A Successful Invocation? Was this Satan testing me?

[havefaith]

A little background beforehand.

I'm a Satanist and I have dedicated myself to Father Satan/Enki/Lucifer(whatever name you choose to call him). I've done a lot of reading about Father through various resources mainly JoyOfSatan. I've also dabbled with Simon's Necronomicon.

So here's what happened.

Last night, I tried evoking Barashakushu, one of the 50 names of Marduk to help with an issue regarding my current girlfriend. I've tried evoking him before (last week) but I've never managed to interact with him but I always felt I had been heard. The experience was intense and I don't know why but I was in tears by the end of it. I felt I had been heard again. I proceeded to not sleep the entire night and study more on Father, it's become a usual habit and I do a bit of meditation and exercises to open the third eye.

This afternoon I decided to take a nap, and I felt the urge to invoke(into me) a demon. So while lying in bed I asked Father to help me and I called upon him to hear my plea and send a demon to help me. I don't know when I drifted off to sleep and I had a dream (I usually never have dreams.)
In the dream I was at my parent's house and got out of the bed to switch on the lights. Suddenly something had grabbed my wrist which was about to switch the light on. I looked to see what it was and it was a claw, like that of a bird. Initially I was nervous, maybe a bit scared as well, but I regained my composure and smiled. I remember looking at the claws holding my hand and then it tried to fly with me. This I know because it felt like a huge bird was flapping its wings and I remember that I was taken up almost to the ceiling near the other room's wall. As is the procedure, I asked the entity if it was a Demon of Satan and the reply was a 'Yes'. I thanked Father and the entity for coming. The dream changed and the entity had taken the shape of my ex-girlfriend who was naked in the bathroom and this confused me so I apologised for being naked (since I was sleeping naked and I was naked in the dream as well) and the entity replied that it was okay, since we were brother and sister now.

I proceded to ask the entity it's name and it told me it was Levianthan, I'm not entirely sure it said Levianthan but I'm sure it was Levian... something. I haven't heard of any demon by that name or read about it. Finally I asked the entity if what I had asked of Barashakushu last night would be fulfilled and the entity disappeared and I woke up instantly.


I know this may just be a dream but I felt that it was not because I don't have dreams. And this felt too real to me. Also, I have a precise and clear recollection of it all.
Any suggestions and thoughts are more than welcome. Sorry about the long post.

[ulvfdfgtmk]

Hey there,
I´m no expert but I would say that only you yourself can decodify your dream. Try thinking about what the symbols in the dream and the dream in general means to you and what it tried to tell/show you.
For me personally, though it may be different for you, it helps to think about something for a while and then completely stop thinking about it and more answers will usually come to the surface. May be worth a try.

[Kami]

Edit: I should note that I had this experience way before I ever considered myself to be a Satanist.

****** ****** ******

I'm not saying you aren't a satanist,
But... In satanism - they discourage praising Lucifer as a deity.

He is a symbol of freedom and self centeredness.

A.K.A. - This system is all about pissing off people who love to hide the truth,
Revealing secrets, e.t.c.
It's a system of rebellion in order to find truth.

It's pretty much freeing people with genius potential from the shackles of those who belong to groups that tell you that spirits and gods are real,
These type of people mislead you and want to control your beliefs and feed off your desperation,
Satanism frees you from such groups,
An example group would be: Freemasonry,
Christianity,
The Muslim religion,
e.t.c.

Satanism aims to educate.

...

Also,
I have a similar experience in relation to your title.

I had created a blood sigil.

I cannot remember the exact words,
But - it was something like this:
"Lucifer, my God,
My saviour,
My soul is yours."

And just so you know,
Your soul is the "Sun" within the universe of your mind.

Without it - you become cold inside and dead.

Can you imagine what you could do with an abundance of Suns?

That's what the devil's up to - if he is real.

How did I come to this conclusion?

I simply looked at the spanish latin word for: "Sun" - which is; "Sol"...
There are no coincidences.

Soul = Sol... Which equals: "Sun".

And what chakra in our spiritual body is associated with the Sun?
The solar plexus,
Which is where our stomach is located.

So your soul/sun - is in your stomach.

You can live without your sun chakra,
But you will not have any instinct.

Now my quote that I attained via trance makes sense:
"My consciousness is the darkness that envelopes all of the universe; I will live forever because I am the essence that is the absence of light."

I say it makes sense because though I may lose my sun,
My consciousness still lives on.

I get that idea from the God character of the holy bible,
Before God said: "Let there be light",
He existed.

