Ritual of my own formulation

[Maeiv]

So I've been having a lot of trouble with money lately- Not having enough to show my friends and family that I love them etc. It's been eating at me so much lately that I tried to devise a ritual of my own as my magickal materials and ritual space are VERY subpar, nearly to the point of nonexistence. I think I had a good idea but of course I could be wrong, I haven't done something like this in a while.

Also, if this is embarrassingly awful, please at least try to tell me in a way that doesn't make me feel like an idiot! Thank you

So I was in bed writing in my journal. I decided to draw the symbol of Jupiter and color in the background in the appropriate colors, which I've been taught were Gold and Royal Blue/Purple? Well I didnt have Gold so I did the latter, drawing the symbol in purple and then coloring in the background in blue. I know the guidelines behind magickal intent and followed them, all the while truly believing I was doing magick with Jupiter. It took me about an hour and change to finish it. Afterward I took the piece of parchment paper I was using and flipped it over and took a second to really think about what was ailing me about money then I wrote it all down. As a few examples, it went like this;

I directly tie my social standing to my income
I fear my friends will hate me for not being able to reciprocate money
I am resentful of those who were dealt a 'better hand' at birth at moments
I feel guilt for not being able to give money to my loved ones

So on and so forth. After I filled the page I meditated on the symbol of jupiter and went to sleep. The next morning I burned the paper.

The idea behind the whole thing was to face my fears and anxieties in regards to money and then let them go by burning the paper

I got stupid high the next day and I started to think about my ritual and it rose a few questions.
If I write on the paper without doing any banishment does it not do anything? Does burning it handle that? Like I said I'm novice level so these things may seem obvious but are not so for me to the point of being embarrassed to ask dumb questions.

Should I have wrote positive things rather than the negatives? Did doing it the way I did make things worse?

If this sort of ritual works from a sort of textbook standpoint, what should I do differently if I wanted to do it again?

What can I do if my ritual theory is botched and I f'd myself doing it without asking for advice first?

Thank you for the read, everyone who came here to help. Any and all advice is greatly appreciated (Please keep in mind that my magickal materials and space is very limited at the moment) and please if I'm just an idiot and this is all stupid and none of it's even the slightest bit powerful please try and not be elitist about it! I know I'm seriously novice and want to change that!

[fraterai]

As much as many would lead you to believe, magic is not "black and white". You asked,

If I write on the paper without doing any banishment does it not do anything? Does burning it handle that?

I would like to ask you why do you think it would do nothing without banishing? "Banishing" is a concept that many occultists are trying to convey (their personal interpretation of) to you. How would Banishing, as you understand it, aid/hurt the ritual you performed? I have some ideas of my own but the main point of my post is to make you think so, I will leave it there.

Also, I would say that Jupiter is mostly about attracting/expanding and you focused mainly on ideas related to money that you seem to want to get rid of. In this sense I would say that it would be more beneficial to focus on the traditionally assigned "banishing" colors of Jupiter, which is Purple, so your "subconscious" decision here was a good one.

Lastly, realize that you can not work magic but through your core being, which includes your "higher" self (subjective interpretations apply here), which wants nothing but the best for you, and will protect (or perpetuate the advancement of) you at all costs. (Probably why you chose purple).

-AI

[Maeiv]

Thanks for the advice

The way it has been explained to me is that banishing is the dispelling of negative energies, which is what the whole exercise was for. I merely asked in regards to whether or not there were anything extra I could do in order to make the entire exercise more powerful in that sense.
Am I wrong?

[fraterai]

No. I think you understand what banishing is. Some systems are very adamant about a "formal" banishing before ANY magical ceremony. others regard this as an offense (usually more "spirit" driven systems). Some classify banishing/invoking as relative to the actual spell being performed, which is where i think you fall on the spectrum. Just because you did not LBRP does not mean your spell will fail. It depends on your view/approach towards magic. I think your overall ritual and symbolism were constructed with the proper correspondences. Hope this helped!

[Daremo]

as my magickal materials and ritual space are VERY subpar, nearly to the point of nonexistence.

I see this comes up frequently so i thought it may be worth mentioning that you do what you can with what you have. Don't worry about not having jewel encrusted wands or an altar made of gold. They are just tools to help us focus but entirely unnecessary to perform magick. Can they help, they sure can but people get to hung up on objects. Your improvisation was good, you used what you had and what you know. Dont wait for a perfect set up to practice and dont be embarrassed in your practice because its not being performed in some posh temple. The forces at play will know your circumstances and respect what your trying to do. Trust in and develope your personal strength.