Haelos wrote:Like I said in a previous post, there comes a point where knowledge is pointless without practical application. I don't see you (cyberdemon) as being a person who's intent is to dedicate their life to those without one. So in all honesty, and please do not think I mean any offense by this, these books just aren't for you.
I'm not saying you won't learn from them, nor that they can't offer you insight. I'm saying they're specific books written for a specific goal, and from my (albeit limited) understanding of you, they are not within your scope of interest.
I'm not trying to dissuade you from reading them, however. In fact, I love being proven wrong. If you were to take up acting as a soul-guide, I would be greatly enthralled.
there was a nice trilogy by garth nix back in the day, the main character was an "abhorsen" who is basically a soul-guide. he or she used a set of 9 bells to help ferry souls across 9 gates-of-hell through a river-styx sort of multi-plane-transversing river, and in real life those 9 bells had magic effects. oh and the real life also had a wall up north and other fun things that i think g.r.r.martin ripped off for game of thrones. fun read.
but being in the medical field, i'll have to be doing plenty of the opposite of sending souls off. i already know i'm not going to have fun because i kind of have a sort of nihilistic view of humanity at the moment so i'll probably stick to pediatrics or general medicine or something less "i'm going to put a lightning rod in your heart to make it beat a few hundred thousand extra beats" pacemaker cardiology.
Haelos wrote:Look past the seemingly-plain English of the books you've read so far and dig for the mysteries they hide. Learn some Kabbalah and apply it to what you already know of your occult practice.
I wouldn't have said this a few years ago, but understanding the Sefirot from a *practical* point of view (especially how they relate to one another and the universe/reality) is one of the most important stepping stones for any true magician.
so you're saying kabbalah is a good route to head into.
see, here's my problem. from a chaos magick standpoint, i'm open to reading anything and everything. after going through BCM and IIH very fast early last year i haven't actually bothered going through any of the other "standard texts" in favour of continuing looking for magick practices in current times that "actual" people are using and their theories and understandings. i've always had a sort of "uh no thanks" sort of attitude towards a practice-makes-perfect magick discipline since even at my entry into magick was i completely effective in all the ways without me ever havinga any training on anything before. like, i only read BCM and IIH to get the practical things out of them, to learn methodology and its physics and only the very basics of the underlying philosophy. i'd rather form my own set of philosophies instead of learning and following someone else's, especially another magician's, given we work in such close quarters with "the great beyond".
and i've reason to have that sort of skepticism, i mean, if i didn't stumble across here i would've allowed JoS doctrination, mainstream conspiracy theories and etc to have messed up my belief systems for life.
i mean its already enough that i doubt the shape of the earth.
therefore, people here's ideas and understandings have far greater relevance to me than old/texts from people i've never talked to in any way.
Haelos wrote:I'm just saying. If you're having an existential crisis, you just aren't reading (well) enough. By mixing Bardons three books with everything else that I've stumbled upon in my life, I've found almost nothing that I can't assimilate into my knowledge of reality. There are no such things as "paradigms" when it comes to magick or life. Only a limited and ever-growing understanding.
I'm still working out how the Christian creation myth came about though..
Seriously, I feel like some type of loser fangirl saying this so much, and in so many places. MO F-ing BARDON, MATES. There has never been a more adept magician to walk our earth since the modern rediscovery of electricity (the past 300 years). If there has been, they're the person pulling the strings behind the Illuminutti, and all of the negativity has a purpose. They've stayed in complete secret, and they've never contributed to science in their own name. This theory, as I'm sure you're aware, is unlikely.
ugh dont start with illuminati gibberish. the greatest guild on earth no doubt but there's too many gaps to fill.
no such thing as paradigms is something i've concluded ages ago. i guess that's why i'm into "chaos" magick but not even by its usual definitions.
anyway back on topic i'm still not really satisfied with the explanations so far over the whole existence thing. i mean... it can't be that simple. gut feeling. i won't say its a crisis but i think i'm looking for something other than "you're imagining it". if i am it disregards everyone on the planet as individuals making me basically the only "living" organism. it's not that i can't cope with that, it's just that it doesn't feel feasible. i won't say it wouldn't be worth the effort because if that's the way to go there's all these "meaning of
your life" things, but i'm saying it's a little redundant to spend this much energy on any singular instance of existence by a greater singular instance of existence. i suppose that's the philosophy behind anton la vey's "u r god" thing. it freaking
bores me. call me a psychopath. we've all the hints towards intelligent design that any logical thinking person will conclude to a greater-ness of some sort regardless of its shape or form (for example there'd even be forms of atheism that computes everything as a non-living instance of god).
my point is still this..
it's all here. all around and everywhere.
this is it, and from where we are,
there is no other. shit's overwhelming bruh.