I've read the Liber Null, and i'm starting to implement the very basics in my routine, this being: Meditating and keeping a journal of my progress. In this journal I record what i feel during my meditation sessions and i try to record what i can remember from dreams.
My first attempt at meditation was laughable, but after some tries i've managed to keep an effort for aprox. an hour. In this experience i think i approached something. I'm doing this with my eyes closed, sited on a comfy chair whith my back straight (i tought it was worth noting).
During this last session, I had two distinct and very strong sensations, first i felt that my body was distorting (like it was viscous) to a point I felt like I was sideways. I also felt a pressure around my head (like a hat) and between my eyes. At some point, i was focusing my attention to my body and my arms, when suddenly i visualize my left arm as a snake for an instant, it was a quick but strange sensation. Besides this, i still get a lot of random toughts during my meditation, and when i try to form a shape with my mind the shape is too chaotic, it spins, changes form, zooms in and out... Can't manage to get it still.
The other note that i have is about a dream. When i woke up i remembered it very vaguely, I was trying to put out a fire that was inextinguishable. Coincidently, I know that fire and the snake or serpent are related to the Kundalini. I want to know more about this topic, can someone sugest my something to read relatad to this?
I know that I need more time to take my conclusions, but what do you think of my approach so far?
I'm not sure if I'm choosing the right words, as english is not my native language. But I hope I can make myself understood.
The first steps.
Re: The first steps.
Your approach so far seems to be getting results, so you are obviously doing something right. I doubt you will ever completely cast out randomized thought patterns. I have been practicing meditation for about 2 years now and I still can have problems with it. Because, to me, meditation is more about being able to bring yourself back to awareness rather than "shedding/blocking thoughts from entering the mind." If your thoughts stray don't worry about it or even think to yourself "Damn, i lost concentration again...", just focus on bringing yourself back to awareness and let these thoughts just drift away and don't pay any attention to them. If you slip up, it's no big deal. You are doing well. As far as Kundalini, there are many sources as far as what it actually is, but as far as I am concerned, Kundalini is energy which is typically symbolized as a coiled snake lying coiled at the base of the spine. This energy, when awakened rises through the Chakras and will help reach a higher state of conciousness. When practiced through Kundalini Yoga, you will develop the Kundalini energy and learn how to utilize it in various ways that will aid you on your path. Hope some of this helps or makes sense to you.