
Can aid me in losing my soul.

I now know that magick is powered by powerful belief.

Magick is pure energy right?

Emotions are simply energy motions that when applied to a "thought" becomes a feeling/belief.

It's all about how dense it is.

Right?

I'm not skilled enough to "feel" anything without being provoked.

I need all of those here who can control their beliefs and or feelings.

It is my desire that y'all believe I don't have a soul/sun within the universe of my mind,
So that I'm all "thought" and not all "feelings".

I can't handle my feelings - and no therapy or drug - no doctor or psychologist can help me,
Because I find all that shit to be corny.

And I know that without a soul/sun within the universe of my mind - I won't be able to do magick,
Because I won't be able to feel anythig besides physical sensations.

And I am dumb for that - But... I need to function,
I need to get a life and I can't do that with a god damned soul! :/

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I don't want your pitty or "suggestions" leaning towards any type of professional help - I reject all of that.

All I want is freedom from this suffering and inability to perform working magick recreationally; I usually perform on accident via "hate" energy.

Please,
All I ask is that y'all believe I don't have a soul/sun.

It is my paradigm that God's heart is connected to our earth within the universe of its mind,
And we are its storage of information,
Its personalities,
And if we can get enough of God's dream characters to believe something,
It should affect this "God" of OUR universe,
And make it so.

The same method works for us,
If all our dream characters that live on the earth within the universe of our minds - feel a certain way - affects us emotionally and thus changing their world or themselves.

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I'm not desperate - I don't stoop to such levels.

I will find a way,
One day,
Whether if it's through magick or science,
I'll find a way.

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Anyways...
If no one wants to do such a thing to me,
I understand and respect your desicion. ~

So - if and only IF no one can help me with this,
Can y'all at least recommend a book or a website that has the information I need?

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I would do it myself - but it would come at a great cost - because I would have to make everyone hate me while I told them I had no soul,
Trying my best not to show any feelings.

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I won't be wasting anymore of your time with questions like this,
I just had to try asking around.

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The internet is filled with bullshit nonsense spells - about ejecting one's "soul".

Also - how would I "preserve/contain" my soul - if it were to leave my vessel?

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It's always been my dream to act without feelings getting in the way:
1.) Oh no... I could go to jail or prison.
2.) Oh no... Being a vigilante is a "bad" thing.
3.) Oh no... This and that is sooo "bad".

Somtimes that stuff gets in my way - people who are illogical.

Especially my self when I allow people to tell me stupid arse stories about how they care about me and my safety; giving me anxiety instead of support.

I want to live life without fear - at all.

Not treat it.

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I have dreams about killing criminals in self defense.

And I enjoy it.

I get a high from it.

Sometimes if I am lucky - I will have a good nightmare where I get to torture an enemy for thinking they can hurt me and get away with it.

And it's the best high in the world.

One thing's for sure,
I never slay anyone in my "lucid" nightmares that are innocent.

Only in defense.

You know... It was never like that back when I was a toddler,
It was just all fear and slow motion and dying.

I couldn't save anyone or stand up for myself,
And when I got lucky and saved my self or my family and friends within these nightmares - I never enjoyed it,
I would wake up feeling sorry that I had to do such a thing.

And I know every killer move that I have dreamed about,
Some how my muscles remember the feelings from the dream and it becomes second nature in my waking life.

And to be honest - I don't know when the "enjoying" punishing the wicked - felt good,
But that's just how it is now.

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Anyways - I hope I don't concern anyone with this post...
I have great control over my anger and my actions.

I just bottle them up into a servitor within the universe of my mind,
A personality living on an identical earth within the universe of my mind.

It's task is to keep a connection to me,
It's "God",
And absorb my anger.

All I do is visualize its name in sigil form on my right arm,
I visualize it bright and I feel it as hot,
And it feels electrical for some reason while I get goose bumps.

It's mission is to absorb my anger when I call on it.

And this little psychological trick works for me.

But for goodness sake - I can't control any other feeling.

Especially "hate"...
My heart rate increases,
And a light will flicker,
My refrigerator will go nuts and make weird sounds,
My phone even comes alive and opens apps randomly and types randomly - all this at the same time,
Furthermore - my vision seems to get dark - like there is a transparent tint of darkness over my eyes.

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In real life I know I shouldn't do what I do in my dreams,
Even when I drink - I have courage yet I know I shouldn't do stupid things that will get me into trouble.
B.T.W. - I don't get to drink as often as I want,
It's every now and then - which friggin' sucks... Dx

I have a brain.
I don't need a soul. (-_-)

lol.

