Original post: Parsifal
Hello. I like the new look, much love to the OF community.
Id like to throw some things out here, feedback is the goal, and any will be appreciated, in whatever form it may take.
My first problem is something Im ashamed of, although I take responsibility for my thoughts. Basically the very thoughts that I most despise arise and its extremely disturbing. I know the power and energy contained in thoughts, and have been trying to train myself/mind to project positive, but I feel as though like in a cartoon there is a black cloud over my head and I find I want out of any given social situation including close friends, family, or public in general, if for nothing more than to not taint others with my 'cloud'. I have thought of hypnotherapy and other things, and might still go that route, though asking for help is not my strongpoint.
Secondly, because of certain past acts and lack of action, my confidence level is low, my mood more-less dark. I feel almost like Ive missed the boat, this relates to 'crucifixion' , like I have not bitten the bullet, properly atoned , 'sacrificed' in any proper sense as it relates symbolically/metaphysically, and the load is a heavy one.
The number 333 has invariably come up alot lately, and as well I have irrational fears that I try and face, though the source of them is illusive and a constant battle to remain focused. Im going to look at the 'Book of Lies' after posting this again. Ego death?
I realize one thing leads to another and many misguided choices have lead me to here, but I genuinely want to escape (mental prison), find peace of mind, 'awaken', be crucified or whathaveyou. What would be the best ways fo going about this?
I have alot of respect for the collective & individual character and wisdom that exists in this forum. Im not looking for easy answers, that search is over.
One Love, much Respect.
Im not sure if this post is in the right place, (I know you will) feel free to move it where you like.
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Original post: Fr. Qim
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
The only thing I can do for you Parsifal is give you the law that has granted me freedom, and tell you where to look for your next step. I am a Thelemite. The law of Thelema, which you are most likely familar with, is printed in my signature and I have opened and closed this letter with it in the traditional manner. If you wish to investigate further I recommend reading "The Law is for All," this is the only authorized commentary. Blessings of the all begetter all devourer be upon you.
Love is the law, love under will.
Fr. Qim
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
The only thing I can do for you Parsifal is give you the law that has granted me freedom, and tell you where to look for your next step. I am a Thelemite. The law of Thelema, which you are most likely familar with, is printed in my signature and I have opened and closed this letter with it in the traditional manner. If you wish to investigate further I recommend reading "The Law is for All," this is the only authorized commentary. Blessings of the all begetter all devourer be upon you.
Love is the law, love under will.
Fr. Qim
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Original post: Wiseone
well parsial im a psychic and all i can tell you is if your familiar with psionics or something similar try making a sheild that absorbs your negative energies as well as try to ground out the negatives from you.
well parsial im a psychic and all i can tell you is if your familiar with psionics or something similar try making a sheild that absorbs your negative energies as well as try to ground out the negatives from you.
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Original post: Horus
I recommend learning self-hypnosis... especially if you don't currently meditate, because for one in the learning process you will learn to control these pesky thoughts, to give yourself positive suggestions that will help with the rest of them, and also, regardless of what anyone may say, a hypnotic trance is a magickal trance. Secondly, I find that when this happens to me it is often due of me trying to forcefully subdue my thoughts, which you cannot do. The mind will revolt. It is designed to flow from one thought to another, any attempt to bar it from doing so (until I certain point) will only cause it to try to launch into another thought to get you back into the process of thinking, and it can be absolutely ruthless in doing so. It is best to acknowledge the thoughts, and gently guide the mind back. After a while of doing this as a meditative process you will gain more control over the flow of your thoughts in normal situations and eventually your entire thought process itself. The key is to be gentle.
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I see a lot of 333s too
I recommend learning self-hypnosis... especially if you don't currently meditate, because for one in the learning process you will learn to control these pesky thoughts, to give yourself positive suggestions that will help with the rest of them, and also, regardless of what anyone may say, a hypnotic trance is a magickal trance. Secondly, I find that when this happens to me it is often due of me trying to forcefully subdue my thoughts, which you cannot do. The mind will revolt. It is designed to flow from one thought to another, any attempt to bar it from doing so (until I certain point) will only cause it to try to launch into another thought to get you back into the process of thinking, and it can be absolutely ruthless in doing so. It is best to acknowledge the thoughts, and gently guide the mind back. After a while of doing this as a meditative process you will gain more control over the flow of your thoughts in normal situations and eventually your entire thought process itself. The key is to be gentle.
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I see a lot of 333s too
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Original post: Parsifal
Thanks. all good advice. A matter of habits long formed, needing to be broken. and others maybe needing to be started. discipline of will, fine tuning. Thanks again, the nature of my post was maybe overly personal, but I felt the need to get it out, and what better a forum to do so than this. thanks again. ~*
Thanks. all good advice. A matter of habits long formed, needing to be broken. and others maybe needing to be started. discipline of will, fine tuning. Thanks again, the nature of my post was maybe overly personal, but I felt the need to get it out, and what better a forum to do so than this. thanks again. ~*
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Original post: Frater Manjet
Another method would be through the Enochian Aethyrs. It would be a difficult an arduous journey as you would first have to learn the system to employ it. Since you said you weren't looking for easy answers I will post my suggestion.
The journey through BAG is one where you confront such inner conflicts. LIXIPSP "the black mirror" and warden of BAG is who you will confront. LIXIPSP's primary weapon ( for lack of a better term ) is that of reflecting you back against yourself in a way. This trial is not an easy one and requires a great amount of preperation such as prior exploration of TEX and RII.
