OneOfFourth wrote: ↑Wed Aug 04, 2021 3:43 pm
The reason I'm not keen on using tools is because I'm convinced that everything you can do "magickally" comes from your own mind/subconscious or is interaction with spirits (again made possible by your mind alone). This includes spells, rituals, sigils, physical magick tools, etc. I like to always say to myself "everything is a sigil". To me sigil/magick tool/everything is just a way to activate your subconscious. In my opinion those tools are direct equivalent to quick access key combination / hotkey in computer software. I.e. you click CTRL-V on your keyboard and something gets pasted on screen. Sigils are the same in my opinion: you have created a trigger for your subconscious and the subconscious knows exactly what kind of complex action to perform when you activate that specific trigger.
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This in turn means that you can create unlimited amount of "mental sigils" for yourself, which allows you to create all kinds of effects on a whim, whenever you might need them. No more spending minutes/hours preparing a spell. Just embed the "mental sigil" into your subconsicous with visualization and repetition and you should be good to go.
I do find that I kinda keep a "mental library of 'frames of mind' or consciousness states". As well as a memory of uh, energy signatures would be one way to term it. Actually I keep a mental library of a lot of aspects to working with things.
That I don't use tools in magic isn't necessarily a slight against tools, I think I just lean that way in general with mental tasks. I rarely use a grocery list, and I got to calculus 1 before I "had" to write out my work to keep track of wtf I was doing. I even had an algebra teacher try to flunk me in HS because i didn't write out my work, so in his mind I must have copied my answers. But I pointed out that some of the questions I got right nobody else got right, and he backed off. In a video game called Kerbal Space Program, you design & build spacecraft, and then fly them on various missions in the solar system. It has the tools in the game to carefully calculate everything, so you can end up where you intend to. But I never use the calculations, I just "eyeball it", and it works remarkably well for me, even though it should by all rights be a total disaster doing it that way. Granted it's a video game, there's no millions of dollars or lives on the line. But if I was ever on a spacecraft with broken comms and no computer, i'd actually be in pretty good shape. I guess I don't play the game right, but I more approach it as exercise for my intuitive sense of physics, and enjoy the creative vehicle craftsmanship. Also I don't really understand how people become lost. Not knowing how to get to a desired location (given unknown terrain obstacles) is one thing, but how can someone not know where they are?
TL/DR: i habitually use the wrong tools or no tools, and file-13 the manual as soon as i open a box, not just with magical practice.
But I'm definitely keeping track of variables, states of mind, of consciousness, vibrations, relationships, experiences, ways & means, properties, the feel of things, methodology, models of concept, even multiple conflicting models of concept on the same topic, etc.
Meticulously so.
And often I'm carefully looking for the sort of point at which a series of ideas or facts sort of meld together into an intuitive feel for the larger subject matter, allowing for rapid and intuitively keen reaction times. Sort of the point at which knowledge coalesces into art. Sort of building Escher-like sensibilities up and into Expressionism. Something said by an artist once comes to mind "learn all the rules carefully, so you know how to break them elegantly"