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Thanks to anyone who helps. ~

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Tech N9ne - Dysfunctional:

[Kami]

In order for you to destroy my soul/sun within the universe of my mind,
You need to enter through my third eye chakra,
And the only way you can do that is by entering my dreamality.

Once you are in my dreamality,
I want you to look up at my sky and see my sun/soul.

Destroy it,
You have my permission.

You might need a picture of me in order to dream of me in order to gain access to my mind.

Once you kill my soul,
Leave and message me when you wake up.

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When I am awake,
Living my life,
I might have to avoid sunlight - or not be exposed to it for too long,
Because the sun in this universe - the one y'all and I share - is God's Soul and God's soul will slowly give me a new one - and I don't want that.

This means I can't eat - because:
Food has sun energy in it,
And eating will speed up the process of attaining a new soul.

Soul = Sol/Sun. <---Remember that.

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I tried flooding all the dream characters within my dreamality that don't know they're my dream characters.
They think their reality isn't a dream world - but it is.

Anyways I became lucid and I remembered *for the second time* that I could do whatever I desired because I am the God of that world,
It is my body,
My brain,
My mind,
My universe,
My earth,
My people.

So don't tell me I am "evil" for that.

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I flooded them in this lucid dream.

*My heart is connected to the earth within the universe of my mind,
What I feel - is because of how they feel - the spirits or dream characters.*

But that didn't work,
Some of them survived.

So...
I'm not gonna flood them again.

*How do I know it didn't work?
Because I can still feel.
|
But it doesn't last as long - the feelings.
So that's a good sign.*

Instead - I am trying to kill my soul - their Sun.

Without a sun - they will surely die or turn into another form of creature.

And then after they are all dead or become creatures of darkness - I won't be able to feel anymore.

Good luck to any witches who can do this for me. ~

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I am tired of feeling pain,
I am tired of my broken heart,
It needs to end.

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Dear - "Peace",
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone...
Please come back home. ~

[Kami]

Also...
How would I shield myself from the prayers of caring Muslims and Christians?

I don't want them affecting this process. ~

[fraterai]

can i just have it? Do i have to destroy it? You won't miss it afterwards


kind of kidding and more curious as to why you are so certain about this, when others have found a huge value in trading it instead of destroying it. Im sure you can accomplish what you are looking for with this approach, no?

[Kami]

can i just have it? Do i have to destroy it? You won't miss it afterwards


kind of kidding and more curious as to why you are so certain about this, when others have found a huge value in trading it instead of destroying it. Im sure you can accomplish what you are looking for with this approach, no?

I just woke up.
Took a wolf nap.

Lol - Good one!

Hm...
I thought about that,
And I can't do that...

I just want it destroyed.

But be warned,
You might see some terrifying stuff...

[Kami]

This thread might confuse some people here because I had made a thread a while back in the help section that talked about what happens when your heart gets broken.

The TL;DR version of that thread is this:
When your heart gets broken,
The sun within the universe of your mind dies and turns into a blackhole.

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What's the difference between having a blackhole and not having a soul?

Well... Here is the diff.

The blackhole is still your (soul/emotional consciousnes) - but it has become demonized - it is now vampiric/demonic.

With a blackhole for a soul - you become more hungry,
More sensitive,
You might even become a psi-vamp,
E.T.C. - Needing soul/sol energy.

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Without a soul - you won't suffer because there will be no soul.

[fraterai]

I actually read that post as well which was partly why I chimed in. Can you elaborate why trading would be bad? This sounds verrrry similar to some stuff I've read some very hardcore vampire soul transformation/"trading" but never in the terms you are putting it, i.e. Destroying but it sounds almost exactly the same. Also I don't think I would be all that terrified! I am also wondering why you can't do this yourself? It might take a while longer I guess. Sorry not really direct questions but I think there are a few in there haha.

[Kami]

I actually read that post as well which was partly why I chimed in. Can you elaborate why trading would be bad? This sounds verrrry similar to some stuff I've read some very hardcore vampire soul transformation/"trading" but never in the terms you are putting it, i.e. Destroying but it sounds almost exactly the same. Also I don't think I would be all that terrified! I am also wondering why you can't do this yourself? It might take a while longer I guess. Sorry not really direct questions but I think there are a few in there haha.

Because - I dont know how,
I mean - I guess you could use this method to steal my soul - if you want.

Any other methods?

[cactusjack543]

gl i just recycle souls i have a voodoo dollstarting to give it rules who knows mabby on the planet....

