I'm Yeevilewoman and I'm a chaos magick practitioner

[Yeevilewoman]

Hi everyone
First and foremost it's so nice to be able to join this forum and connect with like minded people in the occult. I've been a practitioner for over 17 years and my craft is always evolving and ever learning. I'm looking forward to acquiring new knowledge and sharing my knowledge that I have gained. When my craft really started to go into hyperdrive was over 3 years ago at the mist of a death curse which I indeed paid a heavy price as a result. Although I do believe if curses or hexes are justified it doesn't come back on you. However when it comes to death curses my experience that is an entirely different thing. When you do a death curse and it works you are messing with the natural order of things and cutting something short you should of never meddled with at all. Moreover, you could say my actions were justified and my back was against the wall. Truly, it is really how you look at it but with these types of curse will tell in my experience there is always a price to pay there is no justification and right or wrong. This is really where the eye for an eye comes into play.. However, My back was against the wall in this very moment and I had done this curse as a last stitch effort to turn the tables on the individual was and had been causing immense harm to me leading to a crossroad of it was either me or him. I had channeled all my emotions and intention into the spell in that moment my judgement on what I was actually doing was extremely clouded. In result the very next day everything flipped on the repecient of the curse that I had inflicted upon him. 3 months later he passed away and as a result I lost on of my two familiars my bearded dragon The lizard of Oz. I do believe she was murdered by my exes ex which is something I can't prove I've always been suspicious of due to some of the surrounding circumstances. This is not something I would wish upon my worst enemy and when it comes to cursing or hexing I use a lot of discretion now. The price ripped the thing I loved most in the world and left me completely hollow. If it wasn't for the signs that she left me after passing I don't think I would be here and her work as a familiar truly began after her transition from the physical into the spiritual. In the moment of paying that price Oz had bigger plans for me she left the blue prints to find her again. In my darkest hour I really leaned into tuning into my spiritual abilities channeling energy my intuition and looking for the signs all around me. She is the reason I'm where I am today and was the strength that I used as crutch till I could find my own ability to stand again. The hollowness allowed me to reprogram my vessel expand it and truly spiritually awaken. However, the pain and suffering caused by this price had me contemplating ending it all many times. This is why today I spend my time trying to help others in the occult to avoid the same mistake I made and to help share knowledge with others. I'm very happy to be here. Today I am a whole and a testament that mistakes can forge you into what and who you are today. I like to thank always the entities I currently work with and the ones who I have worked with for helping me get to this point. They are all very special to me and have helped me work through my darkness and face my shadow. Today I'm a very different individual because of the work I put in to face my "demons". Ave Vepar, Ave Leviathan, Ave Belial, and Hail Hekate you all have been the friends and best teachers I could ever have asked for. I like to also thank my watcher you were the first entity that truly understood me and I could always rely on in my darkest moments. Thank you my beloved Lizard of Oz for showing me that you never left my side and that our bond could overcome death itself. Last but not least My other familiar who is still here you stayed by side through all of this and I love you to the moon and back. You all taught me that I'm divine and the creator of my own reality and lead me to rising from the ashes as the Phoenix I am. That I am a force to reckoned with and to embrace my Spiritual journey. This is my part of my story and I'm happy to be apart of this forum. My question to you all is has anyone had any similar experiences?
Yeevilewoman

[Amor]

Welcome

A few people approach me with more extreme difficulties. Mostly the attacking humans are driven by dark entities that in turn are driven by darker entities.

The attacked people can use light from their heart to change the situation - giving heart light to the adverse human and then to the immediate dark sponsor.

Sometimes the dark sponsor is too afraid of its supervisor who in turn is too afraid of its supervisor. If you go up enough levels you will find a supervisor that wishes not to be disposable, and will withdraw the dark interference from the target human.

In my experience the adverse humans are used as disposable instruments by the dark forces. Sorting out the supervisors usually results in a major change in relationship between the relevant humans.

There are some posts by me on the use of heart light

As a philosophical note: spiritual beings posted into Earth humanity to assist, are usually required to come up to speed as fast as possible. Adverse interference is a major incentive to activate spiritual authority.

[Amor]

Would you like to explain Yeevile?