I failed my first attempt for lack of real preperation and it cost me dearly. My most recent victory there was however a very joyous working. LIXIPSP is now an ally not an adversary. I return every now and again for assistance in this regard.
This operation will not remove the issues; but it will give you strength to face and deal with them. It allows a more objective introspection and avails much in the way of deeper understandings of the underlying causes. It can also provide great insight in how best to overcome the various challenges you can now see more clearly.
It is a means not the end.
"Laiad Holq Ta Napea Des Praf BAG" Om A Piap (210/3)
Another method would be through the Enochian Aethyrs. It would be a difficult an arduous journey as you would first have to learn the system to employ it. Since you said you weren't looking for easy answers I will post my suggestion.
The journey through BAG is one where you confront such inner conflicts. LIXIPSP "the black mirror" and warden of BAG is who you will confront. LIXIPSP's primary weapon ( for lack of a better term ) is that of reflecting you back against yourself in a way. This trial is not an easy one and requires a great amount of preperation such as prior exploration of TEX and RII.
I failed my first attempt for lack of real preperation and it cost me dearly. My most recent victory there was however a very joyous working. LIXIPSP is now an ally not an adversary. I return every now and again for assistance in this regard.
This operation will not remove the issues; but it will give you strength to face and deal with them. It allows a more objective introspection and avails much in the way of deeper understandings of the underlying causes. It can also provide great insight in how best to overcome the various challenges you can now see more clearly.
It is a means not the end.
"Laiad Holq Ta Napea Des Praf BAG" Om A Piap (210/3)
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Original post: Fr. Qim
[QUOTE=Frater Manjet] My most recent victory there was however a very joyous working. LIXIPSP is now an ally not an adversary. [/QUOTE]
Congratulations brother
I rejoice in my heart at your victory.
[QUOTE=Frater Manjet] My most recent victory there was however a very joyous working. LIXIPSP is now an ally not an adversary. [/QUOTE]
Congratulations brother
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Original post: Fr.NovumOrganum
The Number 333 is often associated with chronozon. While I am NOT suggesting you confron this entity (unless you are far on your path and feel yourself at the verge of the abyss where he dwells), this can give you some sense of your problem. Chronozon is dispersion and formless purposeless chaos (NOT Kaos). Your relationg how 'thoughts' just arise sounds to me like the working of chronozon.
The Number 333 is often associated with chronozon. While I am NOT suggesting you confron this entity (unless you are far on your path and feel yourself at the verge of the abyss where he dwells), this can give you some sense of your problem. Chronozon is dispersion and formless purposeless chaos (NOT Kaos). Your relationg how 'thoughts' just arise sounds to me like the working of chronozon.
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Original post: Parsifal
interesting. I have been interested in Enochian magick, though I have no other magickal experience at all, I have still yet to attempt a LBRP. However, I have alot of material from Ben Rowe relating to the area, and may give it a go here soon.
Choronzon I have heard of and am also familiar with the fact that the number 333 is associated with, though where exactly upon the path I am I could not say, except to say it feels as though Ive been stuck here awhile and battle with anxiety and depression daily, though that is of my own doing, or "karma" but I hate that word.
One more thing Ive considered is that I recently moved to a city where I have lived before, and just like the previous time , it has felt like entering into a mental/emotional battle-zone.
Im no fan of looking for scapegoats though.
Peace.
One more thing, anyone with any insight into the hanged man/crucifixion archetype/symbol please share. Thanks.
I really dont like soliciting like this, ultimately it is me and no-one else who can provide the 'answers'. I choose to believe adversity exists to be overcome, sooner or later. Hope must be kept alive at all costs. Amen.
interesting. I have been interested in Enochian magick, though I have no other magickal experience at all, I have still yet to attempt a LBRP. However, I have alot of material from Ben Rowe relating to the area, and may give it a go here soon.
Choronzon I have heard of and am also familiar with the fact that the number 333 is associated with, though where exactly upon the path I am I could not say, except to say it feels as though Ive been stuck here awhile and battle with anxiety and depression daily, though that is of my own doing, or "karma" but I hate that word.
One more thing Ive considered is that I recently moved to a city where I have lived before, and just like the previous time , it has felt like entering into a mental/emotional battle-zone.
Im no fan of looking for scapegoats though.
Peace.
One more thing, anyone with any insight into the hanged man/crucifixion archetype/symbol please share. Thanks.
I really dont like soliciting like this, ultimately it is me and no-one else who can provide the 'answers'. I choose to believe adversity exists to be overcome, sooner or later. Hope must be kept alive at all costs. Amen.
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Original post: Albino Crow
[QUOTE=Parsifal]I really dont like soliciting like this, ultimately it is me and no-one else who can provide the 'answers'. I choose to believe adversity exists to be overcome, sooner or later. Hope must be kept alive at all costs. Amen.[/QUOTE]
Like many of us, you're a spiritual warrior. You will prevail, one way or another.
[QUOTE=Parsifal]I really dont like soliciting like this, ultimately it is me and no-one else who can provide the 'answers'. I choose to believe adversity exists to be overcome, sooner or later. Hope must be kept alive at all costs. Amen.[/QUOTE]
Like many of us, you're a spiritual warrior. You will prevail, one way or another.