[Kami]

Before reading,
Play this video:

And then continue reading...

(I hope y'all enjoy.)

Spoiler:

I take back what I said,
But allow me to elaborate:
Not all living things that have a mind - has a universe within it...

But most of us do.

What about blind people who are born blind?
What do they dream about?

We don't know and neither do they,
And if they do see something - they won't be able to describe it in terms we can understand.

We would need a dream recorder to see into their mind,
Which already exists,
But that technology is still in its infancy.

You can find the link to the video in one of my threads,
Or search youtube or google for it,
Else,
I.D.K. - You won't know it really does exist.

So...
What happens in the mind of a creature who was born blind?

There could very much be a very strange world,
Or...
It could just be darkness.

*The dream recorder might not be able to pick up a blind creature's thoughts because they have never seen anything in our world,
At best you might see on the screen - weird stuff,
Or nothing.*

And of course - accordig to the Christian Holy Bible,
God was also seeing darkness,
He was the darkness,
But when he visualized something - there was light,
His Spirit manifested his "will" and created a world.

That's probably what's going on in a blind creatures mind that was born that way.

*The soul never changes its form - it will always look like a sun - because that's what it is.
Within their mind - somehwere there is a sun/sol. Just like how living creatures have identical genetic structures,
The same happens spiritually - the soul will always look the same unless it dies and turns into a blackhole.*

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A mind that is thee God of that realm - doesn't particularly require that there be a universe similar to ours within it.

No.

It can just be whatever.

But that's the beauty of being immortal - and a God.

We just wont be lucky enough to experience biological immorality *yet* - we can only *so far* have the experience of being a non physical consciousness in order to know what it will be like when we do die - so that we can in fact remain immortal.

There are a few people around here who can actually leave their bodies.

Those will be the people who actually live on in this world - if they so choose to.

If they allow their blackhole chakra "after death" to swallow them after their consciousness is recreated from the remaining (6) chakras,
Then they will be *once again* enveloped by darkness,
And they will have two choices,
Know they are still there,
Or not know and remain curesed believing they don't exist anymore.

Once they understand they still exist,
They can build whatever they want like God did in the beginning,
E.T.C.

If they flee from their blackhole chakra/reaper,
They can remain here on earth with us.

They will most likely appear as an orb of energy - being almost any color.

Some people call these ghosts: "ball lightening,
Orb ufos, so on and so forth.",
But really they are ghosts.

That is there true form,
But they can appear to you as a person wearing clothes.

And...
They can get a new soul by getting sunlight everyday,
So they will probably live in the sky.

Every now and then they descend from the sky and become curious about the affairs of the earth.

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These beings can manipulate your dreams,
Feelings and thoughts.

Maybe even possess you by entering your stomach and attempting to control you from there.

You can see these beings in the sky if you have a infrared night vision camera that has a filter over it.

The requirement for having a filter is important because without it - you won't be able to see the infrared spectrum during the day - just a blinding white light.

If you have this setup,
Go outside look at the sky with it,
Look around,
You will see these ghosts.

They are invisible to the naked eye,
Unless they want to manifest into the visible spectrum of light.

If you can't find any,
Don't trip,
You're more likely to see one with your night vision camera and not a regular camera - at any time.

Also...
They hide a lot,
In the clouds,
E.T.C.

Well...

I hope I cleared things up. ~

[fraterai]

You are working a lot of stuff out and it is really cool I have had similar things to work out in my life - stay positive and trust in yourself.

About the blind thing, I was very very interested in this topic, and I think you should look at some videos of people having their sight restored.

Some people (born blind and then regained sight) have actually had a VERY difficult time of it. I remember one quote almost exactly - She spoke about when she was blind she didnt see black, but suggestions, beauty, and a "language" of her own. Now, with her sight, that language is like a long lost memory, and darkness really scares her.

Keep digging

[Kami]

Thank you so much for telling me that!
I could only imagine they saw something similar or better yet completely different from darkness.

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Anyways,
I have seen some videos of sight restoration on youtube,
The way they react is a beautiful thing to watch.

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Here is the youtube video regarding the dream recorder that I mentioned:

Just in case some of y'all didn't want to dig around and look for it. ~

[Kami]

"The cosmos is within us. We are made of star-stuff. We are a way for the universe to know itself."
- Carl Sagan

[Kami]

Okay so...

If how we "feel" is because of the dream characters that live on an earth within the universe of our mind,
Then what about the blind creatures who don't have the same setup?