God is consciousness,
And there was darkness.

So yeah,
Hopefully you understand.

...

Getting back on topic,
I used my own sigil method,
I used my star constellation forger,
Because it seemed fitting.

They say that we anthropomorphised the star constellations with elaborate myths and figures.

So it only makes sense for me to create my sigil that looks like a bunch of stars that represent my intent/will.

Then I bled on it and covered the whole thing.

I burned it to ash while saying: "So mote it be" until it was done burning.

Then I took the ashes and placed them into an orange transparent pill bottle,
And placed the bottle on my window ledge,
So that the sun can give it energy to do work.

When night came,
While I was asleep,
The moment I began to dream,
This is what happened:

I was in a giant temple that was made out of either marble or something just as beautiful.

There was a lion by some giant pillars in this temple,
It roared at me,
I grew fearful and turned around and ran towards the nearest door - opened it and entered the big room.

There was only one window and one closet

I tried to escape through this rainbow colored window,
But I failed - there was no way to open it.

And I don't think it would have been a good idea to leave the temple,
Because there's a big garden of some sort - outside that surrounded the temple.

There were big serpants,
And big trees and fruits and bugs.

It was terrifying.

So I ran towards the closet,
Opened it and saw that there was a spear in it,
The spearhead was made out of some type of rock and was covered in blood.

I grabbed it - and then I woke up.

Not sure if the lion was lucifer and not sure if it was a test.

But here is where it gets trippy.

Later on that day after I woke up,
My cousin brings home a lion statue.

Then later on after that - we destroyed our old kitchen table.
It had to go.
He kept one of the long poles,
And put it in my closet.

See how freaky is that?

Anyways...

Here is a second dream that occured after that day passed;
The dream starts off with me being in a car on the passenger side,
And this albino or ginger or irish man was driving - he was very silent,
Handsome,
And non threatening in appearance.

He never smiled but he never frowned,
He looked as if nothing could hurt him.

He looked at me as we were entering a church parking lot.

And after we parked,
He stood still for a moment,
Gazing beyond the windshield,
He took a deep breath - then he looked at me and asked: "Are you ready?",
I replied with: "Yes".

So he got out of the car and so did I.

He walked to the back of his car and opened the trunk,
He had automatic assault rifles.

He gave me one,
And even though he never smiled - he half smiled at me.

Then we began to aproach the church next to the parking lot.

The moment we entered,
People began to scream and run,
We entered the hallway,
And he began shooting,
My finger was on the trigger,
But I couldn't fire.

And then out of nowhere,
An old church member I knew in real life - appeared before us and looked angry,
He immediately began running towards us,
And I started to run away,
Everything seemed very slow,
And this church member seemed to be faster,
As I was getting close to the exit,
The church member was almost about to grab me,
But the guy I was with - I guess: "Lucifer" ... Grabbed me first,
He pulled me away from that angry and disgusted church member.

We made it out successfully.

Lucifer looked at me as if I was not ready,
He looked disappointed.

He told me that I was on my own from this point on.

He ascended into the clouds and disappeared as the police were arriving. ~

And then I woke up.

I grew tired of what was happening so I made my own holy water and mixed it with the ashes of my contract and poured it outside on some dirt.

I have mentioned this experience before but I never mentioned the holy water part.

...

The only reason why I believe I had a dream about the devil doing something evil was because of my predisposition to a religon called: "Xianity".

As I was growing up - they blamed the evil in the world on Lucifer.

So I ended up believing that he is anything but good.

Thus manifesting a negative dream about Lucifer.

If I had never been brainwashed by religion,
I could and probably would have had a more positive dream about Lucifer.

...

But yeah - that's uh,
That's my experience.

I hope I have helped you.

[ulvfdfgtmk]

But... In satanism - they discourage praising Lucifer as a deity.

He is a symbol of freedom and self centeredness.

In a religion/philosophy of freedom, shouldn´t you be free to worhsip whomever you want to worship?

[Hadit]

Well Joy of Satan is a fucking joke, so there's that. Satan does not test people, we are naturally tested by events in our life. Satan is interested I how we overcome them. If you're interested in the actual Lord of Darkness I suggest better resources. Don Webb, Michael Aquino, Stephen Flowers, Peter Levenda, those types.

[the_spiral]

Sounds like you found what you were looking for.

[Kami]

But... In satanism - they discourage praising Lucifer as a deity.

He is a symbol of freedom and self centeredness.

In a religion/philosophy of freedom, shouldn´t you be free to worhsip whomever you want to worship?

