When I was a youngster,
I had gotten into the ways of the occult and had gathered information about scrying into black reflections to see what lives within my mind.
So one day,
At my grandpa's - *when he was still alive* - I had sat down in front of this big tube tv,
And while it was turned off,
I had stared into it and focused on my reflection until my mind had entered a trance,
And then slowly - my hair turned to fire,
And my face shape shifted into a more toned one,
And my eyes...
Both my eyes were all black,
They were filled with darkness.
I am a terrible artist... but I did my best to try and visually illustrate to y'all what I had seen,
So here it is:
Spoiler:
1.) Ever since I was a toddler; I have always had nightmares with no light in them, just darkness, all the time, rarely do I ever have a dream with the sun it.
2.) My name: "Robert" means "Bright", and my last name means: "Dark"; which is where I got the idea to call my self: Akihiro Kurokami.
3.) Whenever I hold my breath until I need to breath; any anxiety I was feeling - vanishes, only until I breath again ... does all my emotional pain come rushing back into the area of my chest.
4.) I call myself a: "Senseless Peacemaker".
5.) Whenever I am in the midst of fainting or passing out; I feel a hotness on top of my head, and then after the entire area on top of my head is covered by a hotness, my eyes become engulfed by a hotness as well, and after the hotness covers my eyes... darkness quickly comes - and my vision fades away into darkness.
6.) One time when I was smoking weed,
I had accidentally deprived my brain of oxygen - so I got dizzy while I was standing up - and the very moment I felt heat engulfing the top of my head that was slowly pervading its way into my eyes, something took over my body and flooded my entire body with chi, my body activated my "surging" ability all on its own - as I was passing out into darkness; and when I had seen the darkness coming quickly - my body had hastily crouched down into a frog like position, and by then - the rest of my perception was swallowed by a sea of darkness, and instead of not being able to be aware - where I should not even be conscious - here comes a twist... I WAS conscious and VERY aware of what I had seen and was experiencing... I was surrounded by darkness - and within that darkness was what looked like the static fuzz/snow that you see on a tube tv that has no antenna attached to it, and within all of that - I could see and feel "heat" all around me, ... now - while I was in there for about 3-4 seconds, I had no clue who I was or where I was at, and I was very angry and filled with so much hatred, and after 3-4 seconds had passed - I was coming back to the consciousness of my body and I caught myself: "growling"... from which I stopped after I was fully back in control.
7.) One time - I was high on weed and I had accidentally fell into a trance, and my entire face felt hot and while that was happening ... I caught myself speaking some strange gibberish: "Chuma chama chama chama, Chichuma." - *which translates to* - "Earned the party members, Gather the grapes.", Google recognized the gibberish I had spoke and revealed it as: "Swahili".
8.) One time - when someone came to my front door and knocked on it, that had woke me up and when I was rudely woken up, for some strange reason - I was not in control of my body... something angry took over and began barking like a vicious dog, and then I snapped out of it as I came back to a more clearer state of mind; the person I was barking at said they could not distinguish the difference between my barking (and) the barking of a dog.
9.) Whenever I feel pure hatred in my heart: weird things start to happen, things move on their own, my phone behaves strange and any light source that I am near... flickers.
10.) Sometimes I lose time, for example: if it is 3:00 am and it just turns 3:01 am... if I look away for just a few seconds and then look back... the time says 3:04 am.
11.) I figured out that I could shock people with my surging ability; through the flow of my chi, but I still need to figure out how to do that all the time, for now I need a teacher to help me utilize that power.
12.) I don't like the light that much, unless I need it for something...
13.) When I was little... one time when I was watching cartoons in my room, I was laying on the floor and I felt something being written on my left forearm, a sticky residue had taken form on my left forearm that spelled out: SOUL.
14.) Sometimes I have visions about bad things that are about to happen, or visions about bad people, and so far... I have had several of them, and they are rare.
15.) Sometimes I am visited by my deceased mother in my dreams when I am having a vision.
17.) Through meditation, I can feel spiritual energies.
18.) I theorize about reality a whole lot, and I love doing so.
19. I have summoned something before, and it came to me in a dream and tested me to see if I was worthy of its assistance.
20.) I had successfully performed telekinesis - but only during the last eclipse we had.
19.) I had a vision about red orb UFOs in the night sky when I was a preteen.
20.) And just recently last year - I had a dream about the same red UFO orbs in the sky above me, and they spoke to me telepathically and told me to use my star constellation forger to decrypt their positions.
21.) I have ever only had 3 lucid dreams.
22.) When I was just a kid, something had inspired me to cut off the blood flow to my eyes, and when I did so - my vision shifted from seeing through my eyes - to... seeing what you see on a tube tv that has no antenna attached; snow/static, ... and within all of that static energy - an eye manifested in the center of my field of vision - and this is what it looked like:
Spoiler:
To do this... all I had to do was apply pressure to the left and right peripheral hemispheres of my my left and right eyes using the tips of both my index fingers - in deep by half a centimeter - for 1 minute and 30 seconds.
23.) One time... I fell into a trance and whenever I looked at someone's face - I could hear their voice in my head.
24.) When I was a preteen, whenever I got super mad and was filled with hate, my finger tips grew hot and smelled like sulfur.
25.) All my life whenever I wanted something bad enough, it came to be.
...
Okay,
Now I will put all that together and see what arises:
There is a "spirit" within me that has fire for hair,
Dark eyes,
And a toned face.
This being's name is: Akihiro Kurokami,
Akihiro means "light" - probably for the fire of this being's hair,
Kurokami means "black god" - probably for representing this being's dark eyes.
This being is a senseless peacemaker,
Senseless - because it can only be perceived through a trance,
And a peacemaker - because it has a beautiful mind.
I think that when I am passing out,
When I feel the heat manifest on top of my head; I am probably feeling the fiery hair of this spiritual being within me,
And when my vision fades to darkness; perhaps that darkness represents the perception of this being's dark eyes.
...So,
To summarize,
I got a demon in me:
A green within me:
My cousin was listening to this song by (T.9.),
And it seems fitting for this story,
Don't y'all agree?
Tech N9ne - M.M.M. My mental's made of michael myers mask:
Spoiler:
(Who) Wanna see this simple psycho sire spaz?
(Please Don't) Light yo lighters last.
('Cause This) Frightful fires fast:
This "spirit",
Can:
A.) Speak Swahili.
B.) Growl & Bark.
C.) Take Control Over My Nervous System.
D.) Move things with its mind.
E.) Read people's minds.
F.) Utilize moon and sun energy.
G.) See the future.
H.) Teach Things.
I.) Surge/Shock people with its chi energy.
This "spirit",
J.) Hates the light.
K.) Smells like sulfur.
L.) Does things for me.