Easy to answer,
We can feel regardless of them being there or not,
Our dream characters.

It can go both ways.

I mean - that is how we create our dreamality within our minds,
Through our thoughts and feelings/beliefs.

When you are not choosing to feel anything,
That's when you become aware of the feelings of your dream characters within the universe of your mind,
The entire earth within your mind,
Acts like a global consciousnes of emotion,
And you as their God - can feel that energy in your heart.

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That's confusing isn't it?

If we can still feel without us having dream characters living on an earth within the universe of our mind,
Then how will destroying my soul - make any difference?

I usually allow myself to feel numb,
And it doesn't last long because I am aware of how my inner life forms feel.

Without them - I could live my days numb for the rest of my life without them getting in the way.

They will always be continuously created by my unconscious that gets its instructions from my subconscious.

That's why I keep killing my dream characters with the excuse of defending myself,
The more I kill - the better I'll feel - as in: numb.

So I decided - I'm tired of doing all the work.

And that's why I asked if a witch or witches can destroy my soul. ~

[Kami]

This is how I combat most of my sicknesses.

When my immune system is being attacked,
I sleep and usually have a lucid dream,
And I look for the dream characters that are causing mischief.

Those are the germs attacking my system.

I neutralize them and then when I wake up - I feel better,
The sickness dies.

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The virus usually manifests itself in my dreamality as a creature or a human,
And they are usually doing evil things.

So that's how I find them.

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Not sure if this would work with cancer or aids,
E.T.C.

But it seems to work for any other illness I have tested this on.

[fraterai]

I like your posts, even if they are out there haha. Maybe it's our Cali bond.

I just want to offer a suggestion, no hard feelings (and no pun...). With such strong emotions (which I understand are a result of the astral part of yourself , not mental or physical) and strong dreaming skills, do you think those dream germs were ever the result of an outside influence to begin with? I am also a very emotional person. Very very much so. But one day I had an aha and realized they were just like the weather, my mental body is where I spend most of my time. If I can separate the two I have control. Although I'm not going for numb, but control. Meaning numb when needed and full bore when needed or being in the rain when I want and nice and dry when I want to be cozy

[Kami]

I like your posts, even if they are out there haha. Maybe it's our Cali bond.

I just want to offer a suggestion, no hard feelings (and no pun...). With such strong emotions (which I understand are a result of the astral part of yourself , not mental or physical) and strong dreaming skills, do you think those dream germs were ever the result of an outside influence to begin with? I am also a very emotional person. Very very much so. But one day I had an aha and realized they were just like the weather, my mental body is where I spend most of my time. If I can separate the two I have control. Although I'm not going for numb, but control. Meaning numb when needed and full bore when needed or being in the rain when I want and nice and dry when I want to be cozy

I agree.
We usually are the result of our environments.

But you are right I do have control over my feelings - But...
The smarter I become - so do some of my inner life forms.

So they feel stronger emotions than what I am feeling.

Especially when I try to be numb.

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The only methods I know how to overcome negative feelings are the following:
1.) Comedy; Banishing bad feelings with laughter.
2.) Killing the dream characters [responsible] within my dreamality; whether it is the origin of belief or illness.
3.) Witches entering my dreamality and killing my soul - which hasn't happened yet.

Anyways,
I think no one has tried this on me yet,
But maybe I am wrong because ever since I made this thread - I couldn't remember my dreams,
And there was sunlight - that much I remember - but... It wasn't as bright as it usually was,
It's more of a sunset light.

Which means that my belief that I don't have a soul has partially kicked in.

So only y'all can finish it off.

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Here is a song that always makes me laugh:

I hope the song doesn't bother anyone here. xD

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The reason why I think laughter works when it comes to banishing negative energy - is because when you laugh...
Your muscles shake - and usually - we feel anxeity in our muscles.

I thought I would test that theory.

So I got my back massager that vibrates and placed it on my left forearm muscle while I was feeling anxeity,
And the vibration worked!

While my muscle was being stimulated - it couldn't feel anxeity.

So now I know that much.

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Holding my breath til' I need to breath also works,
I think why it works is because my brain kicks into survival mode and says: "F* my feelings, I need air!".
But the moment I breath again - the anxiety comes back.