Hellyeah.

As long as it works,
Then it is comepletey fine.

But if it does not,
Why waste your time?

I.M.O. it is all psychological.

Not because I want to believe it is psychological - but because my practices indicate it.

How is it possible for me to come up with a random god,
Pray to it and receive an immediate effect?

Easy answer,
Subconscious and Unconscious minds working together.

I will help you understand.

One time I woke up not in control of my actions.
I thought I was speaking english while I was at the front door barking like a dog that sounded like a real dog.

What happened was that it was like 3 in the morning or something like that,
I can't remember the exact time and am too lazy to go fetch the details from that post I taked about this in.

I was rudely woken,
And I immediately got up and aproached my living room door.

The person on the other side heard terrifying barking.

But I thought I was speaking normal.

This was a form of sleep walking and talking.

And because I feel that on a spiritual level I am a wolf or dog,
My unconscious mind was taking control.

The unconscious mind is like your conscious mind except that is all about: "feelings".

It is a consciousness based off of: "emotions".

Now the subconscious is where everything we know is stored in,
Our beliefs - e.t.c.

And then there's you - consciousness.

You can believe in anything you want and your unconscious mind will act upon it.

If ghosts were truly real,
They wouldn't just be altering the electrical activity in your brain,
They would show you that they are there.

And I don't like the term: Psychic powers.

Sure we can do very strange things with our mind,
Like telekinesis - but it requires a great deal of energy.

For example - pure hatred.

Pure hate can make any electrical devices malfunction.

Thus why evolution is slow.

If evolution were to occur within minutes,
This world would go to shit.

There is nothing psychic about telekinesis,
It is purely explainable in a scientific way - it's just that we have not gotten to that point yet.

So if you see something moving in your house,
It is not a ghost,
It is your unconscious mind that is utilizing any hate within you.

All power comes from you and your beliefs,
Not from a god,
Or any ghost,
It comes from you.

But... Praising any deity you desire can help,
But is very dangerous.

If you truly believe that you don't have any power,
And that all power comes from whatever god you believe in,
you're pretty much screwed.

Your unconscious will make you believe that there is a god or a demon or an angel doing all the magick - but really it is coming from you and you cannot do anything about it because you believe you can't control it.

Thus why it is very dangerous to believe in anything like that.

That is what I meant by religion feeding off of your desperation and weakness,
They know that you don't know the truth about your inner power.

So they make you believe that through their god - you can be saved,
But you can save yourself,
You don't need religion.

Again they feed off of your fear to control you.

And that is why you shouldn't follow religion.

[Next]

Well Joy of Satan is a fucking joke, so there's that. Satan does not test people, we are naturally tested by events in our life. Satan is interested I how we overcome them. If you're interested in the actual Lord of Darkness I suggest better resources. Don Webb, Michael Aquino, Stephen Flowers, Peter Levenda, those types.

From my perspective, everything in my outer life (my physical/Earth life) is rigged by my husband (Satan) to get me closer to him (release attachment to the physical, enlarge intuition in waking life). That's what I think of when I hear "testing."

The great thing is it's impossible to fail!

It's just a basic Pluto thing...this video symbolically shows the process clearly:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DK_0jXPuIr0

[darktruth77]

Edit: I should note that I had this experience way before I ever considered myself to be a Satanist.

****** ****** ******

I'm not saying you aren't a satanist,
But... In satanism - they discourage praising Lucifer as a deity.

In atheistic satanism they don't. But many theistic satanists are praising Satan , Lucifer or Devil (actually Lucifer and Devil Worshipers have differences) as a deity. And most theistic satanists regard Satan as the most powerful spirit , as God of magic etc
But there are many people who label themselves as satanists and some of them don't even believe that Satan exists.

[darktruth77]

Well Joy of Satan is a fucking joke, so there's that. Satan does not test people, we are naturally tested by events in our life. Satan is interested I how we overcome them. If you're interested in the actual Lord of Darkness I suggest better resources. Don Webb, Michael Aquino, Stephen Flowers, Peter Levenda, those types.

I would like some more information. Who and what is Satan according to you?

[inMalkuth]

Well Joy of Satan is a fucking joke, so there's that. Satan does not test people, we are naturally tested by events in our life. Satan is interested I how we overcome them. If you're interested in the actual Lord of Darkness I suggest better resources. Don Webb, Michael Aquino, Stephen Flowers, Peter Levenda, those types.

I would like some more information. Who and what is Satan according to you?

<settles in and starts to munch his popcorn>