[fraterai]

I think i basically do what you do. But just to be more detailed, I try to really break it down. An emotion is basically in the astral. The anxiety you feel is the physical reaction, that is probably the most difficult to control having some automatic response built into it, but it really boils down to relaxation and will (which you are obviously trying to do with the breath - good, and the only way i can really think of doing it as well) and all of this stems from some thought that you had, be it from the inside or out. So really its all about thoughts, which I guess goes back to why you don't want your soul, to be all thought (but the emotions are useful! i promise!). But really, wholeheartedly, I know you can do this. This is step 1! You have to do this, and you can, and you will be able to. You just need to keep meditating.

"emotions are like waves! watch them disappear in the distance on the vast calm ocean"

I think this is more about how the laughter part works, although I am not downplaying the physical, muscular reaction. Laughter doesn't make sense except for the fact that every baby knows how to do it. All other emotions have opposites but laughter can mean anything from rage induced insanity to pure innocence. When we laugh we remember that we were a baby once, who was just nothing (or something?), and we remember our selves, the driving factor in all of this. The anxiety comes back because you didn't root out the thought that was causing the emotional response and thus your physical anxiety

[Kami]

I think i basically do what you do. But just to be more detailed, I try to really break it down. An emotion is basically in the astral. The anxiety you feel is the physical reaction, that is probably the most difficult to control having some automatic response built into it, but it really boils down to relaxation and will (which you are obviously trying to do with the breath - good, and the only way i can really think of doing it as well) and all of this stems from some thought that you had, be it from the inside or out. So really its all about thoughts, which I guess goes back to why you don't want your soul, to be all thought (but the emotions are useful! i promise!). But really, wholeheartedly, I know you can do this. This is step 1! You have to do this, and you can, and you will be able to. You just need to keep meditating.

"emotions are like waves! watch them disappear in the distance on the vast calm ocean"

I think this is more about how the laughter part works, although I am not downplaying the physical, muscular reaction. Laughter doesn't make sense except for the fact that every baby knows how to do it. All other emotions have opposites but laughter can mean anything from rage induced insanity to pure innocence. When we laugh we remember that we were a baby once, who was just nothing (or something?), and we remember our selves, the driving factor in all of this. The anxiety comes back because you didn't root out the thought that was causing the emotional response and thus your physical anxiety

Thank you for putting so much effort into helping me.

I can do this,
And I will.

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One thing that I used to do when I was little - is,
I would stare at my right hand for a minute - and think to myself: "I didn't exist... And now I do... There was darkness - and now I can see, Life is beautiful. ~",
And that would make feel appreciation towards life.

It is a wonderful feeling!

[Kami]

I take it back,
I can't do it.

Being "human" isn't for me,
I am terrible at it.

I need my soul destroyed.

I'm gonna have to do this on my own,
And if I find a way to do it successfully,
I'll post it here. ~

[Hoodedrat]

I'l give you some advice as somebody whose soul was very nearly was destroyed. I don't think you fully understand the cost of what losing such a fundamental part of yourself is like. I'm not trying to discourage you, I'm merely stating that the soul isn't merely your emotions. It's your drive, your muse.

Without your soul not only will you stop feeling but you'll become mired in apathy. It becomes very hard to care about anything much less have the aspiration to actually do anything. You will not feel pain yes but you won't feel happiness or any kind of positive emotion either.

How did I nearly destroy my soul you might ask? A gigantic amount of negative energy. If I remember correctly you read my post about dark empathy. Well this is how I know about it. I basically absorbed negative energy on a constant basis from those around me and kept it inside myself. I pushed myself to the brink of suicide countless times but always held back at the last moment for almost two years. I fed off of my own anxiety issues to essentially punish and self torture myself because I thought I deserved it.

When i was done I suffered from extreme apathy (and I mean extreme apathy) for roughly five more years after that. It too falling in love to rebuild my "soul" and even then it was a slow and laborious process. I still haven't fully recovered in some ways and I most likely never will. The "me" of my younger life is dead and gone.

Another risk factor involving this is dissasoiation. Your body's natural instinct when it comes upon emotional pain is to remove it from that pain. It's also very hard to relate to the rest of the world when you lack the emotional capacity to care. If you're going to do this do not expect it to bring you some form of happiness; you won't ever be happy again once you're done. But by the same token neither will you be sad.

To destroy your soul is to not only break yourself but become a pariah. Although people do not and will not understand your newfound attitude.

[fraterai]

I was waiting for the _new moon_ to pass to get back to K. How are you feeling?

[Kami]

I'l give you some advice as somebody whose soul was very nearly was destroyed. I don't think you fully understand the cost of what losing such a fundamental part of yourself is like. I'm not trying to discourage you, I'm merely stating that the soul isn't merely your emotions. It's your drive, your muse.

Without your soul not only will you stop feeling but you'll become mired in apathy. It becomes very hard to care about anything much less have the aspiration to actually do anything. You will not feel pain yes but you won't feel happiness or any kind of positive emotion either.

How did I nearly destroy my soul you might ask? A gigantic amount of negative energy. If I remember correctly you read my post about dark empathy. Well this is how I know about it. I basically absorbed negative energy on a constant basis from those around me and kept it inside myself. I pushed myself to the brink of suicide countless times but always held back at the last moment for almost two years. I fed off of my own anxiety issues to essentially punish and self torture myself because I thought I deserved it.

When i was done I suffered from extreme apathy (and I mean extreme apathy) for roughly five more years after that. It too falling in love to rebuild my "soul" and even then it was a slow and laborious process. I still haven't fully recovered in some ways and I most likely never will. The "me" of my younger life is dead and gone.

Another risk factor involving this is dissasoiation. Your body's natural instinct when it comes upon emotional pain is to remove it from that pain. It's also very hard to relate to the rest of the world when you lack the emotional capacity to care. If you're going to do this do not expect it to bring you some form of happiness; you won't ever be happy again once you're done. But by the same token neither will you be sad.

To destroy your soul is to not only break yourself but become a pariah. Although people do not and will not understand your newfound attitude.

Not to be a poo poo head or anything...
But... >.>
Um... <.<

According to Gregg Braden,
There are only two emotions: Love and Fear.
He said: "When we apply either Love or Fear to a thought,
It becomes a feeling in our heart."

Then I figured out the rest for my self.

My stomach is associated with my unconscious mind.
My heart is associated with my subconscious mind.
My brain is associated with my conscious mind.

What I meant by the soul is my emotional consciousness,
Is this: It gives life and light to the people living on the earth within the universe of my mind.

It allows them to feel happy,
It helps them feel love,
It gives them life.

Without my soul/sun,
They won't be alive - or at the least - a mutated creature.

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Happiness is subjective,
Not being able to feel at all,
IS happiness - for me.

Just like some people enjoy pain,
To them - that's their happiness.

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And I agree not a lot of people will understand me.

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But... Even without a soul - I can still choose to feel.
But my body will most likely not allow me to because it would be used to not feeling.

Like I said before - I can always get a new soul,
Sometimes it can be easy or hard - but doable. ~

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It's been proven by doctors that if a depressed person gets enough sunlight instead of wallowing in the dark,
It cures them of that depression.

Especially if they correctly.

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So you should probably get some sun/soul light and eat healthy,
If you want to have a soul again.

Also being around loving people also helps. ~

But... None of the above will work if you don't allow it,
There could be a traumatic experience that could be blocking that possibility.

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Anyways,
I know there are many ways to lose or destroy your soul,
You can do so by having a hard childhood - abuse and what not,
Or you can become a crazy killer,
E.T.C.

But my way - is nothing like that,
So it's much safer having witches destroy my soul,
Instead of letting life do it for me.

...

I told my auntie - if I ever - ever behave badly,
Force me to get sunlight no matter how much it hurt,
And trick me into eating again.

Then after a week of that - it should begin to work?
Growing a new soul within the universe of my mind.

You see... Our sun - God's soul - needs an energy source,
Gases - So on and so forth.

So if I eat - the universe within my mind will more gases to help grow a new one,
And jump start that process - I'll need to get sun/soul light.

...

I hope you don't perceive this reply as negative,
Because I can't tell whether it is or not right now.

I'm being numb and I don't feel any of my dream characters/spirits/people feeling in their hearts.

But just because one can't feel - doesn't mean they dumb,
They have a brain and the brain usually understands syntax.

I have enough memories to help guide me.

...

I guess what I am trying to say is: "People have different reactions to losing their soul."

...

So please don't worry,
I won't get in trouble,
That's a promise. ~

[Kami]

I was waiting for the _new moon_ to pass to get back to K. How are you feeling?

Well...

Before I woke up,
I was half waking up and I heard my self say: "NO SOUL!"...
And then I saw a bunch gook,
Like a bunch of rotting black muck in my mind.

I saw no sunlight all.

...

I hope it worked...

[Kami]

Damn. (-_-)

I made a bunch of errors in my two posts,
And I know why,
Because my virtual keyboard sucks,
And there is something going on with my dumb browser,
Everytime I use this post reply text editor,
It messes up my posts.

I'm tired of that,
So from now on I'm just going to use an offline notepad.

Does this happen to anyone else? (O_O)